Chapter 388: OG 1.29

"Anything…"

'Anything…', that word echoed in Yunyu's head. If he hadn't seen the hidden plot just now, he'd never believe Long Shen's word. After how much of a dick Long Shen was, it was hardly believable that he could change.

But when he saw how sincere Long Shen was in that hidden plot, Yunyu had to admit that he was the one who was petty here.

He planned to torment Long Shen some more, just because he called him ugly so many times.

[But I don't want to be the monster in that hidden plot… I refuse to be one.]

Long Shen truly repented in that hidden plot. He suffered a lot just to get the forgiveness that he so ever wished for. But Yunyu was petty to the core. He didn't want to forget what Long Shen did to him.

So he abused Long Shen, just like what Long Shen did to him before. Like one fire that got eaten by a greater fire, he burned everything to the ground instead of letting go.

The old Bai Yunyu burned Long Shen until nothing was left for him, and Yunyu knew that it wasn't just to fill the 'Ragemeter.'

That was simply pure pettiness because honestly, Yunyu had planned to do the same thing, although not as severe as the one shown in the hidden plot.

[Pupa: You're not a good person, you know that, right?]

[I know… I just don't expect myself to be that heartless. And I don't expect Long Shen to actually repent. After so much pain I inflicted on him as Bai Yunyu in the original Ragemeter world, everything comes in a full circle, with him stuck in transmigration world, world 10. And me as James Grind.]

[He falls in love with the same person, but with a completely twisted perspective. He really thought that I'm a beautiful person with a beautiful heart… until I transmigrated as Tian Dong, an ugly assistant similar to Bai Yunyu, and got abused by him.]

[Pupa: And if you do the same, both of you will never find peace. I know that Long Shen is a jerk, but did he really deserve for his life to get ruined like that?]

[No, at least not after I saw how hard he tried to be a better person for Bai Yunyu.]

[Pupa: The choice is yours right now. You can be the monster that will ruin him, or you can…]

Yunyu stared at the kneeling Long Shen dazedly. Which made Long Shen even more worried than before. This might be his last chance to get Yunyu back, so he didn't want to mess it up. Even if he had to kiss Yunyu's dirty boots, then he would do it immediately.

That showed how desperate he was right now.

Long Shen lowered his back silently to an almost prostrating position, about to kiss Yunyu's boots, and Yunyu retreated immediately.

"W—What are you doing?!" Yunyu asked as he was surprised.

Long Shen looked up, staring at Bai Yunyu's eyes and replied, "I will do anything as long as you can forgive me. When I said anything, I can kiss your boots if you want me to…"

"Y—You don't need to do that!" Yunyu refused. He took another step back. "I—I already forgive you, it's okay, I truly have forgiven you, Mr. Long Shen."

"I know that's just empty words. How could you forgive someone like me so easily? Bai Yunyu, I truly want you to forgive me and stay with me. I want you to love me again because I don't want to lose that love…"

Long Shen got up and approached Bai Yunyu, who kept retreating. Long Shen had long legs, so he caught up easily and wrapped Yunyu's body with his hands, pulling him closer and hugging him tightly.

Yunyu's head rested on Long Shen's chest, so he could hear the rapid heartbeat that Long Shen had right now. He could feel Long Shen's hand trembling as he gently touched Yunyu's hair. "This is the first time I touched you so gently, Bai Yunyu. I should've done that sooner, I know. I'm an idiot for not realizing your worth…" Long Shen said with his trembling voice. He was afraid that Yunyu would reject him immediately. And he was sure that Bai Yunyu still hadn't accepted him.

Even worse, maybe Yunyu had moved on from Long Shen as he moved out from China.

"Please, I'm begging you, Bai Yunyu. It's only been two months since you left me, and I feel so utterly broken. I have to take sleeping pills every day because my worry keeps me at night. I don't know whether you are safe or not, whether you eat well, whether you have a roof over your head. I don't even know if you're alive or not."

Long Shen buried his face on Yunyu's shoulder, and Yunyu could feel his shoulder dampened as Long Shen couldn't hold his tear, "I know you won't believe me. I understand that you still hate me. But please, let me stay around you for a while. I want to prove my sincerity to you, just like how you show your sincerity to me."

Long Shen was too scared to hear rejection from Yunyu, so he indulged himself in this warmth for a moment. He hugged Yunyu tightly, not wanting to let go. Because the chance of getting Yunyu's forgiveness was too small.

[He is so scared…]

[Pupa: Indeed. He has been in a constant nightmare for two months, searching for you and dreaming about you almost every day. I guess your Guilt Tripping no Jutsu works effectively. That letter you left for him must've hit his conscience.]

[Pupa: What are you waiting for? Just forgive him already.]

[Pupa… love and forgiveness are earned. You can't just say 'I love you' or 'I forgive you' without any proof.]

Yunyu took a deep breath, then he pushed Long Shen away as hard as he could. Long Shen looked lost when Yunyu distanced himself. His heart shattered into pieces as he already knew that the worst possibility finally befell him.

Yunyu didn't want to forgive him, and his heart had been shut for Long Shen, which was logical.

"Does this… does this mean that you won't forgive me?"

"Mr. Long Shen… love and forgiveness are earned. This is not a novel where you can just spout some random love word and expect me to believe it, especially after what you did to me. That's just being stupid," Yunyu replied.

He sighed and stared at Long Shen, "Master Long, how do I know that your love is just a cheap love or a real love that will stay for a long time?"

"I—I will do anything as long as you'd believe me!" Long Shen replied.

"Then prove it. I don't need your talk."

"How do I prove it? I'm ready to do anything!"

"Then I'm willing to give you a chance, but I want you to do something…" Yunyu had a mysterious smile on his face as he continued, "Mr. Long Shen, you will not like my request, but this is the only way for you to earn my forgiveness."

"So bear with it, or leave."