Chapter 64: Please talk to me

He nodded, somewhat cautiously. "I know that we have been avoiding what happened the day of the storm..." I trailed off preparing him for what I was saying and also preparing myself, it was not an easy task.

"But," I carried on, "I don't think that we can ignore it forever. I know that I didn't act very well… well, ok I acted like a f**king idiot, but I was just in shock and-" I finished, not knowing what else to say and looked at him and he was just looking at me with a blank expression.

"John? Please talk to me. I had a few reservations about getting married so soon after all this shit that had happened, I was and still am happy that we slept together and it was not a mistake and I want to marry you, I really did, or still do I just had a few issues I needed to deal with and they are all dealing with now so…

if you still have the offer open?" I finished meekly because his face had not changed. He still just sat there, looking at me. "Do you love me?" he asked suddenly I looked at him in shock, how could he think that I didn't?

"Of course I bloody love you. How could you not even know that?" I retaliated "Well, first we sleep together and I thought that you loved me then but when I asked you to marry me, you did not look very happy. You just sat there.

I mean after all that we have been through over the years and you sat there and when you started to talk you sounded like you wanted to be anywhere but there" He finished painfully I looked over at him and saw the pain I had caused him. I felt terrible.

I walked over to the chair that he was sitting in and crouched down to him and placed my hands on his thighs. I felt him stiffen at first but relax a few minutes later.

"John. I am sorry. Ok, listen to this. Ever since the day that you came home to live with your family I had a crush on you. I fell in love with you days later.

When I found out that you were leaving, I was upset. I did not know that I was in love with you just yet but it hurt. I noticed that I was in love with you when you never even called to congratulate me on having the triplets."

I stopped for a minute trying to put emotions into words. "When I found out that you were their dad at first it was shocking. I did not even remember you from the party but after that passed I was happy.

I do not know why but the idea of us raising the triplets together made me unbelievably happy.

Then you left" my voice broke and I tried not to cry, "You left because you overreacted about something so stupid. I noticed that if you loved me then you would know that I would never, never done something like that to you.

John, you have to understand that I want to get married and I have now dealt with all the shit that we have gone through but if you are not able to trust me 1000% then it will not work and I do not think that I could deal with that and it would not be fair to our family and especially the triplets. But I want to marry you. I love you and I always will"

These last few days have given it to me and you and I do want to marry you. I will get down on my knees right now and beg if I have to" with that he got off the chair and I stood up, hoping to be at eye level but then he got on the ground, kneeling. "Amelia…

I have been in love with you for many years. My heart aches to be with you all the time. When we are together I just want to be closer. I want to raise our family together and to see what you look like in fifty years. I want to see our grandchildren and great-grandchildren and even a few more children.

Nothing could take my love away from you now. What do you say to be my wife?" he finished. I looked at him with tears and laughter, it was a different proposal than I had ever imagined but for some reason it was perfect. I looked at him with a smiled and replied.

"Yes, I will marry you" It was three days before the rain had quietened down enough for the emergency crew to reach the house.