38 There Are Still People Who Love You

NOTE: Please play "Too Much Too Ask (Acoustic)" by Niall Horan to get the full effect of the chapter!

Yao Yan made a pushing action with her hand, moving all the glass to the side and frantically ran up to Qiu Yue.

"What are you doing!? Qiu Yue!"

She immediately sat Qiu Yue down and with a first aid box that seemed to appear out of nowhere, bandaged her hand, first cleaning the wounds and using the mysterious force to remove the glass shards.

Seeing Qiu Yue looked at her as if she hadn't done anything, Yao Yan really felt frustrated.

"How can you do this, why do you behave like this?"

It seemed like Qiu Yue was listening this time, as she looked at Yao Yan. But right now, Yao Yan felt very frustrated, so how could she stop there?

"You told me that I had to look for the beauty in life. That life was always worth living! That no matter what we shouldn't ever give up on it, that it was a gift!"

"What are you doing now? Acting like this, ignoring everything and everyone!"

"Enough!"

Qiu Yue felt tears clogging her throat again.

"What do you know? No matter how I lived. No matter what happened, no matter who hated me, it didn't matter. Even if I didn't have a physical home, I didn't care, because I thought I carried home with me, in my heart!"

"I let that person into my heart, Huo Zi Feng was home to me! After losing that... how do I go on? Why should I?!"

"You- did you ever think about others who love you? Did you?!"

Qiu Yue felt even more upset listening to Yao Yan. She knew that what she was saying was right, she knew that she'd left people behind, brushed their concern aside. But she couldn't see anything else, she didn't want to see anything else.

She stood up, barely standing up straight as her head started spinning again, and started to leave. Seeing her like this, Yao Yan pushed Qiu Yue back down.

"No. Just stay. Rest for now. Please."

Although Qiu Yue wanted to resist, the effects of the medicine were finally hitting her and she couldn't stand up again.

Just like that, both feeling frustrated and upset, Qiu Yue and Yao Yan went to sleep.

In the middle of the night, Yao Yan woke up to check on Qiu Yue and sighed in relief seeing her still asleep.

Yao Yan meant what she had said. She knew what losing Huo Zi Feng meant for Qiu Yue, but why was it that even though she was right here, it didn't matter?

Perhaps Yao Yan couldn't see that even though Qiu Yue herself didn't realize it right now, without Yao Yan being there, she may have truly given up on life.

Waking up early in the morning, Qiu Yue felt slightly better, her head was no longer pounding but she still felt as though she had been hit by a truck. Sticking her head out slightly to peek inside the guest bedroom, she found Yao Yan fast asleep.

Yao Yan had probably been checking on her through the night, combined with the fatigue of the journey it was not surprising that she had fallen dead asleep.

Qiu Yue quietly slipped onto something more comfortable and walked to the only place she knew for now, the idol agency. Funnily enough, she still hadn't read anything about this world or what its story was but that was because Qiu Yue herself had no purpose, her body had automatically walked to the practice room.

This time around though, Qiu Yue was a bit more alert, it seemed like the majority of the other trainees and even official idols were very careful around her. Even though their eyes clearly showed that they were full of hatred and disgust, on the surface they all shamelessly kept flattering her.

Qiu Yue blatantly ignored them all and walked away, she didn't care about anything right now.

Most of the idols sneered at her.

"Who does she think she is? All she has is her status!"

"Without her parents, she'd be next to dirt."

(E/N: "dirt" You're dirt! XD so she's trash? Okay, nvm me likey)

One of the ladies said as soon as Qiu Yue disappeared from view, mirroring the inner feelings of others.

Qiu Yue sat down in the corner of the practice room that had been given to her, it was a practice room meant only for Xiang Qiu Yue; her private practice room.

On one side was a huge glass wall, so dancers could see their moves. Seeing herself in the mirror Qiu Yue felt shocked. She looked so... tired.

Her eyes looked dead and there were tear streaks on her face, her skin was pale and she had dark circles under her eyes that were puffy. Even her hands were bandaged. The girl in the mirror looked similar to how Qiu Yue had looked once upon a time when she'd thought that she'd lost everything. That time, in her own original world, Qiu Yue had felt like she could never be happy again, but slowly, meeting Zi Feng, Yan Yan, Meng Hui, Zhou Jia... all of them had shown her how beautiful the world could be, the beauty she'd been hoping for, no matter how bad things got.

But how was she supposed to do so now? How was she supposed to do all that... when this time she knew that she could never love anyone as she had loved him.

Qiu Yue didn't understand why, but she felt like singing all of a sudden. Perhaps it was because that was what the original owner of this body did when she felt sad.

"Waiting here for someone,

Only yesterday, we were on the run

You smile back at me and your face lit up the sun

Now I'm waiting here for someone."

"My shadow's dancing

Without you for the first time

My heart is hoping

You'll walk right in tonight"

"Someone's moving outside

The lights come on and down the drive

I forget you're not here when I close my eyes"

"My shadow's dancing

Without you for the first time

My heart is hoping

You'll walk right in tonight"

"It's all I'm asking

Is it too much to ask?

It's all I'm asking

Is it too much to ask?"

Slowly, Qiu Yue started crying as she sang.

'Now what do I do? How do I go on without you...?'

Despite her sobs and her shaky hands, she didn't stop singing. But because her beautiful voice broke as she sang, it gave off a very melancholic vibe to anyone who listened.

Qiao Feng, who had rushed here as soon as he heard that she had entered the building, was rendered silent the moment he opened the door. In fact, he stood right there petrified, unable to take a step forward. Soon another man with a concerned look joined him and stood there, as they both listened to Qiu Yue's heartbroken voice.

For some reason as Qiu Yue sang the last two lines, a single teardrop fell down Qiao Feng's face, although he couldn't understand why. He hurriedly wiped it away, pretending nothing had happened.

Seeing the two men standing in the doorway, Qiu Yue was startled but made no move to get up or even wipe her tears.

Qiao Feng cleared his throat to stop his voice from cracking before he spoke.

"Qiu Yue, your brother is here-"

But before he could complete his sentence the brown-haired man standing next to him had already moved towards Qiu Yue.

'Brother...?'

'Ah, he's Xiang Qiu Yue's brother...'

"Ah Yue... why are you in this state? What happened? Tell this brother of yours! I'll take care of everything. Don't cry ah please..."

Xiang Yu Se had heard from Qiao Feng that Qiu Yue had been crying for the entire day yesterday so he had dropped everything and jumped on a flight from A country instantly. But only after coming here and seeing her like this did he understand how serious this was. His Ah Yue wasn't throwing a tantrum... something had really gone wrong.

He clumsily wiped Qiu Yue's tears as if unsure of how to handle it. His sister was a willful and cute girl all the time, he hadn't seen her cry more than a handful of times and each time he was left flustered as he hated seeing her sad, but was helpless against her tears.

"Did mom and dad ignore you? Why are you worried about them ah, your big brother is here!"

He knew that the fact that their parents always turned a blind eye to her constantly hurt her, but he couldn't change them, so he showered her with love in their stead. He understood that it wasn't enough but he also didn't know what else to do.

Qiu Yue looked up at him blankly and his heartfelt it was being stabbed by a knife.

"Brother... I want to quit... I just want to sleep..."

Yu Se nearly had a heart attack hearing her words. Just want to sleep?! Isn't that equal to dying?!

"Ah Yue! How can you say that! No. No. Tell me what's wrong. Let's do this together, alright? I'll help you find a way!"

But even more scared was the manager Qiao Feng, who could now see his gold mountain- I mean, idol walking away!

"Qiu Yue! How can you say that? Wasn't this your dream."

He quickly entered the room and helped her up.

"No... I don't want to do anything anymore..."

Qiao Feng knew he had to convince her otherwise. Originally, even though she had a beautiful voice, because she was so unfeeling it sounded very bad, but now? He hated to admit it... but she made him cry!

"Why?"

When she heard him ask her why Qiu Yue looked right at him.

"Because I don't want to live anymore."

Xiang Yu Se clutched his heart and almost fell down when he heard this, WHAT?!

"Ah Yue... big brother will start crying! Don't say such things, listen to me, let's talk this through first!"

"And why not?"

Seeing Qiao Feng quietly make even more conversation Yu Se felt like throwing his useless manager aside.

"Because he isn't here anymore..."

"He isn't here? Who isn't here? Your brother is right here!"

Qiao Feng And Qiu Yue both ignored Yu Se as Qiao Feng continued to talk to her.

"Then do you think he wanted you to give up?"

At this point, hostility sparked in Qiu Yue's eyes but it also made Yu Se shut up, till now his sister's eyes looked blank, but now there was some emotion.

"Don't talk to me about what he wanted!"

Qiao Feng didn't flinch.

"You sang... because you wanted to let out that sadness didn't you?"

Qiu Yue was puzzled. What was this guy going on about?

"So many people lose a part of themselves every day... they die inside, just like you have. But do you think they should give up?"

He didn't know how he knew, but he knew that this girl in front of him, however broken she was had always worked her hardest to live life to the fullest. Giving up was something she would never condone!

He knew better than others, her family ignored her existence with the exception of her older brother, yet she lived strong.

In this way, Qiu Yue and Xiang Qiu Yue were very similar. And even beyond that, something in him just knew from the moment he saw her.

Qiu Yue wanted to say yes, but no matter what she could not deny her own ideals.

"...no."

Seeing that he'd taken the right way to deal with this, he was relieved.

"Do you think you could help them? Take their strength to live and become their strength."

"But why...? What is there to live for?"

But before Qiu Yue could say that, Yao Yan's words echoed in her head.

"Because life is a gift."

"Because only by living can you be happy, can you make others happy."

"Because there are still people who love you."