Chapter 12

“Do you still have pain?”

Unlike his cold hands, every time he spoke, the breath that touched my neck was hot, and the heat that came up from my neck heated up to my cheeks.

Cold and hot.

The heart, which could not easily keep up with the difference between these two temperatures, moved

someone was squeezing it with hand.

It felt different from simply beating fast.

It was also difficult to breathe because it hurt under the left breastbone.

“… does it hurt?”

“No! I’m fine.!”

I quickly shook off his hand with my arm.

Felix looked at me with his eyes and eyebrows raised like a surprised cat.

I touched my neck before I could determine whether my neck hurt or not.

It was an action to separate Felix’s hand, which was still touching my neck.

A cold fingertip passed through my fingers.

Once again, I was surprised and added it urgently.

“Neck…..! It’s okay!”

I think it’s an excessive reaction, so I lowered my voice a little.

“So you don’t have to look at it anymore. It’s because I spilled some blood and I’m a little dizzy. It’ll be fine if I rest. Right, little boy?”

“Babuuuuuuu.”

The little boy, who kept holding the bed, murmured somewhat helplessly.

The situation was chaotic until moments ago, so I wondered whether the little boy was shocked.?

I don’t know how the little boy felt, and I don’t know what he is thinking.

I thought he might have been surprised by the man’s vulgar movements.

Even though he was a baby, he could distinguish between those who liked him and those who showed hostility, so he might have felt killing intent from the man.

Please…., I hope he forgets about what happened today.

I didn’t want what happened today to be a trauma to the little boy.

“Come here, little boy. It’s all right now.”

I took the little boy in my hand and patted his back.

When I winked, Felix put the little rabbit doll in the little boy’s hand.

With the doll in his hand, the little boy looked at me and Felix alternately with anxious eyes.

“It’s really okay baby. Look. Felix and I are the only ones here. No one will hurt you.”

I carefully comforted the little boy who hugged me and laid him on my lap.

Next to me, Felix murmured,

“I won’t let that too……..”

Unlike his usual grumbling voice, he somehow seemed to have lost energy.

I looked at him for a moment with doubt.

But when he made eye contact with me, he turned his head away.

It was completely different from his usual self.

He clenched his fist and sighed deeply, just like when he was relieving his anger.

“What’s wrong with him all of a sudden?’

I patted the baby’s warm stomach with my hands while my eyes were facing the back of Felix’s head.

After a while I turned my head towards the little boy and murmured in his ears.

“I would have told you to ignore Felix, but today he helped us, so let’s let it slide. Even if you can’t talk, you have to thank Felix, okay?”

“Dadabuuuuu.”

The little boy put the rabbit toy’s ear in his mouth with a more comfortable look.

After looking up at me for a while, he stretched his hand up, not holding the doll, as if he wanted to play with my hair.

Like Rapunzel from the fairy tale Tangled, I gathered my hair to one side and lowered it to the child.

“I’m just letting it slide today, okay…? You can’t do this on other days. And don’t pull too hard.”

“Bubuuuuuuu”

But the little boy still stretched his hands out without giving a glance to my hair, as if he wanted something else.

“Babuuuuuu!’

He stretch his hand out very hard, so I lifted him slightly up.

However, he tilted his head back and forth as if he was struggling.

Still, he didn’t give up.

The little boy put his hand down for a while, breathed, and stretched his arms out again.

“Babuuuuuuuuu!”

“Why? What’s wrong?”

I took my head closed and looked at the child more closely.

The little boy’s small hand, filled with shiny saliva, touched my neck.

There are no more traces, but the little boy touched near the place where I got hurt…

Is this child aware that I was hurt, or was it just he felt something since Felix and I kept paying attention to our necks, or was it just a coincidence?

I didn’t know, but I felt comforted by his bubbly cheeks and sparkling eyes looking at me.

“I’m fine, little boy. It doesn’t hurt anymore. Felix treated me.”

“Dabuuuu.”

I grabbed the slippery hand with saliva and impulsively kissed the little boy’s palm.

“So don’t worry and sleep. It’s time for your nap. After a good night’s sleep, you’ll forget all the bad memories.”

“And such a thing won’t happen again, and even if that happens again, I’ll protect you, little boy.”

“In what way…… In what way will you protect him Elly.?”

Felix, who had been turning his back on me, looked at me.

The reason was unknown, but one thing was clear.

He was getting angry.

At me, not someone else…

“Is he your child….? If you treat him so dearly, will he start calling you mom? You’re someone, he won’t even remember when he grows up.”

Felix’s voice was quite exasperated.

“No, not when he grows up. He’ll forget everything in a few days when he goes back to where you he came from.”

“What are you talking about Felix all of a sudden?”

“What are you talking about…… That’s what I want to ask you. What on earth did you say to that criminal?”

Felix’s voice gradually grew louder and exploded at the end.

His question seemed closer to venting his anger out than asking a question.

The little boy, who was chewing the doll with his eyes half closed, flapped his body like a fish and cried.

“Ewawoo00000000…

Felix didn’t care about the little boy’s tears.

“You wanted him to let off the baby and volunteered yourself to be a hostage?”

“Is that something to say in a situation like that? Did you know what that means? Do you think you have 10 lives? Or doesn’t it matter even if you die?”

When he pointed out my actions that I had doubts about, there was nothing to refute.

Since I also acted impulsively.

I took the little boy in my arms, who was still surprised by Felix, who was still angry, and calmed Felix down, choosing my words.

“Does it matter. He’s a baby. He’s so young, he can’t even walk alone. Anyone who’s not me would have done the same. It would have been the same even if it were you. Right.?”

At first, I explained calmly, but while speaking, strangely, my emotions became intense, so my words became faster and my voice rose.

Felix tried to answer back, but I shook my head and continued what I had to say.

“And who was going to die? Rather, it was easy for me to act when I handed over the kid safely and became alone. It would have been much easier to get out of the way because I didn’t have to protect the little boy.!”

“So how were you planning on doing that!”

Felix’s face became red in the blink of an eye.

“ What do you mean by I would do the same thing.?…..No. I wouldn’t have created such a situation in the first place. Even if I was taken as a hostage, I would have escaped as soon as I was taken. What about you? What would have you done.?”

Unlike a little while ago, his voice was colder than his hand.

My heart ached as if the ice awl was poking into my heart. I forgot to pat the kid on the back and stared blankly at Felix.

I was confused as if the aftereffects of bleeding finally appeared.

“Why were you provoking your opponent, even if you can’t do anything. You should have stay still in that situation? What if he really cut your throat? No, before that, you definitely learned magic in class to prepare for such an attack… right.?”

“Why didn’t you use a magic spell at that criminal?”

Felix says meanly right things, so I couldn’t say anything this time,

“If you can’t do anything in such a situation, why are you even attending the academy?”

As if it wasn’t enough to trample on my last piece of pride with his feet, Felix ripped it into shreds.

Even though I knew better than anyone else that what he said was true, my eyes kept turning blurry with the tears started forming on my eyes.

Even though I closed my mouth and breathed heavily through my nose, the tears didn’t stop.

Even if I bit my lips tightly with my front teeth, it didn’t stop.

Seeing that, Felix didn’t say anything more.

Felix turned his back towards me and looked at the ceiling and sighed deeply a few times as if he was organizing his thoughts in his own way.

I dropped my head down and looked at the quiet kid for a moment.

“Why didn’t you use magic spell?”

As Felix said, I definitely learned magic in preparation for such an attack in class.

But the thing was even though I understand the theory behind Magic, I was weak in practical application of Magic.

Sadly, I have never succeeded in counterattack magic in my classes.

In addition, there was a kid in my arms whom I had to protect.

If I had used magic poorly in that situation, in the worst case, the kid might have been hurt.

As Felix said, if I were that good at magic, I would have been able to get out safely without any worries.

So Felix’s words were not wrong at all.

But why Felix said it like that…

I know what he meant, but he didn’t have to say it that way?

Did Felix think I was attending the academy just for fun, since I had nothing to do?

Or was he laughing at me, who had been struggling with no magic skills?

Did my desperate efforts seem like a joke to Felix?

If Felix had been in such a situation, would I have said this to me carelessly?

As he said, he never would have let that happen in the first place.

The fear and anxiety I felt were feelings that he would never know even if he died and woke up, someone who grow up playing with Magic from birth.

“Elly. I didn’t mean…”

He started again with a calmer voice as if his emotions were all organized, but I couldn’t.

“Why? Do you still have something to say?”

A sharp voice popped out from my mouth like a broken piece of glass without realizing.

“Elly, that’s not what I meant…”

“Stop.. I don’t want to hear anymore.”

“That’s right. You’re right, and it’s not that I don’t understand either.”

I looked up at Felix.

His face looked blurry due to the tears that started overflowing from my eyes, so I couldn’t tell what expression he was making.

“Did you also think me as a failure to be a wizard. I thought………… I thought at least you believed in me.”