Chapter 115：Women are too complicated.

"What will you do if children like me more?"Samira asked,

"you can try" Aditi replied with a smile,

"hmmm, as a mother should I asks you will you treat them badly if in future you have a child from Mahendra, or if your son and my son got in fight"

"first because of my abortion I am not that optimist about a second child, and taking care of these three children are more than enough for me, for they got in a fight, I think Mihir and chinu never fight, there are chances that they both fight with Mishty"

"hmm, what about Mahendra's money"

"My mother is earning lots of money in these days, and I believe she is going to successful, so I am not worried financially, I also made some investment, even though they are not going to earn as much as Mahendra they are more than enough for chinu"

"Hmm, you think ahead of time"

"Thank you"

"Do you think I am bad mom, You must think right, and you must teach my children bad things about me right, that's why you are so eager to let me meet them"

"ahhhhhhh, why are you so paranoid, I don't teach children anything about you, and how can you are bad mom, you are just indifferent. And I am eager because I wanted to marry Mahendra as early as possible, but at the same time I don't want children to feel that we are not thinking about them"

"hmmm, what you think about me?"

"hmmm, you are a good looking person, very talented and intelligent"

"Thank you, but as a person, don't you think I am too bad or too cold to leave my children, you not might trust me but I feel guilty too "

"actually yup, I think somewhat, but I also think that time you don't want children you are too younger and has you own priority still you have to give them birth so you are not bad at all, indeed cold, but you also face some difficulties which I don't know so I don't have the right to judge you, what more at the time when I got to know I am the second time pregnant I am happy not because of the child, but because I got the reason not to divorce Raman, and after some time when I stared to get harass, I really don't want that child, I don't want to suffer the pain again, I am not able to take responsibility for that and see my child leave me," Aditi said in a very sad tone, Samira don't know what to say but she also feel bad for her, she knows this woman also suffer, but she too suffers, and right now she is feeling comfortable with this woman, which she doesn't expect, this is due to Aditi's increased aura and also because Aditi has a very good attitude towards her.

"so I wanted to tell you that, no matter what decision we take, we needed to face the consequence of that, people can praise if good things happen and said bad things if you get a failure, so don't judge yourself from others point of view, and for the guilty feeling I think children own your apology, and Mahendra too because I think he doesn't do anything bad with you"

"yup, You know when I am a teenager I really look forward to meeting him, he is a very good person he always tells me to study hard, and even help me if I face obstacle"

"are you trying to make me jealous?"

"of course"

"ha, I also can tell you the incident in which he shows his love for me"

"no need, Arjun tell me that Mahendra is crying for you and even ignore his business for you, so it is enough evidence showing that he really loves you, which he never feel for me"

"Hmm," Aditi said in a very happy tone.

"you know what your face is the mirror of your feeling, thankfully, I don't have a feeling for them otherwise I might get hurt badly"

"you have felt but not that strong"

"Hmm, do you want to know more about me"

"yup, if you trust

"hmm, as you know I am illegitimate child of my father, my mother see my as a bargain cheap, she sometimes feel that if I am boy she might get more share, I also get treated badly in my childhood, once my stepmother take me to outing and leave me in very bad area, but fortunately I am more sharp, I remember my mom's phone number and also carry extra money secretly otherwise that day I might get in big problem, I really struggle and I really wanted to show everyone that I am strong, and I also want my revenge, I am grateful too Mahendra but I don't feel that much attracted towards him, yup he is a very good person, a great human, just like a caring father which I don't get, aunty is also good person, but that time I fall for Arjun, I really love that man once, but we both can't make it, I do mistake, he do mistake, and now I really don't know what to do, I feel guilty i feel like I will get my retribution, I hate my mother but can't leave her, because she is only person who is now in my side, but she fil my mind with shitty ideas, I really don't want to get back in contact with Mahendra, but she tell me to do this" Samira said in one breath, her eyes are getting red, after drinking some water she continued, "I believe in my capabilities, for me acting is my true love, to be honest I get attracted towards lot of men, but if man have lots of affair, it will be okay but if I do i am slut,but seriously I don't care. I can earn money and I don't need any man, but now as older I get, and due to my maybe bad attitude, or because of my past, I am not getting films also I spend a lot and my mother too spent a lot of money, so I needed money but to be honest I really don't want to cheat anyone, I don't know what I want there is guilt in my heart for my children, do you know that day when they go outside I see hate in there eyes after I got to know what they face I really have a nightmare, but I really not do that intentionally" Samira is now crying and Aditi don't know what to do. Aditi stand up and go towards Samira and hug her and said, "I know, I know" Samira hug her back, After some time Samira stop crying and said,

"Do you know Mahednra's grandma said, that I am slut who lure her grandson, and even give bad name to aunt, Sharmila said, that the child I give birth is must be like me a bad person, I really don't want to pull Mahendra into it, that day I got drugged, I know that I also do some bad things with my step sister and they counterattack, they wanted to ruin me thankfully Mahednra save me, I wanted to do abortion but I also has fear that it maybe hurt me what more I have no courage to kill the life in me, Arjun also said it is okay so I give birth, first I am hesitant to leave children but I also love my career and Arjun and Mahendra's family never accept me happily, I think children will also suffer because of me so it is best if I leave them, I am not a bad person, I don't wanted to see they are hating me, my step sister said, that when I die there will be no one who will cry for me, but tell me isn't they treat me badly first, there mother wanted to kill me, what wrong things i done, that's so called father sleep with my mother for his pleasure, and mother for money, is I tell them to give me birth, whatever I do is reaction of their action"

"you are not a bad person, and what your step sister said is not true, Arjun love you, not as deep but yup love you, I also ask about you to Mahendra and Nadini aunty and they never tell me anything bad about you, and there are lots of your fan who wanted you to happy"

"can you hug me again?" Samira asks,

"Yup," Aditi said and give her a big hug.

"I wish you be my mother in next life, my mother just think about money, what should I do"

"should I suggest you something"

"yes"

"I think you tell your mother in clear words. see I know she is your last relative but sometimes when someone is doing bad things you must tell them to stop and it is for their own good too"

"What about Arjun?"

"hmm, he is good in bed, and has money so I think I will try our relationship, hey why are you laughing"

"it just I feel sad for Arjun after listening to this"

"you don't know him, he must have 20 gf until now, and what more you don't know how stingy he is, what more he forgot everything my birthday, my films releases, still I dare to love him"

"hmm, I think you still love him"

"hmm, just this much very little" Samira show her the tiny symbol.

"my son act this way same"

"Tell me more about children"

"okay Mishty is exact look like you, but the most obedient and a very good girl, and Mihir is somewhat mischievous and try to act like a mature person, they don't fight usually, Mihir somewhat know about and love cars, and while eating show tantrum, like Bengali food, but yup eat whatever I made if I threaten him, like ice cream very much, for Mishty she eats whatever I cook, never demanding, like Marathi food"

"tell me about Rudra what you call him chinu right?"

"yup, he likes to follow Mihir, and also listen whatever Mishty said, but he likes to play a lot, and also lure Mihir to play with him, forgot things, he also eat everything, because of Mihir he also starts to like ice cream, he is also very mature, he never cry for anything, do you know my sister in law bought toys for her children and they show in front of chinu but he never asks for anything"

"Will I meet them, will they hate me?"

"I think they don't hate you"

"I wanted to meet chinu too"

"Okay, we will discuss the date later"

"okay" after that they talk about lots of things, for nearly two hours, Arjun and Mahendra who got boar after two hour stop listing with focus and do their work while listening, actually they never think that Samira will end up like this, a talkative person, what more they not know much about Samira, she never tell them. Ha woman is too complicated.