Long Shen stood in front of Yunyu's apartment door. Truthfully, he didn't have any expectation of coming here. It was already a blessing if Yunyu didn't kick him out the moment he saw his face.
Long Shen took a deep breath and knocked on the door,
Knock. Knock.
"Yunyu, please open the door. I want to talk…" Long Shen said.
…
No answer, which made Long Shen frown. Bai Yunyu never forgot to answer and respond to anything that he did. It made him feel restless, scared that his bad feeling might've come true.
Long Shen knocked on the door again:
Knock. Knock.
"Yunyu, it's me, Long Shen. Please open the door. I want to talk…"
…
No answer.
Feeling that his bad omen might've come true, Long Shen clicked the door handle. Turned out, it was unlocked the whole time.
Long Shen gulped as he entered the room that had been ruined. He saw the sofa had been stabbed and shredded with a knife as he walked in. He doubted that Yunyu would do something like this. He knew that Yunyu was a poor kid. He wouldn't destroy an expensive sofa just because he felt like it.
'Did that bastard Aaron Xu came here before me? This must be his doing. There is no way Bai Yunyu would do something like this!' Long Shen thought. He continued to enter Yunyu's bedroom, and his heart skipped for a second.
He saw the wall full of sticky notes had been ruined, and all the heartfelt messages about Yunyu's admiration to Long Shen, his adoring ideas, his sincerity, all gone.
All things that made Long Shen felt happier all had been shredded to pieces in only one night. Long Shen also saw the scattered pieces of the pink notes, which obviously contained the love that Yunyu had for him.
And now everything was gone.
Long Shen refused to believe that Yunyu was the one who did this, "This must be that bastard Aaron Xu's doing! There's no way Yunyu would do something like this to his own! He wrote everything that he feels about me in these sticky notes. How could he desecrated it! That's just not possible!"
Long Shen was in denial, but his heart dropped when he saw an open wardrobe. The wardrobe was completely empty, with only a few pieces of dirty clothes.
"Where did he go? Why didn't he tell me first?" Long Shen was again in denial. He didn't want to accept the possibility that Yunyu might have left him because he was too tired, too exhausted with his own feeling. That he had given up loving Long Shen.
Because what was a good thing that ever came to Bai Yunyu after he fell in love? Other than pain and suffering, there was none.
Even Long Shen knew it as well, knew how much of a jerk he was to Yunyu.
Long Shen shook his head, though his heart was uneasy, he still believed that Yunyu would give him a second chance, he must be, because Long Shen was already thinking about settling down with Yunyu if it was needed.
Long Shen felt his heart was in a lot of burdens as he walked to the kitchen. He saw the kitchen was clean, with many plates and utensils they used to eat together yesterday. The memory was still crystal clear in Long Shen's mind. Because it was the first time, he actually ate together with someone else.
He did have many dinners with actresses or higher-ups, but he called those as a business.
With Yunyu, though, it wasn't just a business because he enjoyed it.
Long Shen darted his eyes at the dining table and saw a box on the table. It attracted him immediately because he felt that it was a message from Yunyu.
But at the same time, he was afraid if it would be something that would only twist his heart.
Long Shen approached the box and read the note, or more like a letter, written by someone in obviously huge emotional distress. Long Shen knew that it was written by Yunyu.
-To Long Shen, the man who is my heaven and hell,
Mr. Long Shen, by the time you read this note, I've left the country and go somewhere far. At least far from you.
I know that you're disgusted by my love for you, but I've loved you since the day you saved me from poverty and starvation, and for that, I appreciate you a lot.
I want to serve you forever. I know this ugly me cannot be with you, even if I love you so much. But since you have dismissed me, I know that the time has come for me to say goodbye. I truly enjoyed the time working with you.
You're both my heaven and hell, you pulled me out of poverty, but you keep abusing me with your words and your heartless attitude, just because of my appearance. Mr. Long Shen, I still remember everything you said to me, everything you did to me. I still remember how many times you called me an ugly fucker and that I should die.
I should hate you, I know. But I cannot.
This stupid love inside my heart keeps growing every day as much as my insecurity every time you mocked me. I'm sorry for undeservingly falling for you, Mr. Long Shen.
You must've been disgusted after you found out yesterday. That's why I don't have the face to see you anymore. I will leave, so you don't have to see me for the rest of your life. But let me confess one more time, this is the last time, so please bear with it.
Mr. Long Shen, this ugly Bai Yunyu loves you… forever.
PS: Inside this box, I've put all your belongings, most of them are the clothes you gave me. I never wear them, so you won't need to worry about your clothes being tainted by my ugliness.
Bai Yunyu-