Chapter 274 - He was rendered speechless.

For Shreya… everything that was so familiar felt so fascinating at the moment… more so, she was fascinated with the fact that they were all so familiar to her… and that it still felt so natural to be with him.

His touch… his endearment… his food… his warm eyes on her…

They were things so familiar but had been something she had yearned with every last cell of her being in the past few months. And having them all over again felt out of the world…

"Did I ever tell you… I love it when you call me that?" Shreya whispered still touching his lips…

Charan just sighed and started talking gravely, "Don't do this to yourself Shreya…"

For the past months, even though they never met, Charan had kept himself informed about Shreya from Zack and Adam… maybe not in detail but he knew she did not have any major problems. That she was as good as she could be given the circ.u.mstances.

As far as he knew, she really behaved as usual except for sometimes when she would zone out completely… so he always thought she was fine even without him. Even when it stung a little, he was at ease because of it.

But seeing her behavior in the past two days, Charan knew that Shreya had not been fine. She had just been pretending to be fine for sake of others… and that she had done a pretty good job of concealing her emotions perfectly.

"Do what?" Shreya asked confused.

"Don't be dependent on me to smile… don't define your own happiness with 'us'," Charan replied. Because he was someone who had gone through a similar situation… and it sucked balls. But he had Akira to pull him up… or else he would have drowned. Quite literally.

And looking at Shreya… she seems more gone than him. And if he had learned anything from Sam's death, it was that life can be unpredictable in the cruelest of ways… and he was scared for Shreya if life decides to take such a turn with them… he was afraid she will drown and nobody will be able to pull her up… that she wouldn't have the will to save herself.

Shreya just gave a self-deprecating smile as she answered, "It's too late for that now, Charan… I don't know how to be happy without you guys in it… I can work, I can survive… but I don't know how to smile without you and Akira in my life anymore… so, if you want me to live… you want me to smile… you just gonna have to make sure you are there in my life. Both of you…"

The sincerity in her eyes made him suffocated. A large part of him wanted to shake her and yell at her not to be like this… to not sell her life short, but seeing her self-deprecating smile, he couldn't bring himself to do it…

She looked like someone waiting to be sacrificed willingly… her eyes were as if she was presenting herself into his chopping boards waiting for him to make a decision whether to save her or butcher her.

He had things to hold him afloat… his parents… family… Especially Akira and the responsibilities that came with her… But Shreya was different… she was someone who considered herself an orphan. Without them, she did not have that sense of belonging with anyplace else. Charan came to know that when they separated… but seeing her admit it…

He was rendered speechless.

He just took her face in his hands and crashed his lips on hers… the kiss was harsh and desperate. But he did not really know what else to do with Shreya like this… he did not know how else to deal with her when she was looking at him with such begging desperate eyes.

"Then… I am going to make damn sure we are there with you. I promise…" Charan vowed at last pulling away. His voice was hoarse but very earnest.

He knew some promises are not to be made… but at that moment, he did not have the heart to leave her hanging. Maybe one day he would break this promise… but he knew he would do his damnedest to keep it.

And Shreya was counting on his to keep it too…

After all, the things she had realized about herself were not small…

She realized that she does not have any bottom line when it came to Charan and Akira…

She had no sense of self or self-preservation… nor did she have any pride, ego, or arrogance…. But more than anything, she did not have a moral compass when it came to them.

She knew she wielded a lot of power on her hands… the kinda power that can make or break a world. The kinda power that came with a lot of responsibilities and restrain.

Shreya always thought so far that she had it in her to take up such a responsibility… she never doubted it… until yesterday.

The things she wanted to do… the things she could have done were not simple. And if Charan and Akira hadn't come to her when they did… she was not really sure she could have really restrained herself from doing something crazy or insane… things she wouldn't be able to undo. Things that could have destroyed everything she, her dad, and everybody around her stood for…

She could have done a lot of damage to a lot of people… and if the end result was not in her favor, she would have probably destroyed herself along with the whole world.

After all, there is always only a thin line between being a God and being a Devil.

Shreya crawled over and hung on to his neck as she mumbled, "You better keep it… or else I don't know what I would end up doing, Charan."Find authorized novels in , faster updates, better experience, Please click <a href="#._51579198661254393">#._51579198661254393</a> for visiting.

Charan hugged her tighter and confirmed once again, "I promise…" It was both for his own sake and hers. He then kissed her on the side of her face still holding her in his arms.