122 Ning Fu's Decision To Help The Monarch

Su Li chuckles self-deprecatingly.

"I wish you were here to talk to me, to hold me in your arms, to let me be unreasonable, to fulfil all my demands – even the unreasonable ones."

At this point, Su Li recalls the conversation she had with him before they were unceremoniously kidnapped.

Though it breaks her heart to think about the events that took place after that, the conversation they had in the car brings a bittersweet smile on her face.

"You never liked my cooking and I think I knew I was bad at it. But you never complained about it and would simply eat everything that I had cooked, even if it was unpalatable."

Thinking about it, she blinks away her tears

She tries to hold back her tears with all her might.

Su Li doesn't want to cry.

She sucks in huge gulps of air as if trying to suck back all her emotions, wanting to put them all behind the walls and barricades she had painstakingly built inside her heart.

She wants all those emotions to go back behind those walls and leave her feeling cold, empty and detached.

However, in the end, her breath catches in her throat and she knows she can't hold onto the pain, anger, misery and sorrow any longer.

A lone tear trickles down her face and a small sob escapes her before she can choke it back inside her throat.

She swallows the rest of the words because she can't continue on.

They are too painful to voice and she tries to not let the stinging sensation in her eyes and the lump in her throat overwhelm her but it's an exercise in futility.

She blinks her eyes rapidly and tries to hide her shaking hands in the folds of her sleeves and when that doesn't seem to work; she pushes the palms against her eyes in an attempt to assuage the feelings that seem ready to overwhelm her.

Finally, she takes a swig from a wine jar that she had brought along with her tonight.

"You really would hate to see how I have let go of myself, wouldn't you? I really wish you would come back and scold me for it. Ha! It feels like I have turned into a world-class alcoholic and masochist."

Meanwhile, Ning Fu who had been a silent spectator felt his heart go out to the monarch.

He had listened to the emperor's words and when an hour had already passed and the other person didn't seem to be in the mood to stop drinking anytime soon, he felt a sour feeling in his heart.

Was it really necessary to drink so much for someone who was already dead?

It wasn't as if there weren't plenty other fish in the sea.

The other person was a monarch, with a snap of his fingers, he could have the most delicate of the beauties at his feet and here he was every night drinking himself into a stupor and then stumbling into his bed.

More importantly, Ning fu felt vexed at his inability to leave the other person to his actions and having to spend sleepless nights while standing watch over him and having nothing to show for it except a few praises when the monarch was in a good mood and hearing sarcastic words when His Majesty was in a foul mood.

Before he is even consciously aware of his actions, he has already reached the monarch and with deft fingers takes away the flask of wine from the said person's hands.

After all, it wouldn't be good if the monarch really turned into a habitual drunkard and became addicted to it. Alcohol was the leading step towards other vices as well and Ning Fu didn't want to see the monarch embroiled in any sort of controversy.

All the more, he didn't want this person to wallow in self-pity and forget to live.Find authorized novels in Webnovel，faster updates, better experience，Please click www.novelhall.comfor visiting.

He still had a bright future ahead of him and though there was a chance that nobody would be ever able to fill that hole in his heart left by the passing of his beloved, it was no reason to neglect his own health and well being for that.

Ning Fu was sure that the monarch's beloved would also agree with him on this point, so he decisively decided that he would do everything in his power to help the emperor come out of the shadows of his loneliness and misery and emerge as a mentally and emotionally strong individual

Because if anybody caught hold of this apparent weakness, this could become the stumbling block for this person who had his heart in the right place but was plagued by his own demons.

More importantly, the monarch was a well-learned, humble person so Ning Fu didn't have to worry that this was all an artifice and the other would do away with the Ning Clan once he had squeezed them of all their usefulness.

With other Imperial Clan members, there was always a risk that they would do away with the heads of his family and subordinates at the drop of a hat.

When Su Li noticed that someone had taken away her wine, she turned to face the said person and scowled at him.

She had thought that it was Zhou Sheng who would no doubt scold her for her drinking but when she raised her head, her eyebrows shot up when she noticed that the person was none other than Ning Fu.