Chapter 1142

I like Murphy. First, I was attracted by her beauty and coldness, and then I was captured by her forthright and fragile wrapped in her pride and strong appearance. I know my feelings for her, which are more simple and clear than my feelings for Tassels and asters. I didn't play big from childhood, wash feet in a basin, sleep in a bed, cover a quilt, and have no fun As for Murphy, I only have the most primitive hope of a man for a woman -- eager to get, conquer and possess.

The most primitive, often is the most simple, so I did not hesitate to stay in Fengchang, willing to pay all I can for her, I think, is because I am always in a mess in front of my feelings, only to like her this thing, there is no confusion.

Madame Duanmu didn't force me to answer her question. She was a smart woman. Chu Yuan and sister tiger's claws could hide her eyes. However, the two young girls had a little bit of careful thinking in their belly, but she read the bottom of her heart and became bright. So she just sipped tea and asked me faintly: "Chu Nan, don't you think that... You just leave Beitian like this, and I used to Is it the same to leave the room like that

Her tone of voice is more casual than before to tell her own story, but this words into my ears, but heavy as if there is a mountain like hit in the heart, Duanmu lady lowered her head, only her hands in the eyes of the tea cup, but she is close to me, still feel her eyes staring at me, as if every beat of my heart, she is aware of it.

This kind of unusual oppressive feeling let me suddenly realize - this is why Duanmu lady obstinately and recklessly brought me to this place.

Indeed, if I also hold back the feelings of Murphy and choose not to be frank, it is really like the lady Duanmu in those years.

Chu Yuan and tiger elder sister were also stunned. Their thoughts were not difficult to guess. They did not want to hear me admit that I like Murphy, and did not want to see the unfortunate story that had been proved to be repeated in me. So Chu Yuan said quickly, "it's not the same!"

"What's different?" Madame Duanmu raised her head and said with a smile: "people are not the same, so the same choice may have different results?"

It may be because Madame Duanmu said what she was trying to say, so Chu Yuan, who was peeped into her heart, was at a psychological disadvantage. She suddenly lost her confidence and said, "difficult... Isn't it?"

"That's right, but you and I look at things from different angles," Mrs. Duanmu said. "Xiaoyuanyuan, I ask you why I said that all I told was my story, not my past?"

Chu Yuan is stunned, Han Han shakes his head.

"Because the person in the story is called" Jiao se ". People are different from people. But what about the person who plays the same role in the same story? Just like a classic drama, no matter how many times the repeated interpretation, Romeo is Romeo, Juliet is Juliet, 1000 times, 10000 times, the result of martyrdom will not change... It is not important whether the story determines the angle se, or the angle se determines the story, it is not important, what is important is, whether such a story, such a corner se, in the final waiting, is destined to be this "What kind of tragedy..." Madame Duanmu said to me slowly: "Chunan, in your body, I see the shadow of two people, you are like the same, also like Duanmu, I do not have much direct contact with you, can not say very much about you, do not know who you are more like them, but I know that no one has more voice than me to say so - in such a story, no matter you go It's wrong to play one of them... "

Chu Yuan is silent. Madame Duanmu's words are a little profound to her. Even if she doesn't agree, she doesn't know how to refute it. Dongxiaoye just chews it carefully and agrees with her. Because she is too absorbed, she is ravaging my tiger's claws and has no strength at all.

"I don't understand," I said, "are you here to say these things to me for Feifei's sake?"

"Fei'er certainly doesn't want you to leave Beitian, but I think, she wants you to stay for her sake, not because of what I said. So, I say these words to you just for myself," said Madame Duanmu. "I know you want to ask again, don't I not like fei'er, so why care about her... People will change, woman It's also fickle. I didn't like her in the past, which doesn't mean I don't like her now. I'm much more guilty to fei'er than Xiaoqiu. I just ignored Xiaoqiu, but I cursed fei'er endlessly and maliciously. So you can understand that I'm eager to make compensation for fei'er, or to save myself, so as to relieve the guilt in my heart, so as to make peace of mind. "

"If I were you, I would not feel at ease," I said with a wry smile, "it is wrong for me to be master Mo and Mr. Duanmu, but who can prove that I am right not to be master Mo or Mr. Duanmu?"

"No one can prove it," said Mrs. Duanmu, who aimed at Chu Yuan and sister tiger on both sides of me, and said, "especially you, the boy, who committed the cross flower robbery. There are many beautiful girls and girls around me. According to reason, fei'er has not been harmed by you. I should be thankful that there is no reason to push her into your fire pit? To be frank with you, when I know that Xiaoqiu has a good feeling for you, I have all the thoughts evaporated from the world of you. But think again, so many girls can't be blind and stupid. They appreciate you, like you, and have a good feeling for you, and there are always reasons. Once a woman falls in love with madness, I can be much clearer than you this man, let alone jump the fire I know what you are worried about, because I have experienced it, because I have experienced it, so I know more clearly what I should do and say now. I did not and will not tell you, "what I asked you to do is right." this is too big and groundless. Emotion is not a person's business, and its uncertainty is difficult for the parties themselves To control, let alone outsiders? What I can tell you is that it must be wrong for you to leave fei'er without permission, because you like her and she also likes you. The regret that a lover can't get married will become a piece of defect that you can't fill in your own happiness, and it's a big one. Maybe I don't know you well enough, and I don't know whether you will be the same or a pillar, but I understand Fei I don't deny that I don't know Xiao Cheng, the Dong Jing official around you, and the third lady who doesn't know what she thinks about you. I don't know if you accept fei'er, whether the ending of the story will be happy or more miserable than my story, butMrs. Duanmu stopped and said to me with emotion as if asking herself: "no one's life that has not been experienced is a script that has been written. So why do you copy other people's life that has become a script, and kill the unknown and possible Xing in your own life? No one in the pursuit of happiness at the beginning can predict whether happiness can be traced to the results of the hand, so what is the reason for you to abandon yourself without trying? The most important thing is... You know that this road is wrong, but you still have the consciousness to go to the end. Why can't you take the same consciousness and go on another road that you don't know is right or wrong? Love is not a person's business, if another person is willing to accompany you to face difficulties and meet risks, this itself is great happiness, isn't it? What's more, hehe, from my bystander's point of view, fei'er is not the only one who is willing to take risks with you. Maybe it's the luckiest thing for you and fei'er to meet a girl like Xiaocheng in your life. "

I haven't spoken for a long time, and my heart is surging.

Of course, I won't change my decision to replace Jiang Yu in Shanghai + Hai, because the purpose of this trip is not known to Mrs. Duanmu, who is prejudiced by old man Jiang. However, it is true that I intend to take this opportunity to alienate Murphy and end this ambiguous feeling. But what Duanmu said tonight, I can't help but waver - am I determined to leave tassel and Murphy Is it really subjective? Do I hope that they will get happiness, but it will kill their happiness?

Fart - what kind of sweet cake are you Chunan? The man in the world is dead? Why can only you give them happiness? Why can't they be happy without you? The wise Mr. Duanmu doesn't believe that he is the only one in the world who can give his wife happiness. Where is your self-confidence that Chu Nan, who is lazy and can't make progress, can compare with others?

A furnace of sandalwood has been exhausted. Madame Duanmu puts down her tea cup and starts to open her mouth, interrupting my confused thoughts. "Well, I've finished my story and what I should say. It's late. Let's go back."

This woman is always kind-hearted, so that people will not feel nervous and oppressed in front of her. She can speak and do things, but she often shows a strong and arrogant attitude. Doesn't she feel that she has never answered any of our questions?

In my heart, my sweat pores tightened in an instant, as if blocked by countless small ice cones, shivering, bone chilling - Murphy, tassels, who is not the same as Duanmu lady self and not confessed?

Perhaps it is not because I am like Mo or Duanmu, but because Murphy is like her.

Tassel has cried, but she is more honest with her feelings than tassel. Murphy has never asked me why I want to leave Beitian. It's so abnormal that she doesn't want to embarrass me and force me? If so, she is the lady Duanmu who was sitting in this room 24 years ago...

[PS: I got up late. I'm sorry, I can't sleep well these days. After eating two pieces of diazepam, I can't wake up again...

the Internet was cut off yesterday. This chapter should be updated yesterday. The leakage of the house happened to rain at night. The heating has not been repaired. God and Netcom are still making trouble together and snowing Cut off the net again, bought an electric fan and put it on the table to bake claws. The claws are warm, but they dry the eyes. It's uncomfortable...

PS2: go out to do some private affairs in the afternoon. I don't know what time I can come back. So it may be updated very late. Don't wait for the change. 】

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