When I just opened my eyes, I saw a large area of snow white.
The pungent smell of disinfectant from his nose made Ji Ziming frown. He could not remember how long he had been repeating these days.
He was a premature infant, and he couldn't keep up with the nutrition, which eventually led to his weakness and illness. Later, he was basically in the hospital or at home. When Ji Ziming was distracted, a group of children's frolic noises came from under the window.
It seems that the ordinary noise, but inexplicably let Ji Ziming's heart was pulled up. After hesitating for a long time, Ji Ziming took off the needle on his arm and moved it to the window carefully. He took the initiative to move a chair over, gently stepped on it, and then took the opportunity to look at the scenery downstairs.
Today's weather is really good, suitable for playing hide and seek in the grass, or playing some small games. But he can't blow too much wind outside, he can only watch quietly here
Ji Ziming's face was full of regret. He dropped his head and then said bitterly: "I envy you so much When can I run down like them... "
From birth to now, he has no chance to run like other children. He is weak and even has no chance to go to school. So knowledge is taught by his sister. No matter how wonderful things are outside, he is isolated after all.
Just when Ji Ziming was sad, the door was suddenly opened, and young Ji Weiwei came in with a bowl of hot porridge.
Ji Weiwei's eyes suddenly widened, and then he cried out, "what are you doing there, Ziming? Come down quickly. It's very dangerous, don't you know! Come on, the wind is so strong and the sun is so strong today. What if you get sick again? "
Their family doesn't have so much money to cure their illness. Today, it's still because that Ji Dongyuan went to borrow money. Otherwise, how could he afford such expensive things? Their family is so poor that they can't open the pot. In addition, Ji Dongyuan is fond of gambling. Everything is like burning eyebrows. One wave is not even, and another wave is rising again.
Ji Ziming was startled and almost fell off his chair. I saw that all the words on his face were pitiful. He turned his head and looked at Ji Wei. Then he begged: "elder sister..."
He really wants to go down there. Even if it's just sitting, Ji Ziming is willing.
Looking at his brother that kind of poor eyes, Ji Weiwei's heart is also unable to stop the pain up, but she can't be soft hearted! Last time, it was because she was soft hearted that Ji Ziming had a fever again. For this matter, Ji Dong didn't teach her little. The wound on her back is still painful, just like reminding Ji Wei that he should abide by the rules.
She tensed her face, then rejected Ji's request, and said: "no, don't think about it. Don't you forget? At that time, you had a fever just because you went out to sit for a while! You don't have to be so headstrong any more. We don't have any money at home. You know what? You should be good. When you get well, you can go out to play. I won't care about you how you want to play. I'll be with you. "
Although Ji Weiwei's words sound too much. But I have to say, it's really effective. If it wasn't for that Ji Dongyuan loved Ji Ziming very much, I'm afraid that Ji Ziming would not be able to survive until now. From this point, Naji Weiwei is the clearest. If she is the one with weak system, she believes Ji Dongyuan won't say a word more.
Ji Ziming's brows are frowning, but he still listens to Ji Weiwei's words. He slowly walks down from the chair and lies back on the hospital bed. Ji Ziming sighed, then looked pitifully at Ji Weiwei and asked, "elder sister. Do you think there's still time for me? I don't like hospitals, and I don't like the bitter medicine. "
Ji Weiwei was stunned, and then he immediately nodded as if he had changed a person. Then he said firmly, "of course, you are my brother, but you are weak now. After you get well, no matter what you do, you can do it. Really, don't you believe your sister?"
Ji Weiwei said that. Of course, Ji Ziming believed it. In his world, besides Liu Zixian, Ji Weiwei is the most trustworthy person. It is Ji Weiwei who constantly imparts knowledge to him, tells stories he has never heard of, and tells everything he yearns for.
Seeing that Ji Ziming believed his words, Ji Weiwei suddenly felt relieved. She laughed awkwardly, then picked up the spoon and tasted the porridge. After confirming the appropriate temperature, she urged: "well, don't care so much now. You can take the medicine after you finish your meal. I may have to go home to work tonight. Dad drank again and broke a lot of things. Mom doesn't know where to go. You may have to go by yourself Can I stay here for a while? "As soon as he heard that Ji Dongyuan was drinking again, Ji Ziming's back straightened up in a moment, and his face was full of worry. His eyes were staring at Ji Weiwei, and then he worried: "Dad, why are you drinking again? Didn't he say he didn't drink before, sister? Did dad beat you again or beat mom? "
Ji Weiwei subconsciously retracted his hand, and then he shook his head and denied: "no, dad didn't hit me, OK, you eat well. You know what, I brought you some pickles. If you want to eat, you should eat with it. Put the bowl after eating. I'll come back later. I'll clean it up then. Darling, remember to wait for me. "
After that, Ji Weiwei plans to get up, but at this time, Ji Ziming suddenly reaches out his hand and holds Ji Weiwei's wrist. Who knows, Ji Weiwei's wrist has just been scalded. Ji Ziming's hand suddenly, Ji Weiwei didn't hold back, so he called out his voice subconsciously.
Ji Weiwei's voice was a little abrupt, which really frightened Ji Ziming. See so timid of probe over own head, then this just small voice of call a way: "elder sister?"
I saw Ji Weiwei smile awkwardly, and then it's not natural to leave his body, and he explained with a smile: "ah! I suddenly thought of something. Well, darling, I forgot to turn off the gas in my house! So I'm going back in a hurry! Darling, if I'm not here, you can call a nurse if you have anything to do, OK? "
She couldn't believe such a farfetched reason, let alone Ji Ziming?
However, Ji Ziming didn't want to make Ji Weiwei sad after all. He finally nodded his head seriously, pretended to know nothing and replied with a smile: "well, I know. Go ahead, sister. I'll wait for you to come back."
Ji Wei nodded, and his face was also full of joy. But at the moment when she turned around, tears rolled down quietly. Sometimes, she even hopes that the person lying in the hospital bed is herself, because Ji Ziming can run happily on the ground, and will never exist in the world where he envies other children.
And even if she is dead, I'm afraid no one will come to love her, right? Instead of being so embarrassed, Ji Weiwei even thought about whether it would be better if he didn't exist in this world.
At the door, Ji Wei sucked his nose hard, trying to force the tears back. But sometimes, when the emotion is squeezed to a certain extent, it is no longer a situation that you can control. No matter how hard Ji Wei works, there will be a day when he can't carry it.
Ji Wei slowly squatted down the corner, wiping his tears and whispering: "I'm sorry Just cry for a while, just for a while. "
Ji Wei was talking to himself and crying in the dark. But when she was crying, there was basically no sound, just tears in silence. No one could understand the pain in her heart, and no one could understand how tired she was now. She felt that there was no warmth in the world. The only one who can repose her spirit is Ji Ziming, who has been ill in bed all the year round, and his mother Liu Zixian.
Ji Weiwei's big watery eyes are even more red and swollen at the moment. As she rubs her eyes, she whispers to herself: "is it because I did something wrong, that's why it's like this If only dad could give me a little bit of love for my brother, even if it's just a little bit. "
She is not jealous of Ji Ziming, just a little envious. Of course, she didn't dare to say such a thought. She knew how humble her position in the Ji family was, and the place where Ji Dongyuan gave her a seat was already regarded as great tolerance.
Ji Weiwei didn't know what he had done wrong. That's why Ji Dongyuan hated him so much. So she wants to do her best and become a useful person, so that Ji Dongyuan can look at herself with new eyes. But she has worked hard for many years, but nothing can be changed. After a long time, Ji Weiwei also slowly learned to accept all this.
After crying for a few minutes, Ji Weiwei immediately regained his spirits, turned and walked back to Ji's home. But she didn't know that Ji Ziming had seen all her feelings just now. Ji's family dotes on Ji Ziming as a treasure. Basically, Ji Dongyuan won't refuse as long as he puts forward his opinions or requests. Sometimes, in order to achieve Ji Ziming's wishes, he doesn't hesitate to borrow money from usury.
Ji Ziming's eyes twinkled slightly, and then he left tears of guilt. He knows that Ji Weiwei must have a lot of scars on his wrist. He and Ji Weiwei live in a family with a bad atmosphere. But he was lucky enough not to be beaten, but Ji Weiwei was different from Liu Zixian.
Ji Ziming took a deep breath, then stared at Ji Weiwei's back and whispered to himself: "sister. Can you live a better life without me
He has always been a cumbersome existence. If he does not exist, will all this become natural? And Ji Weiwei doesn't have to be so tired. Can he get Ji Dongyuan's favor and become a happy child?The answer is obvious. It's impossible. But Ji Ziming didn't realize this at the moment. He just thought that if he disappeared or disappeared, he could make Ji Weiwei live a good life. Also because of this idea, he later made a stupid mistake.
Soon after Ji Weiwei went home, Ji Dongyuan rushed to the hospital. The moment he opened the door of the ward, Ji Ziming could smell the smell of alcohol. It can be imagined that Ji Dongyuan drank a lot of wine again! I don't know when there will be an end to this drunken state!
Although there are some uncomfortable, but Ji Ziming still showed his smile. After all, this man is good to him. He can feel it. Ji Dongyuan wanted to give him all his best things at one time. How can Ji Ziming tighten his face in the face of those who torture and love him?
When Ji Ziming's smile didn't stop, Ji Dongyuan sat down beside his bed, and then said happily: "Ziming, do you feel better. Dad is very worried about you. You can rest assured that no matter how much money it costs, I will try my best to cure you. Don't think so much about it. Do you know? "
Ji Ziming sighed a little, then moved his body a little, and gave Ji Dongyuan as many places as possible. After all this, Ji Ziming asked: "Dad, why did you drink so much wine again..."
He was worried about Ji Weiwei. Once Ji Dongyuan had drunk, it was either Ji Weiwei or Liu Zixian who was injured. And Ji Weiwei just left for a long time. Maybe they met! There are so many wounds on Ji Weiwei that Ji Ziming can't imagine how Ji Dongyuan got rid of them.
How can we say that Ji Weiwei is also his child and his flesh and blood? Why is there such a big difference between the two people? Is it just because Ji Ziming can inherit his family?
Ji Dongyuan laughed and then shook his head: "it's not because of irritability. Don't worry. Dad is OK! You don't have to worry about me so much. You just need to take good care of yourself. I'll help you with the rest. You know, you are the successor of our Ji family. All I have will be given to you at that time, and you will be responsible for our Ji family! Do you understand? "