Because in her heart, she still felt that she was a weak southerner.
In this winter, the little orange garden is more and more desolate.
In the room, there are a few pieces of black charcoal in the heater, which is only a little colder than outside.
Jiao Mei, the servant girl, took the embroidery she had embroidered a few days ago to Jinxiu square in South Street to exchange money. Ye Sang was alone in the room, wrapped in the cloak, but she could still feel a little cold light coming into the slit, stimulating her nerves, but she still didn't leave her morning reading.
Outsiders say that ye Sang's eyes don't know Ding, but who knows that the most thing she has done over the years is reading.
Similarly, no one knows that yesang's previous life is really academic absurdity. She has nothing to do and has nothing to do for her whole life. Because her family is rich, she doesn't need to worry about her future at all. Only when she wakes up and becomes a child without mother's love and father's love, does she know the bitterness and bitterness of this world.
She used to be a rich woman with nothing to do. She didn't know how to fight in the deep courtyard, and she was not as good at everything as other female masters in the novels. She was also good at literature, martial arts and medicine. Besides, she was helpless and the environment didn't allow her. She couldn't beat those vicious and insidious stepmothers and talented and beautiful girls.
She can only survive with her five-year-old body, but she is still murdered by the Xu family one after another. If it wasn't for her hard life, she would have died long ago and become a corpse in a disordered grave.
At that time, she knew how hard it was to learn to live.
In her last life, what she should not do is to think that as long as she sits there, she will be able to get something. Otherwise, why can she fall asleep after drinking a glass of wine handed to her by her best friend, and then cross here to face the situation of dying struggle at the beginning.
Xu wanted to drown her. She floated in the lotus pool, up and down, and almost drowned. If she had not learned how to float at the last moment, she would have been drowned at the bottom of the pool and turned into the seasoning at the bottom of the lotus pool.
Xu wanted to poison her, so she secretly borrowed some medical books from the doctor who was invited by the government. She knew them by heart.
If Xu wanted to frame her, plant her and kill her, she would clench her teeth and live. She would secretly run and exercise every night, so that she would not die.
Xu wanted to burn her and kill her, so she learned everything by herself. She didn't need any irrelevant servants any more. She was close to the little orange garden.
For a long time, I don't know whether it's because killing Ye sang has become a dispensable idea, or whether ye sang is becoming more and more cautious, more and more careful, which makes her unable to start. Xu no longer does it himself, but coldly puts her three children to torment her.
Fortunately, although Xu's little tricks are vicious, they are the women who come out of the market. Their thinking and ideas are very shallow. There are only a few tricks back and forth, and ye sang is still struggling to support them.
Oh, there are too many enmities in the big family. She knows best that it was like this in the past life, and it is still like this in this life.
But the biggest difference is that in her previous life, she had a huge family behind her and could do anything she wanted. Now, she can only live on her own in this deep cement pit.
In the past, she was arrogant and never paid attention to anyone. Now, she has changed a lot.
Thinking of this, ye sang took the book's hand for a meal. She looked at her hand with thin cocoon. It was much rougher than the previous life, but it was much more real. She couldn't help thinking about it.
But even if her life was not good, she still wanted to live, and wanted to live well.
So when she knew that she was going to marry into the general's house, she knew that she was far away from her when she was just trying to settle down
He who should come always comes.
Thinking, ye Sang's heart settled down, his eyes were calm, and he continued to read the book in his hand.
Sure enough, I don't know if it is to fulfill her idea. Before Jiao Mei comes back, Ye Jing, who is used to be in the small orange garden, is broken.
A strong pungent smell of wine came to my face.
"Sister, it's so cold today. Would you like to warm up in your brother's arms?"
Ye Jiajun breaks into the house and looks at Ye sang, who is alone in the house. His eyes show his salivation without concealment.
A few days ago, the general's house came in advance. Ye Jiajun was not in the house. Instead, he followed a few friends to spend a few days in Hualou. As soon as he came back, he went to Ye Sang's little orange garden drunk.
Ye Jiajun would not dare to come on weekdays.
Although Ye sang is usually easy to bully and submissive, ye Jiajun is very clear. Ye sang is actually more cruel than anyone else.
He still remembers that once, after he insulted her, she almost bit his ear off.
Because of his shame, he didn't tell anyone about it. Even if he had someone dig Ye Sang's mother's grave later, he still couldn't get rid of his anger, and the shadow was still the shadow.