Chapter 1103

"What can I cry for? If I didn't go in and shoot at that time, my soldiers would have more casualties, and I had nothing to cry for guarding my comrades in arms. "

"You lied! You just feel guilty that you shot and killed balang, otherwise how could you have post-war psychological syndrome? Your hand shaking is caused by psychological reasons. You have no difficulty in wearing delicate pearls. This shows that there is no problem with the flexibility of your fingers and the nerves of your fingers are not damaged. But you can't fight with a toy gun. This is obviously only for the reaction after the gun. I guess the first thing you see in your mind when you hold the gun is balang's face before he died, isn't it? "

His expression tells Xiaoqian that she guesses right.

"You have repeatedly stressed that you can fulfill your mission. In fact, it is the symptom of emotional separation of post-war psychological syndrome. What you need most now is to vent your emotions, even if you are angry or sad. As long as you release them happily, it is good for you. You don't need to have the guilt of surviving. When you see balang die, In fact, what you feel guilty about is that you are still alive. Your sense of mission makes you believe that you are right, but your feelings can't hide the guilt of killing your friend by hand. Husband, you need to vent it. "

Xiaoqian one breath to say her judgment, as the top psychiatrist, how can she not see his abnormal.

"Can you cure it?" He asked.

Xiaoqian wants to say out loud that she can. She is the best doctor. She has saved so many people. It's unreasonable that she can't save her husband.

But she can't say it. Facing Yu's clear eyes, she can't lie.

Put aside the relationship between the two people, just say in the clear character, she has nothing to do.

He didn't show the same emotion as normal people from the accident to now. He oppressed his consciousness with his divine self-control. As Xiaoqian joked before, people like him would either be strong and invincible all their lives and get psychological problems. Even simple problems would inevitably kill him.

Xiaoqian's expression betrays her heart. Yu Mingming pulls the corner of her mouth again and rubs her hair.

"Silly girl, if you can't cure me, then I won't be ill. It doesn't matter. I'll be fine."

Xiaoqian looked at his too calm expression, a puzzle that plagued her from her rebirth finally had an answer.

This read head is like thunder general split in Xiaoqian's heart, shocked by her huge guilt and self blame.

She finally understood why she had seen Xiaoqiang with such a character in her previous life, but in this life he had been like a big boy for so long. So it is, all the mysteries have been solved.

A heartbreaking and unbearable answer is in the air.

There has never been a change in the world for no reason. Xiaoqian couldn't understand the reason for the contrast of character before and after Yu Mingming. She didn't understand it until she saw his depressed mood at this moment.

He must have experienced the same things in his previous life, which made his character change so much.

Yu Mingming was also a cheerful boy in his previous life. His face was cold and his heart was warm as it is now. But one day, he personally wiped out balang. This sense of guilt made him suffer from postwar trauma and never recover.

But he is a very special existence. His strong self-control ability makes him react differently from other people with this disease. He does not have the common post-war psychological syndrome, such as nightmares, irritability, over alertness, amnesia and so on, but he has another symptom of post-war psychological syndrome, and his personality has changed greatly.

The trauma remained in his heart. He never forgot the dead balang, and never gave up his punishment. On the one hand, he kept his mission in mind and forced himself to be loyal to his duty. On the other hand, he could not forget the remorse of killing balang himself. On the surface, he didn't care and stressed his mission again and again. However much he stressed, his heart hurt.

Since then, I haven't come out for many years.

The sunny Yu Guangming died after shooting with his own hand.

What remains is a deep man who looks strong but has been burdened with heavy burden in his heart.

In a broad sense, Yu Ming Ming is mature. His previous life is more like the behavior of a mature man. He is calm and quiet, but his heart is full of power. He doesn't express his feelings to anyone, even his beloved Xiaoqian.

She thought that the scene when he held her and cried when she died in her previous life was probably the only emotional fluctuation he had after killing balang.

Generally speaking, growth is accompanied by pain, but Yu Ming's growth is painful. Xiaoqian's first reaction to the news is that she faints in the dark.

She could not bear the pain, but he used the most understated reaction to cover up, this is the most terrible thing.

Xiaoqian fainted in this period of time, had a long dream.

In the past life deep in the bright and in this life cute in the bright alternating, she dreamed of the past life two people sitting to drink, she a cup of irrigation, he with enigmatic deep eyes looking at her a cup of drink, drink to finally be pushed down by her, originally she did not remember his eyes at that time, but in the dream, those forgotten past suddenly clear up.

As like as two peas be made one by one, the clear eyes of him are just the same as he said today that he would not shoot a gun. It was at last that she remembered what he said when he was half dead when he was in his ear.

He said, don't leave me.

At that time, compared with the fact that he had already loved her very much, he would say such a sentence, which was actually the deepest fear in his heart.

Yu Guangming, who already has post-war psychological syndrome, must subconsciously feel that everything he loves will eventually leave him, just like his favorite gun.

Xiaoqian's soul is floating in the air, looking at this scene, tears in the dream, she regretted.

She really regretted it.

She didn't understand him at all in her previous life. She complained that he loved the army better than her, and she hated his calmness. Hate his silence, hate he is finally looking at her with such a deep eye, so she had premarital phobia, she left him to run.

If she had found out his abnormality and saw the weakness behind his strength, would she have been a runaway bride with premarital phobia, or would she have given them a broken life?

Xiaoqian's dream is fragmented. She sees some things she neglected in her previous life. She also sees Xiaoqiang's warm company in this life. She sees the moment when she just came back, the second son gave her carnations as roses. She also sees that he took her fishing in the mud pit, which made her embarrassed.

She also saw the deep love behind the deep silence she hated in his previous life.

It turns out that love is always there. Although the way of expression is different, the only thing that remains unchanged is the feelings he gives her. He never reserves what he can give her. Even if she is afraid of becoming a runaway bride before marriage, he does not give up to look for her.

If she is not too stubborn, not he is too brave, two people will come to such an irreparable sad situation?