Chapter 598: 13.96

"Please end my misery now. Kill me."

Matthew's hand trembled as he could feel the slender neck of Young Master Jean on his hand. With only one snap, he could end the misery that Jean suffered for so long. 

But why?

Why would he do that? 

He loved Jean so much, and he tried his best to make sure that Jean stayed with him. 

Why would he kill someone he loved?

Matthew's gaze started to blur. He got confused and dazed, not knowing how to cope with this complicated emotion inside his heart.

He didn't understand why would Young Master wanted Matthew to kill him. 

After Matthew did so much. All Matthew wanted was to be close with Young Master Jean.

"Young Master, I… I will never hurt you…." Matthew said. Hurting Young Master Jean was something unthinkable in his head because he loved Jean so much.

So much that he might have gone crazy. 

Jean chuckled, full of mockery, "I know that you love me, Matthew. And I know that you will take care of me willingly. But this is not what I want…."

"I want to be able to live normally. I want to dance around the flower field. I want to play with snow. I want to step on the dried leaves during autumn."

"Now, all I do is lying on the bed like a dead man. I agreed to share my heart with you because I thought I could finally return back to full health."

"But it's all in vain. Nothing works anymore, and I… I have no will to live." 

"Matthew… can you help me with my request, please?" Jean begged. He was too fed up, too tired to continue living as waste like this. 

"Please kill me."

Matthew shook his head, "I will not kill you. I will never hurt you, Jean…."

"I don't need your pity, Matthew. This is my hell, so kill me now!"

Matthew's hands trembled. He was trying his best to hold himself. Because he didn't understand what went wrong. 

He wanted his happiness, and his happiness laid with Jean staying with him forever. They didn't need anyone else. As long as Jean decided to stay with him, he could be the happiest man on earth. 

But he also wanted Jean to be happy. 

"Young Master Jean… are you not happy to stay with me? I will give you anything…." Matthew asked. 

"It's not about you, Matthew. But it's about myself, who cannot accept my fate. So it's better for you to just kill me before I kill myself," Jean replied.

"But I need you here, Young Master…."

"I love you. I love you so much. I've been in love with you since we were kids, and that feeling never disappears."

"Why aren't you happy staying with me?" Matthew kept on asking an obvious question. But for him, it was simply unbelievable.

[I think his brain is wired differently. How could he not see the kind of damage that he did to me?]

[He literally ruined my life and then chained me here, hurting me every day by weakening my body, and he literally used his cum as a tracking and executing tool in my heart. So I could never escape him.]

[Wait, speaking about that part, what kind of degenerate author would write about using semen as a tracking and binding tool?]

[Pupa: Hush, we don't talk about that one, respect the author!]

Jean thought it was funny that Matthew was asking the obvious, "Because I'm not alive. I'm breathing, but this is not the life that I want. Don't extend my torment like this, Matthew."

"Kill me."

"No," Matthew shook his head.

"Kill me."

"NO!"

"Matthew—"

"NO! NO! NO! NO!" 

Matthew released his hands from Jean's slender neck. He hugged the weak Young Master tightly, refusing to let go. "You're not allowed to die! I will never allow you to leave me!"

Jean didn't resist Mathew's tight hug. He was staring at the ceiling with his empty eyes, devoid of all willpower to live. 

"Then, if you don't want to kill me, I will starve myself to death. I don't want to live like this, Matthew."

"NO!"

Matthew was desperate to keep Young Master Jean. He finally got his beautiful life, and he refused to let go. 

"Young Master Jean… If… if In can restore your health back to your previous self, including your magic. Will that make you happy?"

"Yes, but that's impossible already," Jean sighed. 

"I can do it. I can restore everything you have, Jean. But I'm not sure if…." Matthew gulped. He didn't want to sound greedy and desperate. But this was the only way to make Jean happy, even though it would put his heart in never-ending worry. 

"I'm not sure if you still want to live with me after I restored everything."

"What do you mean? Of course, I will live with you!" Jean rebuked. "All I want is to play, hunt, cook, and spend time with you! I don't want to become a waste like this forever!"

"Matthew, when I already called you my Husband, do you think I'm joking about that? Even I never called Angel Raphael as my Husband!" 

Ba-Dump!

Matthew was astonished by Young Master Jean's statement. He boldly stated it without any hesitation as well. It was too convincing that Matthew couldn't help but get swayed by Jean's words. 

"I—Is that true?"

"Yes! I feel so sad whenever you leave in the early morning. I'm all alone here and can't do anything other than look up or sit on the rocking chair like before. Do you think I'll be happy with that? I'm not a decoration, Matthew."

…

"I want to help you. I want to hunt with you, gather herbs, and maybe we can fish together."

"Together…"

Matthew gulped, and he had decided upon Young Master Jean's restoration. 

"Jean, I can restore everything you have, your health and magic. But with one condition," Matthew said. "You must stay with me and live with me comfortably here."

"Of course, that's what I want in the first place!" Jean insisted. 

Matthew stared at Jean, trying to find the lies inside him.

But Matthew couldn't find any lies or hesitation inside Jean's eyes. It was just as crystal clear and beautiful as it used to, just a little dim after so much torment. 

"Okay, I will restore your energy. Let me make the miracle tonic for you."

**

Matthew was busy brewing the 'miracle tonic' to completely restore Jean's health. Of course, such a miracle tonic was just a lie. 

Matthew put his unseal magic inside the drink, and then he gave it to Jean. 

"Drink this, Jean. I guarantee that you'll be restored."

Jean looked doubtful. He had tried many things, and it was useless.

But he wanted to appreciate Matthew's help, so he drank the tonic in one gulp.

…

There was no response after he drank it until Jean's body suddenly glowed in bright light, Jean's body started collecting light magic again, and he could feel his energy slowly recovered. 

Jean closed his eyes to enjoy this feeling of being healthy again. 

After a while, his pale cheek turned ruddy once more, and his thin body became slightly plump. His dull pink hair glowed and turned into healthy pink hair. 

Jean opened his eyes. He stared at the worried Matthew and smiled, "Thank you, Matthew."

Matthew grabbed Jean's hands and clenched them tightly, "Y—You will stay with me, right?"