Chapter 789

"In the chapter of residual pain, the sentence" the real feeling of being alive "has been emphasized all the time. Sosou's novel reflects on this meaning through two special people, namely, two rituals and Asahi rattan. What is our sense of being alive if we use the special to reflect the ordinary? It's "pain" for painless patients. In "residual pain", the protagonist Asahi Fuji is such a painless patient

"At the beginning, there was a question that puzzled me all the time. Why was Asahi Tani able to tolerate such insults from those people? Even if she is painless, no matter how weak she is, she shouldn't have no resistance like this. Even her psychological resistance doesn't show up. However, her inner monologue answered my doubts and shocked me deeply at the same time.... "

I can't feel the pain, but why can I feel the hurt in my heart.

After all, what is the heart? Is it the heart or my brain that is injured.

Language with the meaning of attacking this person is accepted by the brain and is hurt by the attack. Because it hurts when you get hurt. Refutation, defense and scolding are just medicines made by the brain to alleviate the injury.

So even if I don't know the pain, I can feel the pain in my heart.

But it's an illusion.

It must be an illusion.

Real pain is not something that can be cured by words.

The hurt in the heart can be quickly forgotten. So the heart of the injury is insignificant.

But * *'s injury, as long as the injury still exists, will continue to pain.

What a strong, exact proof of survival.

If the heart is the brain, let my brain injury.

Then I can get the pain.

Just like every day I've had so far.

Be of the same age. Even the memory of the abuse of young teenagers. If it can hurt me.

... I remember.

Their laughter. And there was a terrible look.

The time that is constantly threatened, forced and humiliated belongs to me.

When the man on me waved his knife. My abdomen got hot. My clothes on my abdomen split and got wet with blood.

When I think about being stabbed, I'm full of aggression.

After dealing with them, I really feel the warmth is the pain.

Once again, my heart is tightening.

It's unforgivable. This voice kept repeating in my heart until it was broken.

"... woo."

The knee bent down.

Is that coming again.

The abdomen is getting hot. Being held by the invisible hand, my visceral unhappiness.

I feel like vomiting... I've never felt like this.

Dizziness... All along, it's always sudden when you lose consciousness.

Wrist paralysis... Has always been confirmed by the eyes.

Very, very painful.

... ah, I'm still alive.

The stabbed wound began to hurt.

The only injury that should be cured is the sudden recurrence of pain like this.

In the distant past, my mother told me that once the injury was cured, there would be no more pain. But that's a lie. My wound stabbed by a knife. There is still pain after recovery.

But mother, I love the pain. Because I don't feel alive. Apart from that, there is nothing else that can make me know the fact that I am alive.

Because only this residual pain is not an illusion.

"Tengnai made it clear that for her suffering from painless disease, pain is the real feeling of being alive. She would rather be insulted than feel pain. What is painless? This is a hereditary sensory autonomic disorder. Of course, Asahi is not hereditary. However, the result is the same. There are two kinds of feelings. The feeling of touch, pain and temperature can be experienced. The deep feeling of reporting to oneself such as * *'s action and sense of position. Generally speaking, in the case of sensory paralysis, the two occur at the same time

"Some people think that even if they don't feel, the body exists. Because the body is moving, they think that they are no different from us except that they don't feel. However, this is wrong. The so-called no feeling, in fact, is nothing to get. Even if you touch it, you don't feel it. Only through the visual to confirm that they touch the reality. It's like reading. What's the difference between those fictional stories? ""Even when walking, it's just the body moving. You can't feel the reaction on the ground, you can only recognize that your feet are moving. No, even this kind of knowledge is just a kind of thin knowledge that can only be believed after visual confirmation. "

"No feeling. It means no body. It's like a ghost. For them, all reality is nothing more than recognition. What's the difference between touching and not touching! "

"In this way, it's really a kind of helpless disease. It's obvious that you have a dream, but you don't feel like a ghost. Just imagine this feeling, you can't help but feel pity for tengnai. She has been so unfortunate, but also suffered such treatment. So much so that I feel the same as Heitong, and I don't feel much about the people she killed. "

"Looking back at the beginning of" residual pain ", it's raining on the street. Tengnai squats on the corner and covers his stomach. When Heitong saw her running over, he asked, "do you have a stomachache?" She almost subconsciously replied, "no..." and turned her head away. He asked, "is the stomach still sore?"

"Again, she subconsciously replied," no... "later, she slowly said," well, it's very, very painful. " Then, almost tentatively, he asked in a low voice, "I'm going to cry because of the pain. Can I cry?". After getting the affirmative answer, she was pardoned, then she bowed her head and almost cried with joy. "

"It's just like a child's curiosity and excitement when he just comes into contact with something new. She was excited and trembling for the new feeling, but she was at a loss because of the strangeness of the feeling. Through the common sense of more than ten years of life, she felt that she should cry at this time. So she asked, "can I cry?"

"I think, before that, how long has Asahi not cried at all?"

"Because I don't feel pain physically, and because I want to cover up the fact that I don't feel pain, I always keep quiet in the face of injury; Over time, her concept of injury is a little vague. She doesn't know when she can cry and who she can cry for. "

"So when it comes to hurt in the heart, Asahi's reaction is to be at a loss. She was hurt in her heart, but she didn't care and didn't know how to deal with it. Orange said in "residual pain" that "although it is cured, will it still hurt?" It implies some pain that is not apparent on the surface. In reality, it may be all kinds of mental injuries. "

"Just at this time, she was beaten on the back and the pain recovered. At the same time, she also restored her ability to twist things with magic eyes. Almost immediately, she became crazily addicted to pain. When she is in pain, she feels like a normal person. She can say to people: "it's painful, I'm painful." she is almost coquettish and keeps saying to people, and to the world, I can feel the pain, and I'm a normal person. In fact, she is waiting for her to say in her mind that the pain will come with some care from others. "

"I sympathize with a young girl named Asahi tengnai. She was born as an" unsuitable person ". She was constantly pushed out and bullied by the outside world. Finally, she regained the pain and was forced to become a" murderer ". She felt her true heart when she was facing death."

"... want to live, say more, think, and stay here. The true face of what you feel happy about. This fact hurt her more than anything else. The meaning of the sin you committed and the blood you shed is now finally understood. Its significance is so profound that it is impossible to apologize. "

"In fact, she really just wanted to say that. So far has been hidden by their own stubbornness, the true heart... Young own dream, that in the eyes of others is extremely small desire

It hurts.

Good pain, really very pain, I, pain is about to cry out... Can I cry?

Fool, if you feel pain, just say it.

"This story is not long, but I have read it for a long time. It's not that the content can't attract me to read it all at once, but that my inner feelings have been transferred to the limit several times, and I can't see it any more. I can't bear to see it any more. "

"As Mr. Huang shaotian said, although these are only the common passages in the novel theme, the great devil wrote a kind of flesh and blood pain with his own hands, oppressing the hearts of the audience and readers."

"When the body is healed, there will be no more pain, but the heart can't be healed, so the pain will remain."

"I do feel this personal grief."

Although it is only the protagonist in "residual pain", the role creation of Asahi is very successful. Especially under the in-depth training of he Chen, Ma Meizi has made great progress. Asahi Fuji's monologue in her heart, like the echo in the valley, deeply affects every audience who hears it and makes her more attractive.In residual pain, although she is a villain, she is a villain who makes the audience sympathize and accept.

See Liangyi hand up and down, I don't know how many people sigh with regret.

When I heard that Liangyi style didn't kill shallowly, but saved her, I didn't know that some people were relieved（ Not finished, to be continued

ps Happy Dragon Boat Festival!