Chapter 835

Xu Heng looked at me without expression for a long time. After a long time, he said with a bitter smile: "I didn't think about my own tomorrow, nor did I think about what the future is. A person full of hatred in his head probably can't think of so many. He challenges the rules and destroys the laws that I can't stand. All of them sound good and can hypnotize me and strengthen the faith of revenge excuse? I don't know very well myself, but everyone who has done something wrong is willing to find a reason for himself, isn't he? I didn't seem to think about it seriously until I came back to Beitian. I only had one thing in my mind in recent years. I lived for it. I lived and died. I didn't care about how I lived or died. I just went with the flow. I've been wandering outside these years, but I'm still living like this? It seems to be a matter of course to kill long Xiaotian and to die in the end of the world. I don't need to think about it. But who could have expected that one day and a year before everything came, I met such a little girl in a city. She was betrayed and abandoned by her companion, just like I was betrayed and abandoned by the society and the so-called justice He yiruan took her away. Loneliness is a terrible thing. At first, I just sympathized with her and pitied her. Later, I gradually took her as my sister's substitute. Later, I unconsciously took her as my own sister. So she was proud, indifferent and merciless. I told her everything to her, including I wanted to revenge long Xiaotian I didn't intend to let her participate in this matter. I tried my best to stop her, but she still got involved. She went to Beitian earlier than me and waited for me for more than a month. When I knew that she was also in Beitian, it was the time when I had to send out the arrow. At that time, I had just cheated Xiao Zhanhe into reporting long Xiaotian and had to deal with green snake The barbarian and their several animals also pacify the girl who is willing to help me. She is afraid that she will go to revenge long Xiaotian and let my accomplices, especially green snake, know the existence of xiaonuo. He is really a snake. He is suspicious and ruthless, but he has a very smart head. As long as he suspects that I have left a hand on him, there is no need to be too practical Evidence, he will kill me, so I let Xiao Nuo come to this hotel, open that room, and live here quietly. I told her that her identity and this room are the best cover for me. Mr. Chu, you are right. She tied you up, which I didn't expect. I am a self-centered person. I'm used to living alone, so I can't avoid it Subjectively, when you shot me, I didn't go to my heart, so I ignored Xiao you's feelings. In fact, if someone shot her, I couldn't stand it. The reason why I was angry was that she exposed herself. Once the police checked her account, I found that I helped to move around and contact me before and after the crime During this period, she has been staying in Beitian, and her life is over "

" then why don't you take her with you? " I said, "Why are you looking for me? If you don't let her come to me, she won't be exposed, and the police can't check her for no reason. Can you beg me again? You've thought about turning yourself in before that, haven't you? "

Xu Heng didn't answer and asked, "does Mr. Chu know why the girl has to avenge me?"

I was stunned, vaguely felt that the answer in my heart was correct, but I still shook my head.

"She was afraid that I would go to the end of the world after I avenged long Xiaotian. Then she would become a lonely person again. For her, I was the only family member in the world, and I became a criminal with me, just to make me unable to find an excuse to leave her behind," Xu Heng seemed envious and said to himself: "Mr. Chu has family and friends, maybe, can't It takes a lot of courage to understand the real horror of loneliness. Compared with death, death is nothing at all "

indeed, I have never been lonely, but I am not completely unable to understand their ideas

" people are very strange animals, and many times they can not understand themselves, we do not know how to think about our own Come, but always worry about the future of others, "Xu Heng sighed:" she is not afraid of crime, because of me, I am not afraid of losing my head, because of her, I can't take her to the end of the world, from now on, I can't see the sunshine, but I have to worry about all the time. I can't let her be a criminal like me. I have to tell her that what I have done is actually It's all wrong and it has to pay a price, so I have to turn myself in, because she is my sister and my only relative now. She should live well and live upright. I have carefully thought back countless times why I took her out of that city. The answer is the same, because I want to give her a future, not destroy her future "

I only know that Xu Heng turned himself in because of God's blessing, but I don't know what gave him such courage. Now I know that it is the responsibility to be a family member and a brother.

Xu Heng drove me and dongxiaoye back home. In order not to be met by the police, the car stopped at a distance from the community. All the way, we didn't talk again When I got out of the car, I took dongxiaoye out of the car and carried it on my back. Then I said to Xu Heng, who had never got on the bus, "it's meaningless to make a show. You don't need to please me. I don't want to be short of you. If I want to, I'll get it. As for her," I tilted my head and looked at Wu Zi's comatose sister tiger and said, "she won't care. "Xu Heng asked with a smile, "Mr. Chu doesn't really think that if I surrender, I can have a chance of life? Hehe, the credit is not for nothing. "

I looked at him indifferently and said: "surrender and want to die are two concepts, which one do you belong to?"

Xu Heng's expression was smothered and his smile was not so natural. "Is there a difference?"

"For me, there's no difference. I can't arrest you, but I can't stop you from turning yourself in. The road is your own way. You're the creator of life and death. I'm just curious." I said, "you seem to be sincere. What I say may not be lies, but it may not be all the truth?"

Xu Heng just smiles and doesn't answer, but his eyes are obviously dodging something.

I sighed and said, "in fact, I've been doing something recently. I've put in almost all my energy, and I'm getting closer to success. However, I don't have a sense of achievement. On the contrary, I feel more and more scared and confused. With the clarity of the results, the expectation that I've been growing has suddenly plummeted. I began to think about this goal After that, what should I do next? Just like you are now, when you have achieved your goal, you must say goodbye to your past life. However, I am used to the previous life. In the face of inevitable changes in the future, I have no confidence and motivation. Whenever I think about it, I have an impulse to die, because it seems that I can't find the purpose of living, and "starting from scratch" is too difficult and difficult "

Xu Heng didn't smile, as if he had been hit by the most vulnerable concealment in his heart. His eyes were a little flustered, and his mouth twitched. It seemed that he wanted to speak, but he didn't know what to say.

I smile with emotion, turn around and walk toward the direction of home, raise my hand, and say: "tomboy is very poor, parents don't want her, relatives don't want her, but I've been cheated to and fro by others. Finally, I met a person who thought that he would not cheat her, but he would cheat her most"

"Mr. Chu!" Xu Heng stopped me, but when I looked back, he didn't know what to say. He chirped for a long time and then asked, "you promised to be friends with Xiaoyou, didn't you?"

"Yes." I said simply.

"Can you not tell her what you just said?" Xu Heng said this, is tantamount to acquiesce in my guess.

Sure enough, his motive for turning himself in was not only for the blessing of God, but also for himself. He turned himself in because he had lost his faith or motivation to live and wanted to die.

"As I said, although surrender or want to die are two concepts, there is no difference for me. Even if you don't want to die, you should also take responsibility for what you have done. I admire the courage of you to take responsibility. Although you have piled up so many beautiful great excuses in front of the tomboy, you just want the tomboy to be upright in the future You left her an image of being able to correct her mistakes, dare to take on, and be magnanimous. I have no reason to destroy these positive and worthy of imitation, even if it is not completely true. "

"Thank you" Xu Heng smiles happily, but also laughs bitterly.

"You're welcome." I smile bitterly, also smile joyfully.

Xu Heng may be a smart, insidious and cruel man, but as I felt at the beginning, he is not an unforgivable person. "Sinner" is the definition of him in this society. His crime is forced out by the society. Unfortunately, the law can not convict the society, so he can only be convicted.

Br > br > it is only a social phenomenon that he is not willing to be a victim of social justice So I agreed to his request.

Xu Heng is right. I am tortured by Stockholm syndrome, and I don't think he should die. Therefore, like him, I made an excuse to cover up my cowardice. I don't want to be an accomplice of this tragic society. Therefore, I don't want to be the accomplice of this tragic society. Therefore, I don't want to take care of him It's not necessarily shameful, but to be at ease www.novelhold.com , the fastest update of the webnovel!