The world he carefully constructed was completely broken by Ji Rao's touch.
Because he can't find Ji Rao this time.
Ji Rao is a ghost. He can throw away his body and soul. The world is so big that Shen Yicheng will never find Ji Rao as long as Ji Rao doesn't want to be found by himself.
Ji Rao knows what happened before. Ji Rao doesn't forgive him. Ji Rao leaves him. Ji Rao will never come back.
This cognition made Shen Yicheng almost collapse.
He thought of Ji Rao all the time, but he was afraid to think that Ji Rao had left, because no matter what he thought, it was the same as going to hell.
Without Ji Rao, he can't stay for a moment.
It was a punishment from heaven.
Punish his first selfish curse on Ji Rao, punish his second no memory. He always thought, no matter how to punish him, Ji Rao can't do anything.
But now Ji Rao's appearance of being neither human nor ghost is caused by him?
It's funny that he still holds Ji tightly.
"I'm so selfish." He hugged Ji Rao and whispered in his ear, "but I really can't let go. I don't complain about how you punish me, but you can't go, you can't leave me."
"I won't leave you, Shen Yicheng." Ji Rao stretched out his hand, and his cool hand touched the Yin card with Shen Yicheng's temperature. "With it, I won't leave you."
Shen Yicheng is buried between Ji Rao's neck. His warm breath rubs Ji Rao's porcelain white skin. When he hears what Shen Yicheng says, he seems to have no desire for life.
"If you want to leave one day," he said, holding Ji Rao's hand and slowly putting it in his heart, "kill me."
I can't face the world without you alone and kill me. It's a relief for me.
Ji raoding looked at him for two seconds, then turned his head and said, "I want sugar."
Shen Yicheng was stunned, then he nodded eagerly, "yes, yes, I'll get it for you."
He seemed to be in a hurry. He even tripped over the carpet when he went upstairs, but he stopped when he came to the stairway. He turned his head and fixed his eyes on Ji Rao. He was not willing to move his eyes after he was sure that he was still there.
Ji Rao clearly can see the struggling emotion from his eyes, he said, "I'll wait for you here, I won't go."
With Ji Rao's assurance, Shen Yicheng went to the second floor three steps at a time.
However, in more than ten seconds, he came down with a plastic bag of sugar, which was green and flowery, and had all kinds of sugar. Ji Rao had never seen so much sugar at home before. It seemed that Shen Yicheng bought it after he left.
"All for you." Shen Yicheng gives jirao all the sugar.
Ji Rao pinches a piece out. Shen Yicheng immediately takes it and peels off the sugar for him, then feeds it to Ji Rao's mouth.
Ji Rao opened his mouth and looked at Shen Yicheng with calm and indifferent eyes.
"Is it delicious?"
Ji Rao nodded.
In the evening, Shen Yicheng ordered a lot of takeout, which made Ji Rao go to see him.
"I haven't eaten much these days." Shen Yicheng some embarrassed explanation way, "do you want to take a bath?"
Ji Rao nodded.
Even if it's a body, Ji Rao also cares about the cleanness of her body.
When he finished washing, he saw Shen Yicheng eating in the living room.