Her spirit and body are so yearning for the liberation of death, together with the guilt of Qin lie and Qin Su, she can not suppress this turbulent killing intention. She is really broken from inside and outside this time, and she can not raise her spirit to resist the invasion of the disease.

She had no idea how much courage it would take to live on.

After the turning point of her life, it seemed that she did not encounter many things that made her feel happy. However, what made her feel more desperate was that the reason why she could live so long after the bankruptcy of the Luo family was actually due to her love and hatred for Fu Tingyuan.

When this feeling no longer focus on the point, Ronan early on the whole person, also disintegrated.

She can't love him any more, and she can't hate him any more - the baby can't be born, and he can't be with her.

She can't say that Fu Tingyuan was right about what he did to her, but it was right not to leave the child behind.

Understand all this can not let her how much better, her heart is still so painful, the truth for her is a dagger, it bit by bit in cutting her soul.

It made her unable to live completely.

It aggravated her condition and made her worse off than death.

Let her live in great despair every day, every second.

*

the aggravation of the drug made lornachi feel dizzy all day.

Alprazolam and nafazolone made her a little unable to think, while daily tranquilizers made her tired. She had never taken such a large dose before, and her body had severe rejection, vomiting and shaking, her heart racing, and then dizziness.

Ronan can't stand it sometimes. It's better to die if she goes on treatment like this. However, she feels that this kind of thought may be the negative effect of depression on her, and she wants to endure it.

She promised Qin lie to leave hospital. How can she stay in the hospital all the time.

However, to Ronan's despair, many times, many things never happen as she imagined.

She stayed in the hospital for more than half a month, but the situation did not improve much.

The nurse who looked after her sighed at her as if she were a hopeless patient.

She was actually a little aggrieved. After all, she has been so hard in taking medicine, how can you blame her if the medicine doesn't work.

Qin lie and Qin Su come to see her every day. They are not at ease that she is alone in the hospital, just like taking care of her before. They hope that she will get better. Luonan first smoked the pack of cigarettes left by Qin lie. The cigarette can remind her of the crazy and wanton past when she was young, which brings her a lot of illusory comfort.

If she gets better, will she be as happy as before?

But after smoking that pack of cigarettes, she didn't ask Qin lie to bring it again.

The past has been unable to paralyze her nerves of reality. Looking forward, she is still a bottomless abyss.

She may not be getting better.

The night was heavy.

Qin lie stayed in the ward and sat on the sofa with Luonan in his arms.

Ronan was already asleep. She had just taken the medicine and was sleeping soundly.

The medicine made her long hair rough. Qin lie reached out and lifted the broken hair on Luonan Chu's face and looked down at her gentle and quiet sleeping face.

She looked so good now, like a child who didn't know the world, but the doctor told him that Ronan needed to stay here for a while.

She's not getting better, and she needs to take a lot of drugs to control her depression.

*

ask for tickets ~ soon, Mr. Fu will come out and take ChuChu away. Everything will be OK, mamda. Just like Yan Ruyu said - although they refused to admit it, Fu Zha Zha was really the medicine of the beginning. Everything started because of him, and naturally he had to end it. He owes the beginning of his life, and he will pay it back all his life. ——Well, from Fu's mother.