Chapter 585

Quiet night, quiet living room, at this moment, the world seems to be the only breathing sound of Chu Yuan and I, this girl is really honest, just obediently lying on my body, let me caress her scattered long, uniform sucking and vomiting rhythm, let me doubt whether she is comfortable has gone to sleep.

She is really like a disgusting kitten. Her body is soft, warm and gentle. Just cuddling up like this, I feel incomparably comfortable and comfortable. I even hate to throw her out of the bed. I think that if she falls asleep like this, it will be very good.

but contrary to our wishes, Chu Yuan's murmuring like a problem broke the harmony Atmosphere.

"Brother, you don't like me, is it because I don't understand?"

"Well?" I was stunned.

Chu Yuan hook my shoulder arm slightly force, to pull up a body, pillow my head on my shoulder, exhaled heat in my neck, fragrant, itchy, "I know why you hate me, because from the day we become family, I have taken away a lot of things that belong to you."

The evening breeze slowly, already had the cool night, Chu Yuan's round fragrant shoulder exposed in the air, can't help but fight a cold war, I pulled the quilt up, laughed disapprovingly, "is it?"

"Yes," Chu Yuan's voice was very thin, which really seemed to be talking in a dream, but it gave people a very serious feeling, "your room, your toys, your clothes, your pocket money, and dad's pet. If you didn't have me, you could have more and more. I know that you must have hated me."

I was silent, because I couldn't refute it. Chu Yuan was right. I hated her, especially when she was wronged. I always thought that if she had never been a girl in my family and I had never been her sister, maybe I always wanted to be a good brother, but I couldn't find a brother The feeling is that for this reason, not only Chuyuan is rejecting me, but I am also rejecting Chuyuan. In my subconscious mind, I am not willing to admit that the smelly girl who takes half of my happiness or even more happiness is my sister. Maybe jealousy is one of the important reasons. Chu Yuan is beautiful and has good grades. When she was very young, people around me were not Praise her and look forward to the future for her. It seems that from then on, we are sure that my sister must have an unusual life. Even I firmly believe that her future is destined to be different, because she is so excellent

until today, I am not sure whether my yearning for the ordinary is due to my lack of self-confidence, which is more than Chu Yuan's Wonderful future, so like a coward to find a seemingly different excuse to escape the established reality, I can only be sure that I really hate Chu Yuan.

"Mom always praises you for being sensible, because she knows that you have been wronged and abused by my father because of me, but you never say it out, and you always bear it in silence. Even if I did something wrong, you didn't tell me once, and you tried your best to cover up me, or even carry the blame for me. No matter what I did, you would give me accommodation, Tolerate me, on the contrary, I often find fault with you and sue you "

in fact, this is what I want to know most - why do you always have trouble with me? The world can't hate for no reason. Even if I think about something in my heart, I never say it out.

Chu Yuan is not normal. The powerful girl I know won't admit that she is wrong, but I clearly hear the girl whispering in my ear: "I know that the boy I want to call my brother is hurting me From the first time I saw him, I knew that, but I didn't know how to approach him and accept him. I was different from him. He was a few years older than me, but he was still a child. He spoke like an adult. He knew everything, but I didn't know anything. He was very kind to me and good to mother. I even thought that my mother liked him and passed me because he was better than everything I strong, I began to feel afraid, afraid that he would take my mother, my only family, so I do not know how to get along with him, no matter how good he is to me, no matter how much I like him to treat me like this, I have always been wary of him, I never thought that we are a family, my mother likes you and likes me as much, I have not lost anything I also got a lot - Dad and his love for me, on the contrary, he lost a lot, because he is a brother, delicious, good drink, fun, not only let me have everything, but also sacrifice his own time to take care of me. I was afraid that he would take away my happiness, but unconsciously, it was I who took everything that belonged to him, but when I understood these things At that time, he had become a gas receiver at home "

that's what happened. I wanted to laugh, but I couldn't come out. The answer to the question that had been suppressed in my heart for nearly ten years was so simple

Chu Yuan rubbed my ears with his head and asked," brother, do you think there are people in the world who can't be angry and have no temper? "

"No," I said with a smile: "people have temperaments, but they can endure different degrees. Some people can bear it, some people can't bear it, some people can't bear it at all"

"right? So you can't be angry, "Chu Yuan interrupted me and said," because when you went to school, no, even now, you always fight with others, even if you are angry with sister Zizi. You don't talk to her for a few days. You quarrel with your father. He beat you badly, but you don't want to be soft. My mother told me that you are a man with backbone and pride, You know how to tolerate, but it's not cowardice. You are always tolerant, but you are not always compromising. In fact, you are very angry, but you have never been angry with me. Even if I tear the important letter left by sister purple, you have never scolded me. You hide from me and don't want to see me. You are afraid that you will be angry with me. "With that, Chu Yuan began to sob, as if he had been greatly wronged, and sobbed: "why can't I have a temper? Why is the heart dissatisfied also never say to me? My mother often said that life is tea, rice, oil, salt, soy sauce, vinegar, tea, pots, pans, knives, forks, chopsticks, and so on. It's normal even if there are some quarrels between brothers and sisters? It's not normal not to have a fight once? When I was a child, I didn't understand it. When I grew up, I finally understood that you didn't like me. You hated me. I was just afraid that my father and mother would quarrel over our affairs

For the first time, the secret in my heart was broken for the first time, and it was not others who broke the secret, but Chu Yuan! I was flustered, she said right, but not completely right, my feelings, is very contradictory, I do not deny that I hate her, but I do not admit that I hate her, do not like her - Chuyuan has shortcomings, but she has more advantages!

"You have asked me many times why I hate Cheng tassel. Now I tell you, because I am jealous of her!" Chu Yuan suddenly sat up, of course, sitting on me, overlooking my eyes, flowing with complex feelings, I was stunned, and she used a low voice, with a calm tone of contradiction with the expression, slowly said: "little purple sister abroad, I want to apologize to you, I hope you can scold me or beat me, I imagine You can be angry with me, so you don't have to hold your grievances and depression in your heart. Then, as long as I admit my mistake obediently, you will change your view on me and think that I am not a girl who only knows how to be unreasonable. If I am your closest person, why should you hide your feelings from me? I don't want your hypocritical pet. Even if you are as strict as your mother to me, I hope you can be frank with me "

similarly, when I went to buy rice, Chu Yuan also said in the city. Originally, what she said at that time was not tassels, but her own

" but I was too stupid, I didn't know how to apologize, you treated me better after discharge, but I was even better than when I was in hospital Sorry, you are not sincere. You are afraid that I will do stupid things again. At that time, you must have thought in your heart: "this stinky girl is really hateful. She not only tore Xiaozi's letter, but also abused herself, and nearly made me a sinner." but you didn't know that I urged you to go home because I was really worried about you. When I sat in the snow, I didn't blame you. I was very happy Willing to punish themselves! I just want to atone, I want to admit my mistake to you, but every time I mention the little purple sister, your hypocritical smile, let me talk to the mouth but can't say it! I'm too useless. I don't even know how to make you have a temper with me. "The more the stinky girl said, the more excited she was. Although she tried to suppress her voice, her tears could no longer stop. The big ones rolled down and dropped on my chest. The burning temperature seemed to burn through my heart.

I reached out to wipe the corners of her eyes, but she grabbed her wrist and opened a small bite on the back of my hand. I don't know if she is afraid of crying out, or she hates my hypocrisy. Maybe, there are both. She bites hard, she cries and hysterically.

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