Min Jiangxi doesn't often dream, and in recent years, she seldom dreams about her childhood.

She dreamed that she was in the North during the Spring Festival when she was a child. Jiang Yuan carried her around her neck to watch the ice lantern. Min Yi took Jiang Yuan's arm and a piercing northeast wind came. Both of them took care of the little girl at the top of the mountain. For fear that she would be frozen, they wrapped layers of thick scarves around her rabbit ear hat, so that she was not killed by the northeast wind, He almost died of suffocation.

Min Jiangxi remembers that there were not so many varieties of sugar gourd in the north when he was a child. Hawthorn was the most. He ate one in his mouth, which changed from sweet to sour, and the syrup creaked.

She still remembers that the son next door to the cottage was Niuniu. Niuniu lied to her that it was sweet to lick the iron door with her tongue. She licked it, but she couldn't pull it out. It was Jiang Yuan who poured it out with a kettle. Her tongue fell off a layer of skin and spit on the snow. It was scarlet. It was very like the poisonous love flower in the hero of God carving.

Jiang Yuan is so angry that he has to go to the next door to settle accounts. Min Yi refuses. Two days later, the two families sit together and play mahjong. Jiang Yuan and min Yi win each other more than 300 yuan, 300 yuan at the beginning of 2000. Many of them go to min Jiangxi. They still remember the happy expressions of gratitude and hatred on Jiang Yuan's and min Yi's faces, And Jiang Yuan bought her a doll worth 80 yuan, which scared Min Jiang Xi to sleep with her eyes closed for a long time.

At that time, there was no such word as straight man aesthetic, min Jiangxi only felt that Jiang Yuan did not understand her heart very well.

There is a father who works as a policeman and a mother who keeps a small restaurant on the ground. Although she is busy, she can always accompany her. Min Jiangxi always feels very happy. One day, she is caught off guard by the news that Jiang Yuan has an accident.

At that time, min Jiangxi didn't quite understand the nature of police officers' running. She just heard that her father abandoned his wife and daughter and ran away.

A run is enough to make min Jiangxi erect all the things she can erect, such as hair, sweat, and even the barbs under her nails. Jiang can't run away, and the bad guys will run away. The police catch the bad guys, so she can't listen to others who are against her, whether they are intentional stimulation or unintentional comfort.

Minyi also doesn't believe Jiang Yuan. As the Bureau said, she colludes with local evil leaders to take bribes, speculate and help tyrant in private. Now that the east window incident happened, she has no choice but to run away. She runs around looking for someone to find a relationship and wants to clean up for Jiang yuan. She thinks that Jiang Yuan is framed and runs away. If there is no bad talk at home, Jiang Yuan will come back naturally.

Min Jiangxi met Dong Hui more than once. Before, when Jiang Yuan was there, Dong Hui often called "yuange yuange" and recognized her as a daughter. He was one of the few good friends Jiang Yuan min Yi knew, and he was also a policeman.

In the days after Jiang Yuan left, min Yi often took min Jiangxi to find Dong Hui. First, she inquired about the course of the matter, and second, she discussed how to solve it.

Once min Jiangxi was going to school and didn't go with min Yi. When she came home in the evening, she saw min Yi sitting on the sofa with red eyes. She used to ask what was wrong. Min Yi held her in her arms and said the words "know people, know face, don't know heart". Later, min Jiangxi didn't hear Dong Hui's name in Min Yi's mouth. It was Dong Hui who came to school to pick her up and send her home, Minjiangxi see Minyi obviously not happy, tell him not to come back home, to drive people out, she just know they quarreled.

Min Jiangxi asked, "Mom, what happened to you and uncle Hui?"

Min Yi said: "he is not a good man, nor is he your father's friend. He will come to you later. No matter inside or outside the school, you should not go with him or talk to him."

At that time, min Jiangxi thought that Dong Hui was a good person, at least the only one who could help her find her father. She stubbornly asked min Yi the reason for her quarrel with him. Min Yi refused to talk about it and only asked her to stay away from Dong Hui.

Then... Maybe it's nearly half a year after the accident. Min Jiangxi has believed that Jiang Yuan won't come back in a short time. Every day when he goes to school as usual, it happens to be the class teacher's class that day. The math teacher is lecturing on the stage. Someone knocks on the door. The teacher stands at the door and talks with invisible people. Then he turns to look down and says, "Jiangxi, someone is looking."

Min Jiangxi gets up and walks out under the gaze of her classmates. She doesn't know who is coming for her, min Yi? Min Jie? Or grandma?

Out of the class door, min Jiangxi saw a strange young woman standing in the corridor, about the same age as min Yi, but a little fierce.

"Auntie, are you looking for me?"

The woman glared at her, "your mother's name is min Yi?"

Min Jiangxi nods, just to ask if she is min Yi's friend. Unexpectedly, a woman suddenly steps forward and raises her hand. This slap makes min Jiangxi turn. She can feel that her collar is grasped, and then comes the second slap on the other side of her face.

"Go home and tell your mother that her life is bad because her man has run away. If she wants to find another husband or remarry, no one can stop her. What's the point of colluding with a married man under the banner of finding your father? Dong Hui is still your father's good friend, and your mother really wants to do it. Aren't you afraid that your father is worried about running outside? "

The school corridor is more than 100 meters, and classes are all in class. The women's yelling and swearing first brought out the teachers of several classes nearby. When the teacher saw the woman holding min Jiangxi's collar, she was irritable and came forward to stop her.

The woman was opened, eyes canthus want to crack of shout scold: "I also have children! If your mother dares to destroy my family and make our mother and son have a hard time, I will make her daughter blush. Go back and ask your mother, what's wrong with being a third party, and can she be a broken shoe by virtue of her beauty? She can't live without a man. I can help her find out. Why should I get involved in other people's marriage? "

Min Jiangxi is ignorant, but she remembers all her life what a woman said and the expression on her face.

When the bell rings, all the students of the whole grade run out to watch the fun. Min Jiangxi is escorted away by the teacher. In front of her, there are students' different eyes, and behind her, there are women's curses.

"Your mother is a broken shoe!"

Min Jiangxi suddenly broke away from the teacher, turned around and yelled: "you're bullshit! If you scold my mother again, I'll kill you! "

The woman said in a loud voice: "your father is a fugitive, and your mother is a junior. What good thing can you be? Do you want to kill me? Why don't you come and move me? "

Min Jiangxi rushed forward and was held by the teacher beside her. She was so angry that she shivered all over and cried to kill her.

Min Jiangxi didn't lie. At that time, if she was given a knife, she would poke into a woman's body without hesitation, no matter where it was, as long as she could shut her mouth.

That year, she was six years old.

The so-called shadow of childhood is no more than this. It's a blow to destroy the sky and the earth, a humiliation to lose face, and a weakness to kill but not to kill. So when she bumps into min Jie's family violence later, she will rush into the kitchen without hesitation, pick up the knife and stab it in without hesitation.

What you want to do but can't do when you are six years old, you will not escape when you are a teenager.

For a long time, min Jiangxi had an obsession. If she stabbed Dong Hui's wife, would min Yi not commit suicide.