Chapter 142 - Not Complicated For You

As Li Na whisked her palm Lu Jianjun watched her with mounting resentment. He seems to have lost the sense of judgment on how to behave with her without being perilous when she goes on doing something spiteful.

"What's wrong with you?" he asked with deadly calm." Even holding your hand now isn't within your limits." his tone was full of loathing as if addressing someone having an immensely dogmatic attitude.

Stunned by the unpleasant ȧssertion, Li Na stopped in the middle as the tone of his vehement anger surprisingly seized her he had contemplated her sudden actions rashly. 

"That's not like it," she interpreted, but suddenly he grabbed her wrist, turn it around as his hold waned, forewarning her not to twist the intent concerning her obvious move. And then she felt the soft fabric-like handkerchief placed on her palm. 

"Use that, and once you're done cleaned for been touched we will continue..." he stated overbearingly. Lowering of her head conveyed the liability she felt as he stopped mid-sentence and looked away.

Feeling and ċȧrėssing the soft texture of cloth, Li Na mused over the reactions she had impulsively forced to feel. She isn't a naively juvenile one not to understand the taste of intimacy those moments bought out of blue. Even if she thought them to be the set-off trigger, there is something wrong. Something very fundamentally wrong with her. 

Lu Jianjun isn't a complete stranger for her presently. She had become used to his presence and ways. Nor was it the first time or an occasion he had held her. He had helped her and carried her in his arms multiple times. Then why now, this trigger? What was she supposed to make of this feeling? Slowly, the plain cloth began to crumpled into an angry fist as she denied citing those sweet-to-nothing emotions without consent for someone like Lu Jianjun. 

It was as if her insides were crunched which brings the bitterness to resurface after the thundering shock of sweetness for him. Whenever she thought of understanding him, something occurs that made her inferior to stranded feelings and powerless before him, she doubts the sweetness of emotions but the bitter agony was real, she felt so fortunate that she doesn't have to see his face while she concedes all she thinks of him, "I get it! Every fuċkable reason you have not to trust, but have you thought that I had no intentions to hurt and now you're misunderstanding this...and can't take it." Lu Jianjun turned to the blindfolded girl, who spoke with rage-filled timbre, his gaze dropped to the fist clenched tightly as he reevaluates.

"What do you mean?" he demanded viciously, his temper growing.

Li Na didn't flinch by the wintry contention, her steeled-nerves boiled at the melting temperature that paid no heeds to anyone or anything...it just knows how to burn...

"You make me feel miserable day by day...every second by second that I spent with you...You defy all the limitations I had, I never loathed anyone but... whatever... this bullshit you make me go through whenever you're around...that's enough to hate you for eternity, do you even understand... you are turning me into a walking hell,"

For a few moments, Lu Jianjun stood frozen by the sheer loathing she had restored in herself, he had given her a chance ignoring instead of but then his eyes sharpened and jaw clenched as he spouts acidly, "I'm making you miserable? You might be underrating your dumbness for misery..."

"Shut up!" she cried out, intensely. "Just shut up and don't cross my words!" her hand rose slightly, an indication for him to stop further interference. 

Baffled, Lu Jianjun got disturbed by the gesture, he stares at the hand and then at her angry face uncertainly. And when she began to speak again, he couldn't look away from the furious countenance in front of him.

"You asked what's wrong with me? I'll tell you what wrong feels like... You're the one who is constantly annoying me with your presence and stupid behavior and you want me to stop reacting...that feels wrong," 

"...when you don't know shit about your past and still has to take all the blames for it....that feels wrong"

"... when you woke up from a near-death reality in a body with no past memories and was told you were the worst human by all, that feels wrong, when you want a little peace and all you get is all disturbance which can't be express...that feels wrong," Angry hot tears began to flow down, wetting the blindfold as she continued to pour her bleeding heart out that was stuck in the mayhem of two personalities, her voice choking a little reminiscing Mei Xing's past life and now what had she become.

She didn't know how long she had to fight and suffer this darkness called Li Na's memoir and that was not enough she had now to battle with the hopelessly absurd love-like-hysteria Li Na had for this man. 

It was windy and cold, out in open but every sentence said by Li Na was fueled potently, Lu Jianjun felt the ill-tempered volcanos raging inside, his face empty of emotions as if the fervent out-pour only made it worse for him, to ignore all the mayhem he was struggling to snub. How naïve is she to think, she doesn't affect him in the slightest when it was all opposite. His temper heated and didn't know when it will explode, he knew if he gave into hatred both of them won't be able to take it. 

Watching where the situation was advancing, he suspected the girl has forgotten her integrity before the impassioned play of causes as he extended his hand to pull off the blindfold just as his cold fingers touched against the fuming hot-skin of knitted brows Li Na instantly stepped back.

His stature hardened at her flinching, as he spoke indifferently, "This isn't the place or time to get into stupid arguments and stop getting riled up over little thing..." she paused and chinned up while wiping those damn tears flowed without her permission. 

"Little thing?" she repeated as the undulating wave of frustration laved over her, "Y-You...don't take me or my words seriously, right!?" she utter shockingly," Did you even... listened, what I just said," 

Lu Jianjun remained silent stubbornly, his silence conveyed the unkind response, "At least show some understanding if you don't want to help," She bit out acidly," You're asking me to stop getting riled up...when in reality... even I d-don't know....why the fuċkɨnġ hell I'm crying as it's not my fault, I got most terrible people around me," 

"Yes...that what I want. You need to stop overreacting and being the epitome of righteousness... are you trying to gain sympathy..." he riposted vigorously.

"Mind your tongue, Lu Jianjun! I can tolerate anything, but not this rootless blame. And to tell you if I wanted anything from you, even with minimal efforts, I could have you wrapped around my fingers." there was a different kind of conviction in the depth of her tormented tone.Find authorized novels in , faster updates, better experience, Please click <a href="#&apos;s-mysterious-love._13271529106326605/not-complicated-for-you_52655520938524497">#&apos;s-mysterious-love._13271529106326605/not-complicated-for-you_52655520938524497</a> for visiting.

Lu Jianjun scoffed, ridiculing the vigor of his own ȧssessment, " You've taken me for granted...is it because you think I'm the stupid one to waste my time on checking on you ignoring my work, or is it cause I let you run your mouth to argue unreasonably," 

She yanked the blindfold off her eyes and glared, "You're not doing me any favors, Instead, treating me like a prisoner of the loftiest crime,"

"That's what you're," he acknowledges. 

"A criminal! And to be brutally honest with you, if I let you free for a couple of minutes now...you won't even know where you'll be taken or what brutal punishment will be given to you." he seemed concerned as his voice meltdown, "Instead of being pleasant, you go on creating a mess. Why can't you just let me figure it out for once? Who and what exactly are you?" 

"Can't you see it! I'm Li Na and how many times..." she snapped.

"The person I'm seeing is everything but not Li Na...so be honest and I promise if you satisfy my answer I'll give you a painless death and if you don't you'll have a lifetime of freedom and protection you need I'll make sure you live even if it cost my life." he began to step closer toward her processing form silently standing there as if baffled.

"It's really not that complicated, and you don't have to suffer all this..." He reached out, his hands slid down her arms tenderly, and encircled her waist. 

Li Na closed her stinging eyes momentarily, his indolent actions ignited the disturbing sentiments blazing on her face piercing of an intimate battle as he instigates her head to rest against his shoulder while smoothly stroking her hairs. "I did hear all that you said and I do consider your feelings," Resting the side of his head against her downy head gently, he murmured upon her hairs,"...only you can end this torment for both of us," Li Na raised her hand to lay upon his beating heart, as he thought she was to push him back, his arms tightened around her slender form, pulling her closer until she hid in his embrace.