6 The Year I turned 16

November of the year I turned 15, was when I started seeing the signs clearly.

We had sex the one night and he smelt like something I recognized, it bothered me that smell because it was so familiar.

A week later at school, I ran into Bitch nee-san and her friends, I greeted her and she just looked back at me, the day after she and her 4 friends blocked me off during lunchtime at school and she said to me.

"It's time that you get the fuck out of Yoshino's life because he's mine now."

I looked at her confused, I didn't know what to think and I did not expect that she literally caught me off guard.

After she said that she left and the wind blew from the direction she left in and I smelt it, that smell that Yoshino had on him, that smell that was so familiar to me.

Came from her.

I didn't understand why he smelt like her and this bothered me for a while.

He stopped coming home.

He stopped paying attention to me.

He stopped caring about me.

He no longer came to watch me play tennis.

So in March the next year, I had a tennis match that ended at 5 pm.

2 weeks before I told him, I told Yoshino, that he needed to come fetch me and I kept reminding him, he said yes, he continued to say he wouldn't forget and that morning I reminded him again, and he said: "Yes Ty-chan, I won't forget to fetch you."

Ty-chan was what they called me, because of my English name Titania.

Anyways, when we came back from the match and he wasn't there.

An hour passed, he never came.

Two hours, three hours and still no one came for me.

It was cold that night, I was scared and naive to believe that he would come.

No one else was at school and the house was very far away, I remembered that his mother lived nearby and I started walking.

It was around midnight that I arrived at her place, and when she opened the door I fainted.

That night it was icy cold, I barely had any clothes on and I had to walk with 2 heavy school bags.

(Sigh)

Mama Mei phoned her ex-husband and he told her that Yoshino went out looking for me.

Later I found out that he was with Bitch nee-san the whole day doing, God knows what and forgot about me.

He arrived home at 11 pm and the housekeeper asked him where I was, apparently, he and his father started panicking and Yoshino went looking for me.

When he arrived at his mothers' house she yelled at him and told him he is very irresponsible, because what if something happened to me, then what would he do?

I woke up back at his fathers home and he was there, I woke up weak and stayed home.

He yelled at me and called me stupid, all I could do was nod my head.

The next day I felt worse and the housekeeper and I went to the clinic.

The doctor felt around my body for pains and when she applied pressure on my belly, it hurt; after a few tests and scans, she told us, "you're pregnant."

The look of disgust on her face made me feel ashamed, I never wanted this and now I'm being judged with a look I will never forget.

She continued speaking with the housekeeper and I never paid attention, the only thing running through my mind at that time was, "How is this possible? Now of all times."

We left the clinic and walked back home, this is what our housekeeper said:

Housekeeper: "Ty-chan, do you understand what that woman said?"

Me: "Mn, Yoshino and I are going to be parents."

Housekeeper: "Ty-chan…"

Me: "Yes?"

Housekeeper: "I know you are not as naive as you seem."

Me: "What do you mean?"

She looked at me and pulled me closer and said, "The young master no more prioritises you."

Me: "I know."

Housekeeper: "Do you know why?"

Me: "I think so."

Housekeeper: "What do you think the reason is?"

Me: "It's that girl."

Housekeeper: "You are correct, and you should tell the young master about the child inside you."

I looked at her and nodded my head.

This woman has been with us for many years, she was there when I arrived and she is still apart of my life after 18 more years and I'm grateful to have her in it.

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After that, we arrived home and I waited for Yoshino.

He never came home.

The following day.

He never came home.

The day after, I fell asleep early and when I woke up he was there.

I looked at his handsome face and caressed his cheek; as I did this a tear came out of my left eye and landed on his face.

He was near me but so far at the same time.

The month I found out I was pregnant, was the last I ever saw his manhood.

This continued on for another month and it started showing, my belly had a bump on it.

He stopped coming home.

I never saw him again till that day… the day I made my decision.