His voice, tone is he can not imagine the gentle, "Tong teacher ~"
Hearing the sound, tongxinyi slowly came to see, clear eyes like a layer of fog, dark without light, not a bit of God color.
Qin Shuang's heart tightly grasped, but forced a smile, went to the bed and sat down, touched her hand hanging liquid.
Hanging the needle, his hand was a little cold. He put it in the palm of his hand and covered it with a quilt.
Looking up again, he looked at her. He wanted to say too much, but he couldn't speak.
That said and did not say look at the childlike innocence Yi funny, she laughed, white lips pulled down, "... I'm ok!"
His voice was low and hoarse, as if mixed with sand.
This time still comfort him, Qin frost hear uncomfortable, he quietly rubbed her hand, always feel not as soft as before.
She seems to have lost a lot of weight these days.
Qin Shuang looks at Tong Xinyi again. Her eyes are bigger than before, which means she is really thin.
A miscarriage does a lot of harm to women. He wants Ji Qiu to take care of Tong Xinyi and stew some tonic soup. But when he thinks about how to tell the elder about miscarriage, he can't say it!
Qin Shuang finally asked, "do you feel uncomfortable?"
Tong Xinyi shakes her head, and the empty hand gropes on her stomach and rubs it. She looks at Qin Shuang's self mocking smile, "it just feels like something is missing."
That smile stabbed Qin Shuang almost instantly. He apologized subconsciously, "I'm sorry!"
"No, I should say I'm sorry. It's my fault. I shouldn't be so excited. The doctor said he wanted to have a rest, but I didn't control myself. It's all my fault!"
Tongxinyi said to shed tears, at this moment, maybe only remorse to vent the heart of the chagrin and regret, for the lost child cry will feel worthy of him.
She's right, but she still blames herself?
Qin Shuang couldn't listen any more. Looking at Tong Xinyi, who was tearful and sad, she was so excited that she grabbed her hand. "No, no, you listen to me. You're right. It's my fault, it's mine, it's me..."
Words are rushed to the mouth, looking at tongxinyi hazy tears, eyeground tears flashing, he can't go on, how to say, say tongxinyi how?
He wants to get, he does not want to go and her stranger that step, do not want to go to the end of her life hate.
All things, must swallow, everything, by him to bear like, can't let her know!
Tong Xinyi waited for a long time. Seeing Qin Shuang take a deep breath, she said, "I didn't protect you. I said I wanted to protect him, but I still didn't do it. It's all my fault!"
He said, also covered in tongxinyi on the stomach of the hand, gently rub.
He screwed his eyebrows, his cheeks were tight, and the muscles between his teeth were ferocious.
It's not remorse, it's guilt.
His hand was held, Qin Shuang raised her eyes, looking at Tong Xinyi's gentle smile to him, "let's not be like this, we are all right, maybe, maybe it's fate!"
For the lost child, Tong Xinyi used predestined fate, probably the only way to explain, so that both sides are not trapped in self blame.
That's the only way to think.
But Qin Shuang feels strange.
Before, because of fetal arrest, Tong Xinyi blamed him for all her mistakes. She had nothing to find fault with, lost her temper, satirized him, ridiculed him, and even attacked him. But now that the child is gone, she is so calm that she can only blame herself and have no resentment against him.
Qin Shuang looks at Tong Xinyi creepily and smiles at her.
That smile only for a moment, the next moment, raised the corner of the mouth on the droop down, tongxinyi with Qin Shuang's hand rubbing the stomach, where empty, no longer look forward to and look forward to the past.
She said with a bitter smile, "maybe you don't believe it. I always have a premonition that this child can't stay. I don't know why?"
what?
Qin Shuang surprised to see to her, see of childlike innocence Yi again is a burst of wry smile, "I don't know why, feel you know?"? From then on, when I took medicine, I had a baby. I thought he was not coming at the right time and wanted to take him away. But later, because of you, I decided to stay, then the fetus stopped, and today, I always have a premonition that he will leave sooner or later! "
Is it?
Just because I felt that I couldn't keep it, I always found fault with him at that time. In fact, was it because I was so scared that I had nowhere to vent?
Qin Shuang felt uncomfortable and didn't know how to comfort her, so she could only say, "you still have me!"
Smell speech, childlike heart Yi as expected smile, nodded, "to ah!"
Adults are sometimes like this. They know it's an unreliable lie, but they are willing to believe it.
Qin Shuang is with her because of her child. Now that the child is gone, they are divorced. How long can they go? It's an unknown number!
But Tong Xinyi refuses to think. At the moment, she only has Qin Shuang. He is her spiritual pillar, and she doesn't want to collapse.
Thinking about it, Qin Shuang said, "teacher Tong, I heard that the last child you didn't keep will come to you next time, because he thinks you are his mother!" Hearing this, Tong Xinyi's eyes suddenly brightened. She had heard this before. It was not made up by Qin Shuang. Therefore, it should be reasonable. Like catching the straw, tongxinyi grabs Qin Shuang's hand and nods her head excitedly, "that's what I've heard." Looking at tongxinyi, Qin Shuang breathes out to herself. She doesn't know what it looks like. She turns it out to coax her. Unexpectedly, it's really useful. Qin Shuangxin's long body leans down, embraces Tong Xinyi, and kisses her side face, "yes, so you get better as soon as possible, we just want another one." Tong Xinyi nodded her head and closed her eyes, tears falling quietly from the corner of her eyes. At this moment, she feels Qin Shuang's temperature and mind, and her vacant heart has finally been filled. They are always like this. They hurt each other at ordinary times, but when they have a problem, they hug each other to comfort each other. For a long time, tongxinyi was comforted, and her mood was calmed. She looked up at Qin Shuang's chin with stubble. "I'm very happy that you can choose me." Qin Shuang was stunned, and then she reflected that she was talking about kidnapping. Seeing her smiling face, he felt bitter. How to say, this kidnapping is just a trial of people's heart, just a prank. He said with a smile, "I'm sure I'll choose you!" Tong Xinyi smiles like a child, "you don't know, I thought you would choose her at that time. I'm so afraid you would choose her. I just want to know what to do with my child. You can't give up on him. I really thought..." teacher Tong! " Qin Shuang interrupts her in a deep voice. Looking at her, he is annoyed, and his tone is also bad. "How can I not choose you? Teacher Tong, you always have no confidence in me. You should... Trust me more. " Her throat was full of bitterness again. She felt her breath choked. It was because she believed him that Gu Xiang had a chance to take advantage of him. He's an asshole! Qin Shuang swore with anger, "you don't know, I will let you live even if I die!" A hot lip, he was tongxinyi fingers gently pressed.