Erase the white fog, through the unclear glass, Xu Xingli saw the past.
At first, in order to avoid the search of Zhang Nan and Bai Zhenzhen, she had to take Yuwen to Tibet, and even couldn't get out of the imperial city.
There is not even a decent bed in the small rental room.
The innocent baby lay there crying, crying, crying.
Every wall echoed with crying.
The door has been smashed by the neighbors, and they complain that if they can't take care of their children, they can throw them down from the upstairs.
Not enough diapers, not enough milk powder, not enough clothes.
She squatted on one side of the ground, holding her head tightly with her hands, wrapping her hair with her fingertips and tearing off a few strands of hair.
At that time, she had just come back from the airport. She waited for a long time until mujingluo came back from abroad.
Mujingluo has a new love.
I haven't seen her for more than a year. It's natural to have a new girlfriend. He never promised her anything.
The hope she was waiting for was dashed, and the whole person was soaked in despair. Like a shrew, she yelled at Yuwen who didn't know anything at that time, telling him that he shouldn't have come to this world at all. After yelling, she was trapped by the overwhelming guilt.
Later, she found that the most thing she did every day was to look at the window without anti-theft bar. She was afraid. She sealed and pasted all the windows with adhesive tape
The window can't be opened for a while, but the whole rental house also falls into the darkness day and night.
There are no rules for children's work and rest, crying and crying after crying, crying and crying after crying
Originally, she can also become no different from Cui Mameng.
She was terrified by the knowledge.
From then on, she told herself that she could die, but Yuwen couldn't, and the white family would die in front of her.
She can do it at all costs.
Hot water poured wet hair, hot stuffy, Xu Xingli hand wipe off the water vapor on the face, thinking of those particularly clear in the past, cold spread in the body.
Mu Jingluo asked her if she had touched her heart.
She wanted to tell him that she had no heart and did not dare to. After turning off the hot water, Xu Xingli stepped out of the shower and wiped her hair with a towel at will. When there was no water dripping, she took off the bath towel and wrapped her body. She stood in front of the mirror and saw her face flushed by the heat. Her long hair was half wet and messy
, the small and prominent lock bone under her slender neck, and the water droplets slipped through her white skin and did not enter the undulating bath towel room.
Xu Xingli stretched out her hand and looked at herself in the mirror. Is this kind of self still a little attractive?
Even if it's just a fleeting attraction. She laughed at herself, turned to open the bathroom door, looked up, and saw Mu Jingluo sitting at the end of the bed, head down, don't know what she was thinking, the profile of her side face was deep, her slender legs straddled, the lines of her back were smooth and beautiful, and her fingertips were holding a half burning cigarette.
He didn't smoke and let a wisp of smoke swim out slowly.
There was a faint smell of nicotine in the bedroom.
Hearing the sound of opening the door, Mu Jingluo didn't look up, just maintained this sitting posture.
"I'll give you time to go."
Xu Xingli leans against the bathroom door and looks at her.
With Mu Jingluo's character, if he is not interested in a woman, he will not stay.
"This is my place. Why should I go? It's you who should go Mu Jing Luo's eyes drooped and his voice was very cold. "Don't you have a male friend you're in contact with? Do you like to play with other people's feelings so much?"
"Maybe I drink a little too much today. Do you really want me to stay?"
"Go."
"Good."
Xu Xingli simply agreed, turned into the bathroom, picked up his clothes and went out.
Bare tender feet passed under his sight, stepped out the shallow watermark on the floor and left step by step. Mu Jingluo sat there, breathing suddenly, smashing the cigarette in his hand, grabbing her wrist, pulling her to the bed, turning over, pressing her thin arm with both hands, staring at her with low eyes, "Xu Xingli, how long do you want to torture me
“……”
She lay there without any resistance. Her bath towel was slightly scattered, her long hair was scattered, and her eyes looked at him silently. The person who could stab people was just such a thin shoulder, and the water vapor was still clinging to her bright face, which set off a sense of vulnerability.
Looking at her, his eyes gradually changed, his breathing became disordered, he wanted to leave, but he could not put his hands away, instead, he held them more tightly.
"Mujingluo."
She called his name in a low voice, and the red lips opened and closed.
Mu Jingluo's throat was tight, and his warm palm stroked her face. A small face was not as big as his palm. His fingertips touched the soft skin. His eyes darkened quickly, and he said in a dumb voice, "I'm probably really drunk."
Full of helpless.
Then he lowered his head and kissed her on the lips.
In a flash, the breathing and heartbeat were all disordered.Mu Jingluo understood the harm of opium poppy. He couldn't touch it from the beginning. Once he did, it was useless to hide and quit.
He kisses her almost like venting, attacks everything in revenge, and demands madly
Xu Xingli lay there, his body trembling slightly, and his fingers unconsciously twisted the sheets.
The scene in the hotel a few years ago reappeared.
Her breath was shaking.
Mu Jingluo didn't pay attention, but when she was in the same mood as herself, the action of kissing her lips was much more gentle.
Soon, her bath towel was uncovered
……
The next day, the heavy shade curtains made the bedroom dark and forgetful.
Xu Xingli wakes up in Mu Jingluo's arms. Looking at her arm in front of her body, she is in a trance. She pushes his hand away, but she is hugged more tightly.
A warm and intimate kiss fell on the corner of her eye.
Mu Jingluo side low eyes to see her, eyes gentle and clear, lips hook light radian, "early."
I woke up earlier than she did.
Xu Xingli looked at him, eyes pause a second, just way, "early."
Seeing that she was a little confused, Mu Jingluo gave a low smile and a kiss on her lips, "get up, take you to dinner, and we'll have a good chat after eating."
The tone is very flattering.
Xu Xingli looks at him unaccustomed. Mu Jingluo has covered her with clothes and sits up to take her clothes.
Xu Xingli sat up from the bed and put on her clothes. When she thought of something, she took her mobile phone and turned it on.
After shutting down last night, Cui Manmeng made a lot of missed calls.
There is also a picture message from an unknown number.
Xu Xingli points to open, and the other party sends a picture at six in the morning. In the picture, her father's tombstone has become a ground of broken stones. The picture falls to one side, and the soil covers her smiling face.
“……” Xu Xingli sits on the bed, holding the hand of mobile phone tightly, cyan veins are highlighted.