Chapter 84 - Like The First Time

Jason managed to ditch Sashina and rushed out of the room. He had to find the author before the man exits the novel. The differences between them had to be resolved for them to move forward. 

The mistake was with him. The whole time, he thought of himself as a victim that he didn't think on his he could have hurt him. 

Not having the memories of their last got him to believe the half-truth that he knew.  He forgets that a half-truth is as good as a lie because it doesn't shine a light on the whole matter. 

In his mind, he was putting his words together on what he was going to say to the man. He was praying that the younger male would give him a chance to explain the things that happened. 

Davy saw things from his point of view and was hurt. He would blame him, but he needed to explain his sides so they don't misunderstand each other anymore. 

Jason arrived at the garden where the crown prince had decided to have his breakfast. He stood in the distance and watched him, the male rested his head on his hand and stared into the distance. 

Letting the rays of the sun rain down on his face. It brought a certain appeal to the male, he looked magnificent. 

Jason's eyes were glued to the man. The way he sat and watched the world was the same way that Davy used to do during their school days. And it enticed him towards the male even more. 

He was so caught up in staring at the prince that he didn't notice the crowd that was gathering around the garden. Curious maids and servants of the palace gather behind bushes and flowers watching the scene with interest. 

They were waiting in anticipation to see if the two love birds could save their love or break up. 

Unlike Jason, Davion felt the eyes on him from all around. He looked around, with his sharp eyes he was able to place all the people in the palace. 

Davy was flabbergasted. The side characters were moving against the plot. They weren't supposed to gather around the garden like that, it wasn't like they came to attack him. So he could understand. 

It was when he raised his head to the entrance and saw Jason that he got a clue of why the servants were not so secretly watching them. 

Jason played with his feet nervously when Davy made him. He lowered his gaze in guilt and didn't dare move from where he stood. 

It was understandable to him if the man didn't want to talk to him, he wouldn't want to talk to himself if he were in the crown prince's shoes. 

The situation was quite awkward. He hadn't come up with a single word to say to Davy over what had transpired between them in the past. Now with the recollection of everything, he found that he too hadn't truly gotten over his past. 

Maybe that was the reason he kept screwing things up with the crown prince. The male looked and acted exactly like the man that he loved but at the end of the day the character was the real deal. 

At the end of it all his heart wanted the real person and was always conflicted. His life was complicated, it was something that being in a novel couldn't fix. 

Jason's breath caught when he saw boots before him. He didn't need to look up to know who the person that had approached him was. It made him nervous. 

"Did you want to say something to me?" He heard Davy's clear voice ask. There was no hint of anger, hatred or sadness in his voice. 

And that made Jason even more anxious. The person was hurt because of him and for the last four years he lived without even knowing what pain he had caused. And he would have probably continued to live the same way forever if he didn't enter the novel. 

The book didn't just help him live life, it brought him back the pieces of him that he had lost. Pieces that he knew, if he didn't fix them. He would never be able to move on with his life. 

He bit his lower lip and drew on the ground. His was scared to meet the man's face. He was looking at the man in a whole new light, one that scared him. 

Davion took a step closer to him. Jason found his heart beating in slow motion, it reminded him of the first day that he had seen the younger male for the first time. 

The way his palms got sweaty from nervousness. Thr slow way in which his chest moved up and down as he counted the steps before the younger male reached him and walked passed him like he wasn't even there. 

It was the most nerve wrecking five minutes of his life on that day. He had never been as nervous on anything as he was on that day.

He gulped. 

Davion reached out his hand and held Jason's jaw with his finger. He raised the older man's chin and got him to look up at him. 

Jason shut his eyes close. He didn't dare look Davion in the eyes after the mistake that he made. He felt bad for the things that were said in fear and the uncalled for distance that created between them. 

Davy clenched his free hand into a fist. It was hard to maintain his stance and act mad when the older man was so cute.  Jason was just as he remembered him to be, the face was different but the way he acted was the same. 

The reaction was something that he was used to. It wasn't the first time the male had reacted like that after making a mistake. It was how he reacted when he didn't have the words to express how sorry he was. 

Funny how after four years had by between them, nothing much had changed. His Jasy was still the same as he always was. 

"If you came here to say something then say it," he insisted and let go of Jason. He reminded himself of the reason he was in the book. 

He had come there to remind Jason that he wasn't the villain of their story and to find the loophole in the novel that gave Jason the ability to rewrite the way the story was meant to go. 

He had completed the first task, only the second remained. He couldn't allow himself to be side tracked by a past that remained his past. 

"Since you won't talk, I'll leave," he stated. Jason did the first that came to mind in panic and embraced him. 

Davion raised his hands startled by how the man reacted. "Awwww," he could hear from all sides of the garden. 

He was frozen. Of all the ways he anticipated the talk to go, hr didn't think that the older man would hug him. And that his heart would skip a beat as he did. 

'This is the crown prince reacting,' he told himself. 

Yet it didn't help his heart from thundering in his chest, he was certain that Jason could hear the sound of his heart beat since the man had his head to his chest. 

He was lost on how to reach, was he to hold him and hug him back or just leave him be. He thought to push him away but his heart couldn't bring him to do that. 

The moment flashed a harsh truth before his eyes. He was still floored by the man in his arms, he felt no different for the man in that moment than he did in the past. 

"Let go of me," he uttered coldly. The man he was before actually believed that Jason was sincere with his feelings and that was why he got hurt to begin with, he wasn't going down the same road again. 

Jason let go of him, he was hesitant but he respected the man's. In his heart he was happy, thought unintended, he got to hear the younger male's heartbeat increase at his touch. 

What that meant both scared him and made him happy. On one hand he was happy as it meant that the younger male still felt the same way he did back then but on the other hand it meant that he must hurt badly from it. 

To see him fall in love with Davion. To sit together and speak about the crown prince must have been hard for him. Even if the crown prince was a character created of him. 

He must have felt that he preferred a fictional version of him. And that wasn't true. "I have to go," Davy spoke out. 

Jason stepped aside for him to leave, yet the man didn't move from where he stood.. Jason watched with wondering why he was still standing there. "Won't you go?"