Chapter 76 Regression Manual 076zation

3rd job (2)

Being trusted by regretters is, of course, a happy thing.

But I don't like this kind of trust.

I don't know how much I would rate myself, but if I exaggerate a little, I am still a child in a time when I need warm attention and love from Hyunsung Kim.

Especially with respect to this direction of growth.

Of course, there was no need to ask what was the big deal about raising jobs and abilities, but this level of overestimation did not become a permanent adaptation.

‘Have a little faith, you son of a bitch. ’ Tra nsl at e d by Ｊp mtl.ｃ om

I've planted an image of myself doing well, but I don't like this situation.

Nonetheless, it was understandable for Kim Hyun-seong to make this decision.

‘This expedition will most likely end in failure. ’

It was because I had a little bit of a feeling that my existing party members had hunted safely in the psychological stability I gave them.

“I'm not going either. I don't want to go. ”

“ ……. ”

The problem was Jungyan. Tran s la ted by Ｊpm t l.ｃo ｍ

The more the expedition approaches, the more ridiculous it feels to say that you won't go with excuses.

On the first day, Kim Hyun-seong moved to carry out his stats and previous duties as the target.

In the few days that he was preparing for the expedition, he thought he would not have to leave the expedition if he transferred jobs or achieved abilities.

Of course, leaving the expedition had already been confirmed as long as Jeongyan had reached his target, but he would have thought about how to criticize it.

‘Of course.'

Legendary talents were also impossible to demonstrate prominent performance within a short period of time.

Of course, the ability to explode in a short period of time was astonishing, but it did not reach its target.

In the end, Jungyan used to be very unstable, and it felt very similar to the stage until the time patient admitted to death.

It was five stages: denial, anger, compromise, depression, acceptance.

It didn't take long for the first step to arrive.

He began to deny himself that he had to fall for a month.

It can't be true. It can't be true. It can be a joke.

You don't seem to imagine falling like that.

I looked at Park Deok who was packing hard as if he was looking at someone else, and acted like he didn't have a meeting at the time.

Translated by jp ｍtl .coｍ But as time passed and the expedition approached, the reality began to emerge.

The next step was anger.

‘ ……. ’

Suddenly, I hated Kim Hyun-seong for making an expedition schedule.

Luckily, it was a fortunate situation, but it didn't seem life-or-death.

It seems that he still has a consciousness of being a co-worker with the dead.

There was more time to scream alone in the room, and it was actually showing a very neurotic look.

I did not forget to send my anger to Kim Ye-ri, who could be called a medicinal agent, except for me.

I'm looking for my own reasons to leave this expedition.

I felt like I needed to solve this homework because I didn't have enough archer children to shoot bows, but I didn't yell or yell at Kim Ye-ri directly.

Jeongyan was innocent.

Instead, I used to pour out cute insults, like a fool or a fool, towards somewhere.

Park Deok-gu's office once approached Park Deok-gu to discuss Kim Ye-ri.

Given Jeongyan's personality, it was not a fit behavior at all.

When I entered the next step, there were a lot of words.

"Compromise"? T r ans lat e d b y jpｍ t l.coｍ

I began to offer various conditions as if I were possessed.

‘I can really work hard. Being here without going on an expedition can give you more abilities, and you can work harder. So, please. Ugh.'

Or Lara.

‘Then why don't we go together for a week? It'll work better. ’

Or Lara.

‘I think it's best if you leave too, but watch like Hyun-seong. ’

The same sound started pouring out.

I wonder if it's actually more effective to stay here because the goals and numbers were quite specific.

When I left the hunt and gave a statistical analysis of the changes in my ability to stay here, I had to wear my tongue, frankly.

Of course, I know that Kim Hyun-seong also has several conditions.

It is the same for Park, Deok-gu and Seon Hee-young.

It was a strange incitement to formally protest, but as a result, this kind of incitement was the trigger for Park Deok-gu's decision.

It was just a guess, but I also wondered if Park Deok-gu was also in a compromise phase.

He actually came to me once.

He looked back at Jeong Yan. Tra n s l a t ed b y Ｊp ｍ tl.ｃoｍ

In fact, the hardest thing was the next step, depression.

‘Depressed…. ’

I started to lose weight noticeably and stayed up all night with tears.

I often told her that I was aware of my condition and that I was not going to be able to go and felt like I was becoming a patient with severe depression.

So much for staring at the sky.

‘I hate it. Really….'

The cycle of muttering alone is shorter.

Not only Jungyan, but I've had a hard time together.

More time to soothe her and grow old.

Of course, referring to the reward, the fact that she had to stay away for more than a month was shocking enough to blow away all that happy time in one go.

Of course, Jungyan also enjoyed the situation that I comforted, but as a result, his depression seemed to increase.

It is to realize that the sweeter the time we spend together, the scarier the time away.

In the end, the fourth step was completed by pouring out tears during the skinship.

The biggest problem is that the last step, acceptance, is not done completely.

Since I had observed all the previous four stages with my own eyes, I thought that the last one would be acceptable, but unfortunately, Jeongyan did not become exhausted.

It would be right to call it restraint.

I denied the reality to the end and didn't even want to believe it until the day before I left.

I cried, but it couldn't have worked.

But it was also a party decision, and it was also a decision I made.

From Jeongyan's point of view, he must have followed.

Simply put, preparing for a month's separation in stages of denial, anger, compromise, depression and repression.

It was very hard to imagine how that wavelength would come if I said I hadn't seen it for more than a year or a lifetime.

Apart from meeting me and having strange tendencies, she is not accustomed to separation.

I thought that living alone for a long time after being abandoned by my family, including my older sisters, would help create that personality.

Anyway, apart from Jungyan looking like that, time continued to flow and the expedition date was still approaching.

Honestly, the expedition couldn't have been well prepared.

Jungyan was having a hard time protecting his mental health, and I don't understand it, but Park Duk-gu was also a little strange.

In the case of Sunhee Young, I felt confident thinking about what happened afterwards, but I was a little stressed because I had not been there for a while.

Honestly, Kim Ye-ri doesn't even know what she's thinking.

It was frankly very difficult to look at the expedition preparations of the party members other than myself.

Of course, I was not anxious because I was afraid I would be abandoned.

What the hell was that? ’

Because I thought.

Of course, there is something strange about Park Deok Gu, Jeong Yan and Seon Hee Young who is not familiar with the expedition.

I thought I wouldn't be ready because I was stuck with the kid, but I never thought I'd be ready for this.

As I said before, Kim Hyun-seong also lost his way when he let go of his hand in this process.

It wasn't too much to worry about.

“Are you sure you want to leave like that? ”

“Yes. You're right about nothing. We're very used to being told what to do. Ki-young must be feeling it, too. ”

“Yes... ”

“You'll realize something on the expedition. ”

“ ……. ”

“Having been on an expedition in a state of psychological comfort meant this. Of course, it will appear more prominent during the hunt... But Deoku and Hee-young must have high growth. Mr. White has nothing to say, but frankly, we can't all say that there is no problem. Of course, if Ki-young and I were together, there would be no accident, but assuming there were neither.... ”

Things like this will happen now.

I could understand what Hyunsung Kim was saying.

It's not just the hunting factor. It is clear that there is a problem with the Kim Hyun-seong Party's conduction system itself.

Kim Hyun-seong, the leader of the party, said that I was there, but there is no aftermath to our party.

Whether it's Sunheeyoung, Jeong Yan or Park Deok Gu, it's natural that the preparation process will be easier if one of them steps forward to find a direction for the expedition.

However, no one is looking for the right questions or answers.

This is how it's gonna go down.

This should be enough.

You must be feeling uneasy. To put it more simply, this expedition is a process of training and finding our next step in the group.

"Will it work?"

To be honest, it feels a little skeptical.

If you look the same now, you have to think that way.

Preparing for a month-long expedition seems to be running low on supplies and doesn't seem to have enough equipment or tools for individuals.

Extremely, for example, I feel like I'm preparing to travel with children.

All the arrows and bows Kim Ye-ri took.

Jeongyan couldn't concentrate on taking the items containing my memories if she didn't know the meaning of going far away.

‘This... ’

To put it bluntly, there is no veil like this.

If many guilds or groups that invested in our party see this now, they will struggle to recover their investment right away.

“Still... prepare the basics... ”

“I've got some really basic stuff. There are things prepared by Deok-gu or Hee-young. I'm equally anxious, but it's the right thing to do. There must be a difference between how they feel about their skin and how they don't feel about it. ”

“I see.”

“Then let's get going. ”

“Yes... ”

When I went out with Hyunsung Kim, the party members waiting for me and him came into view.

Although he had a large bag in his possession, he already knew that everything was useless.

Seeing Park Deok-gu, who thought he was fully prepared for the expedition, I couldn't help but sigh.

I talk to one another, one by one, in case you know how I feel.

“Don't worry too much, brother. Well, it won't take a month! ”

It is likely that it will take more than a month to overflow.

“Please take good care of her while I'm gone, Ki-young. I feel bad about not being able to volunteer... ”

I thought I might be in a position to volunteer in less than a month.

“Oppa... Oppa... ”

My heart won't frown even when I see Jungyan hugging me with tears in his eyes.

“Well, you should be careful in the meantime. That, and... ”

“Yeah. Don't worry, White. ”

Because I'm more worried about you.

Perhaps I'm worried that this side might meet someone else at a time when I'm not confident, but for now the pain of separation is greater.

I heard Hyunsung Kim's voice and pushed Jeong Yan slightly to leave, but I never thought I would fall.

It looks like it's holding on somehow.

After all, it was soft and falling, but it was not easy to see a face covered with tears and snot.

“I'll be back then. ”

“Don't worry. ”

‘Highway.’

This expedition is not a bus trip with Kim Hyun-hwa.

I was assured that there would be a more painful path for any monk than the path he had walked.

‘Maybe it's a good thing we didn't go together. ’

Half of it was true.