Chapter 406: 12.14

"This is the letter from your banished Empress, you ignorant bastard!"

The attacker threw a bamboo stalk that was often used to store letter, and then he rushed to the deep forest and disappeared.

Huang Shu didn't have any intention to chase after him because that guy was really fast, and Huang Shu was more intrigued by the bamboo stalk on the ground. So he waited for a moment, making sure that it wasn't explosive, then after he made sure, he picked it up from the ground and opened the lid.

Honestly, he was more concerned when that man mentioned the banished Empress, his wife, Bai Yunyu.

'Who is that man anyway? How could he know about Bai Yunyu? Did he scheme about something behind me the whole time? Just like what he did by poisoning my son?!' Huang Shu's gaze darkened. He didn't want to have any suspicion towards Bai Yunyu, his Empress. But after the cold hard truth was revealed that Bai Yunyu wanted to poison the Crown Prince, Huang Shu kept having this suspicion about him.

'Did Yunyu want to harm my son again, or even worse, my mother?! Damn you, Bai Yunyu! Why are you so evil! All you need to do is to apologize and stop doing these crazy things!'

Huang Shu kept accusing Yunyu in his head because, in his head, Bai Yunyu had been destroying his trust, slandering his family, and refused to apologize. If Huang Shu didn't love him, then he wouldn't even bother sparing Bai Yunyu for all his offenses.

After Huang Shu opened the lid, he checked the content of the bamboo stalk. There was a letter that should've been written not long ago, guessing from the wetness of the ink. Huang Shu frowned, 'There's no way this is a real letter from Yunyu. Even if it is, how could that ambusher have this letter?'

Bad ideas started creeping inside Huang Shu. He started linking the attack that he experienced just now and the fact that the man sent a letter from Yunyu. Huang Shu's gaze chilled. He clenched his fist, full of anger and disappointment.

'Did he want to kill me too? His husband?' Huang Shu asked in his heart. 'He will kill me and all the love we have? After so much that I've done for him and so many hardships we endured together?!'

Huang Shu immediately recognized the strokes in this letter, it was obvious that Bai Yunyu wrote this, he clenched the letter and started reading,

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My dear husband, Emperor Xianglian,

My dear boyfriend, the man whom I know, and I like better, Huang Shu.

My dear, I am unsure whether you'll be well informed or not, but the moment you read this letter, that means I've passed away to the afterlife.

I know that I have been turning into a burden for your glorious life as the Golden Emperor. I know that I cannot bear you any child, and my performance to help you and your duty as the Emperor doesn't seem to be enough to satisfy you either.

My husband, you must've known that you're the first love in my life. You're the only man whom I ever accepted. Why did I accept you before you even ascended the throne? I still remember the late crown prince, your big brother, also took fancy of me, but I choose you instead because of your promise.

Do you still remember your own promise?

You promised me that you will never take any concubine after we got married. So I really thought that I've been blessed in life as you actually never touched another woman or ger man after you ascended.

Until we found out that I cannot bear you child, I know my value as a ger man immediately vanished the moment I knew that I'm infertile.

So you start adding more and more harem members until you have a hundred of them. And after you've successfully created your own lineage for the empire, you have already forgotten about me… about our promise…

Husband, I know that you won't believe me. But there's never any idea, not even once, had I think about poisoning your son with Concubine Xi. Although there is a nail in my heart, I still accepted him as the Crown Prince because he is your son, and I will not forget our duty as the Emperor and Empress.

But when everyone schemed against me and accused me of trying to poison your son, you immediately believed them without a second thought. Is it because I have been outnumbered, or because you simply didn't see any more value in me?

You refuse to listen to my reasoning and delivered such unjust punishment because you think I want to ruin your perfect life.

Believe me, husband, your happiness and glory are also my priority. I want you to be the Golden Emperor, I want you to achieve all things great as the Emperor, so I supported you as the Empress. I did this out of love and duty.

Now you have achieved everything. You have a great empire. These numerous amazing achievements will be remembered in history, harem full of women and ger men. Moreover, you have your children to ensure the future.

Does this mean that my duty has been done? Does this mean that you are free to throw me away to the Cold Palace because I have no more use?

I don't know the answer either, but I see that you have truly ditched me away for becoming a burden for you.

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Dear husband, I'm sorry that I cannot persevere any longer. I have been trying my best to endure such hardship, But I am just a human being. I have been too heartbroken to eat. I keep thinking about whether marrying you was a mistake. 

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Even though I love you so much, and my love will last even after my body leaves for the afterlife, maybe I shouldn't marry you in the first place.

Maybe it was my mistake for marrying you.

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That is why, my dear husband, I will leave this world, so it will ease your burden. So now you can take Concubine Xi as your new Empress, or you can pick anyone whom you prefer from your harem. I'm sure Empress Dowager will be satisfied.

Please live happily, live comfortably as the Golden Emperor and take care of the Empire. It is your dream since your childhood, is it not? You have everything now, so I believe forgetting an infertile ger man like me is not a hard task to do.

Please forget about me, burn all my belongings, so you may never remember that Bai Yunyu existed in this world once.

Thank you for everything, Huang Shu. 

I love you, but I wish we never met, even in the next life.

-Bai Yunyu-

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Huang Shu's whole body trembled as he finished reading the letter. He immediately jumped to his horse and spurred it as quick as possible. 

'No, no way... my Bai Yunyu wouldn't die so easily, right? He... he is a great warrior!' Huang Shu kept denying as he rushed out of the deep forest, he wanted to meet Yunyu as soon as possible. 

'NO WAY! HE CANNOT DIE LIKE THAT, HE CANNOT LEAVE ME!'