66 Chapter 14: Relief

"So what were you two talking about?" Serena asked as i sat next to her

The sky was dark and we could see the stars

"I asked her where we were at, and where we were heading."

"And it took you that long..?"

"We ended up talking about a lot more things, Did you know, that there were magic academies and spells were given classes and ranks?" I asked

"Of course i knew..."

"Yeah, You know a lot of things, sometimes i'm not even surprised"

"Right back at you..."

"Fair"

"Hey john..." Serena muttered as she looked at me

"Yeah?"

"Is everything really okay?" She asked with with a slightly worried expression

"Huh..? What do you mean?"

"Elves have the ability to feel emotions... I could feel sadness coming from you..." Said Serena as she looked at the path

The path was illuminated by one of our light spells so there wasn't any problem seeing anything

"Looks like you got me..."

"Wanna talk about it..?" Serena asked as she continued to stare at the path

"Haven't you been sitting her for the past few hours? Aren't you getting tired?"

"Don't change try to change the subject, and no, i'm reinforcing myself with magic."

"If you can feel emotions does that mean you can feel a persons excitement? That means you could feel it whenever i get excited for a fight?!" I asked with shocked expression

"John!"

I looked at Serena and then stared at the path with her, There weren't any obstacles, it was just a nice quiet path at night. The only thing i could hear was the steps of the horses and Ariel talking with Eleanor at the back.

"Fine..." I muttered as i let out a sigh

Might as well tell her, there's no reason to hide it.

"When i was told i killed the mage, i felt relieved. I wasn't sad about it and didn't feel the least bit guilty. We could've tried to tie him up, but he most liekly would've gotten free and put us all in more danger... And i didn't want that..."

Even though i hated it... I still felt relieved... I took a peron's life even if i wasn't fully conscious at the time.

"I'm a horrible person... Even if he was evil... Because i'm so weak, i had to kill him, and didn't even hate it..."

I hung my head and i could feel tears streaming down my face as i said

"I'm just like him..."

Suddenly the carriage stopped and i felt something embrace me.

"Don't say that... You're nothing like him, What's wrong with being relieved that your friends are going to be safe? I was also relieved when you got rid of him, i was scared of what he could have done if he'd gotten away."

As i kept my head hung down, I could see tears dropping, they weren't mine, but Serena's.

Serena... but i...

As i was wondering that... I felt someone embrace me from my other side

"She's right..." muttered Ariel

Ariel..? When did you...

"Sorry, I overheard you two talking and i couldn't just sit back and watch... It doesn't matter how John felt or what you did, It won't change the fact that John did it to protect us. No matter what anyone says, John is a good guy, and that won't change

"You two... T-Thank you..." I muttered as i kept my head hung down...

The tears won't stop flowing... I can't show them my face like this... Ah, i can use magic too...

Thanks, but i'm fine now..." I said as i lifted up my head

"John, There's no use in trying to hide the tears. Your eyes are red" Said Serena as she stared at me with an interrogatory expression

"Even though you wiped yours away, it's obvious that you were crying." I said as i stared back with the same expression

"I have no idea what you're talking about." Said Serena as she grabbed on to the lead

The horses began to move and the carriage started was advancing

Serena kept looking at the path trying to act like nothing happened just now

"You two are so dishonest... It's obvious that you were both crying" Said Ariel

"We weren't!" Me and Serena simultaneously said as we looked over at Ariel

When we did, we were both surprised

"Ariel..." I muttered

"What's wrong?" Ariel asked

"You're still crying," I replied

"Eh?" Replied Ariel

And just like that we continued our journey to the capital of Xoleria.