Chapter 718

I know this is the question Chu Yuan can not avoid at last, and it is also the answer I am destined to face. But I can never think that this shy and shy girl will condense the answer to this question into three words with such impact.

My heart was pulled into a thin line, tangled and tangled, and made a mess, so that my head was hidden, and I could not find it. I could feel the rigidity of facial muscles, and the barely raised corner of my mouth, twitching and laughing. "Brother knew it long ago, you like it"

not like it, it is love! " Chu Yuan stressed that the voice was very loud this time, but then the voice was like skiing in mountains and falling rapidly. "You said" dislike "and" hate "are different. Then I say" like "and" love "are different. I don't like Cheng Liusu because I like you, I hate Cheng Liusu because I love you"

"you a little girl, know what love is ？”

"I know! Love is a hidden love, love is not covered up like! " Chu Yuan's lips tremble, her eyelashes tremble, her body trembling, her voice trembling. But she still summoned all her courage and looked at my eyes and said, "I wanted to tell you long ago, I wanted to tell you since I was very young, but I don't know why I always want to cover it up. I regret to die after you leave home after college. I can't think of it, and I can't think about it, and I can't think about it I don't want to think about how I survived that year. I can't stand that day. I look forward to the relocation of the school every day. Finally, when that day, I became the only one who didn't complain and complain. I was brave enough to tell my parents to move to live with you. I did it. I thought it was the chance God gave me to make up for it. I began to learn to be brave, but I started to learn to be brave I don't know how to hide it. How can I tell you what I think in my heart, until now - I don't have to worry anymore, because you already know, I still want to cover it up, but I can't cover it up, so I can finally make sure that it is love and I don't like it anymore! "

A lightning tore the sky above her head and a thunder blew in the crack. This is the most feared thing of Chu Yuan. But at this moment, she didn't respond. So I knew that what she was more afraid of was my answer

maybe Chu Yuan thought that she had expected the answer, so she grabbed my hand and refused to release it.

Maybe I also feel that I have known the answer so I didn't hesitate to agree to her request.

But we are all wrong.

It is love. It is no longer like to pour this sentence into my ears with that thunder. I suddenly found that the worldly moral vision is not as penetrating as it is imagined, and the shackles of ethics are not as heavy as imagined, penetrating, the sound of heartbreaking at the bottom of Chu Yuan. What makes me feel heavy is her sadness that she is deeply in her heart.

I laughed, I couldn't tell the taste of laughter, a little panic, a little vanity, a little bitter, a little sweet [br >

shocked to calm only a moment, I was surprised not why calm, but why shocked - when I saw the novel of the stinky girl, before seeing the novel of the stinky girl, Chu Nan, you did not have to find everything?

"You can laugh," simple Chu Yuan can not see through the complicated me, she bit the lower lip without blood color, and she can not let herself lose to fear, and she can not cry to admit her vulnerability. She wants to laugh at herself, but makes beautiful herself laugh ugly for the first time. Ugly is so haggard, ugly, so cute. "Laughing at me is not only a little fart child, but also a little fart child Is a mental distortion, the little fart child, laugh I always pretend to hate you, but now naive say love you, but I tell you, I am not sick! The world is sick! Dad and mom are just the reason why I met you. Why is this reason why I can't like you, can't love you?! If one reason is changed, if another one is changed "

br > Chu Yuan chokes and can not breathe. She chokes and even cannot speak the next word. Her back is inlaid with my hand." Wow - "a voice, Chu Yuan cried, she cried, and the wailing of heathy was crying.

She pours into my arms, and puts her clasped left hand against her heart, which seems to make me feel the pain of tearing her. The blood on my back seems to flow out of her heart. [br >

she pounded my shoulder with her weak right hand. "Why? Why? Why is this wrong, why is that wrong? Why can dad and mom be together forever, and I can't be with you forever? Why am I your closest person, but I can only watch others take you away reasonably? Why do I just want to stay with you, is unreasonable? unfair! The world is too unfair to me! Let me meet you, but let me be your sister! "

Every word and word of Chu Yuan hit my heart. I couldn't answer her 'why', even if it was any 'why', I couldn't answer it. I couldn't tell the taste of her heart. Besides the slightest relief at the moment, Chu Yuan finally cried, and finally didn't have to suppress the secret of the bottom of her heart, and let it destroy the self that was not strong.

Just now, I was scared, afraid to bear Chu Yuan who couldn't cry out, and I would faint in that way. At that moment, her face and her eyes were hopeless, without even a trace of vitalityI don't know if what she was afraid of at that moment was "loss", but I was sure that I was afraid of her despair and what I would lose

what would I lose? God knows, but when this girl threw herself into my arms and cried, when she still did not release our clasped hands, when I kept my promise and did not let go of her hand, when I held her and stroked her head as usual, I felt that I would not lose

Life is like a note, in the limited number of pages, there is the happiness that I expect to write However, the appearance of someone and the disappearance of someone tear up all the blank pages that haven't been described yet.

since then, happiness has nowhere to write

since then, longing to disillusionment

Yes, if there is no happiness of Chu Yuan in my life, then how to describe happiness in my blank page?

Perhaps I have never looked forward to, so I do not know what is disillusionment, but if there is no place to write about happiness, the result must be disillusionment.

If it is doomed that the appearance of disillusionment will make Chu Yuan's happiness disappear from my notes, then

to + his + mother's + disillusionment!

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sitting in the last row of seats of the last bus, Chuyuan, who was already tired of crying, was still sobbing and hugging my arm. He was afraid that I would slip away as soon as I was like a drop of water on the window.

no doubt, we have become the focus again. The few passengers on the bus are secretly looking back and observing us In the eyes, in addition to ambiguous, or ambiguous

two wet men and women - a crying girl, a calm young man, tightly clasped each other's hands, silently nestled together, the girl is so delicate, so beautiful and good, if I see this scene, I can't help but wonder, I will take it for granted that they have stories Along the way, Chu Yuan did not speak any more. I knew that she needed to calm down her mood, and I also needed to reorganize my thoughts.

The most difficult person to face is always myself. I thought that I was an alternative who could stand on an objective position to have a dialogue with myself. But the final choice to have a dialogue with Chuyuan also proved that I can do this - I have the same psychological problems as Chuyuan, so if I can't objectively look at myself, I won't admit it and be subjective As in the past, I blindly choose to escape and deceive others in order to avoid the heavy weight of those weird eyes and ethical shackles

but now, Chu Yuan's questioning and tears have made me fall into a kind of chaos. I can't tell whether I am still objective - I don't have the courage to hurt myself, but I don't have the courage to hurt Chu Yuan When she said what she wanted, she only said what she was afraid of losing. However, my feelings were still unsolved for me. The only thing I knew was that I couldn't persuade myself to do any harm to Chu Yuan. Even if I knew clearly that the relationship between my brother and sister would not be tolerated by this society, I would not have been ignored Does a society tolerate existence?

I don't know if I'm hypnotizing the objective and subjective consciousness with my contempt for the society, but I'm sure that, like Chu Yuan, I also have my own bottom line. We don't allow ourselves to cross our own bottom line.

The bottom line of Chu Yuan is to hold hands even if everything is lost. So my bottom line is that I would rather lose everything and never let go!

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