Chapter 94：Happy Happy

After Mahendra leave, Aditi sees that children also taking nap, they are really tired at night they wait for her and in morning and afternoon they play a lot, Virat also look tired he tells her that Avi is angry and he is going to meet Sharmila but he tells him not mention anything unless anybody asks, after listening to this Aditi tells Virat to take rest after that Aditi start thinking about what happened in previous days, she realized that she is overreacting, she is again controlled by her past, she is harming herself again, she is on the way of her past, like overreacting overeating, she remembers a quote in which they say it is not what happens with you but it is how you react, she is reacting in a very bad way, she decided that she needed to overcome from this she takes her notebook and starts writing her feelings, she feels sad, unhappy, jealous sometimes lonely, angry, sometimes guilty. After that, she realizes that lots of guilt come from her past life but now she needed to move on.

She once read about shower meditation, what she remembers is while urinating or taking shower to think that you are eliminating your bad feelings like anger, guilt, sadness, etc. The first step is while removing clothes think like you are removing the mask you wear while talking with people, because lots of the time when we are interacting with people we tend to fake our personality, like sometimes we are a boastful person, sometimes pitiful person, sometimes we act as an intelligent person and sometimes act like a stupid person, only we know our oneself after that visualize washing away your stress, anxiety and other bad feelings, concentrate on the feel of the water on your skin. Water is one of the main power which keep us alive, without water there is no life, our body also contains 60% of water, because of this on Poornima(full moon) and on Amavasya (New moon) our body reacts differently because just like seawater our body water also get affected by the moon, Lunatic people or people who are fighting with mental issues tends to overreact on these two days. so Envision the power of the water washing away your negative thoughts and let it all go to drain, Feel lightness in your body, Enjoy the clarity of your mind, Your soul is free of all that doesn't sever your highest good, And after remembering this she decided to take a bath. After trying to visualize she actually feel pretty good, what more she realized that if she said sorry to her mother, her mau, Virat and chinu she might feel great, and yup she needed to say sorry to Mahendra too, because of her mood swings he suffers too. After taking shower she wears comfortable clothes, and send a message to Mahedrna " I don't need apologies from Sharmila, and if it is troublesome then it will be okay if you transfer Mihika on another department, but don't make her your secretary because I feel too jealous, my bf is too handsome that I really get worried that someone will snatch you from me, that's why I overreact, but who tell my bf to become so awesome, sorry for this, and remember I love you TC"

After that, she feels really light, after making tea she sees that chinu is awake she sit near to him and ask "baby do you want tea?"

normally she doesn't let them sleep more than 20 minutes in the afternoon, but today is an expectation, and she even doesn't give them tea directly, but give the tea which is 10% tea and 90% Milk. Chinu said yes so she bring him tea, after that she said to him "chinu, muma wanted to say you sorry, baby I am bad mom ever, so can you please forgive mom" Aditi can't control her tears, her body also shaking, seeing her like this Chinu don't know what to do, he hugs her mom and say"don't cry muma you are the best mom, don't cry, I love you the most" chinu also feel like crying but he remembers that he needed to take care of his mom, but still he can't help but cry, other three children also wake up because of this, seeing her like this Mishty and Nikita also get scared seeing this Aditi wipe her tears and say sorry for waking them

"But why are you crying mau?" Mihir asks,

"I do some wrong things previously so and yup I also lied with you so please forgive me"

"what ?" Mihir asks,

"your Sharmila aunty don't hit me actually I hit her, sorry"

"she must do something bad," Mishty said,

"yup, my mom is the best" chinu said

"yup aunty don't cry," Divya said

"okay now I cried enough, tell me what you all wanted to eat"

"Whatever you make," Mihir said,

"hmmm, what about you Mishty?"

"I wanted to eat Bundi raita"

"no, no at night no curd, tell me something else"

"then Pakoda"

"Okay, what about you chinu?"

"ummmm Masale bhat"

"if possible then the subji you make with Puri"

"yah I remember, Kurma right?"

"yup"

"Okay, Mihir now you decide what we eat in the desert?"

"how about Rashgulaa or ras malai"

"you are pure Bengali ha," Aditi said while kissing Mihir, he gets shy after that, seeing this Mishy also kiss Aditi, Aditi give a kiss to every child, and then she gives them tea and tells them to study, and start preparing to make a feast she decided that she also make Varan Bhat because Maharashtrina people can't live without this, she wakes up Virat and tells him to buy some ingredients and ras malai, her phone vibrate and she sees Mahendra send her reply " I love you too, and yup my Adi is also best in the world, and you don't think about this matter, meet you at tomorrow morning at breakfast, if I get time I will call you at night, lots of love bye"

After seeing the message Aditi smile, from Virat she get to know that Mahednra is going to their main house, so she doesn't asks him anything, After that she started doing her work again, today after lots of day she also start recording her video, and she also got Virat to help her, so her she is in good mood, she make the dough, cut the vegies, make spies, at that time her mother and mau ma come, Aditi decided that after eating she will talk with them too and apologized, Deepti come to pick Divya but by smelling the aroma of the food, she decided that she will go after dinner, the dinner end happily, seeing Aditi happy Deepti knows that they must resolve the conflict, After some talking Deepti said goodbye with Divya and go to there home, Aditi send children to sleep, and go to talk with her mother, mau and Virat, when Aditi first said sorry they don't know why she is doing this but later Aditi tell them, that She tell them that before taking divorce she is thinking to take money form her mother and rescue her marriage also lots of the time she blame her mother for her marriage failure, she tell Virat that first she is opposite of homosexuality, after telling them her first lives thought in round way she said that she feel guilty and she is not a good sister and good daughter.

Naina tells her that no matter what she will love her and she is the best daughter even if she doesn't take divorce, and ask money, she told her that she is the sole reason of her living, her mau also said to her that it doesn't mind if she wants they can earn money or take a loan, Virat said that it doesn't matter, he thinks that Aditi will beat him after knowing this but her reaction is mild, after listening this Aditi's guilt vanished, she feel like some burden is gone from her heart. they talk for some time and then bid goodnight. after that Aditi go and sleep with children, she checks her phone but there is no message from Mahendra, she thinks he might busy in work so she sends him Goodnight message and drifted in dreamland.