141 It still hurts

Love, I am about to tell you something that might make you mad." Troy said. "But I hope you will have an open mind and hear me out till the end."Troy was making a sad face towards me. I know he never wants to keep secrets from me and I can see that what he is about to tell me is something really serious for him to tell me those words."Then I will listen." I said. "What ever it is I am your wife. It is my duty to be with you in thick or thin."What I have said was what I really feel. When I married him, I have made a promise to myself to accept Troy and all of him, good or bad.I brace myself on what's to come.Troy looked at me with sad eyes and sighed."My love I also just knew about this not long ago." Troy started. "The time Angeline cornered me in the parking lot she told me that we had a child. That she was pregnant the time she left me."I was frozen in place with shock. Troy has told me his past with Angeline and he had been honest to me from the start. But this is something a lot bigger than I thought I could handle."Is that true?" That was the first thing I asked.This scenario is not new to me. I remember Victoria's schemes and knowing that Julia wasn't my fathers at all."I'm not yet sure love. I am still investigating this. But what I know for now is she was really pregnant that time." Troy said with a sad face.I let this information sink in."Then how is the child? Is it boy or a girl. How old is he or she?" This questions popped up in my mind. Thinking of Troy father a child other than the ones I am carrying right now is starting to feel unreal."I do not yet know." Troy explained. "Even Angeline doesn't know.""But how is that even possible?" I asked."My father was the one who separated us, even though he knows Angeline was pregnant with my child." Troy said. "Angeline said, he took the baby away before she even held it in her hands."I was shocked. The pain of a mother not even able to hold her baby in her arms is unbearable. I can't even think of my babies taken away from me."Angeline asked me to help her find the child." Troy said humbly.I was taking everything in, about the child, about Troy being a father to someone not my own, thinking that Angeline had something that is still connected to Troy.My heart clenched in pain. Tears are forming in my eyes."Love, I'm so sorry." Troy embraced me. "It pains me to see you cry."After hearing Troy's words the tears just flowed down non stop. I was now sobbing in Troy's arms."Hush now, my love." Troy was comforting me but his actions just let me cry even more."Troy, I'm sorry." I said while sobbing. "I know I said I will understand. Really I do understand you. It happened in the past and I have no power to change it. But it still hurts.""I know my love. I don't want to hurt you." Troy caressed me. "I'm so sorry. But please remember, you are the one I love. I love you so much.""Oh Troy, I also love you." I said between my cries.I was sobbing in his arms until I fell asleep.