Chapter 12：Pathetically Helpless

I spent the weekend at mama Mei's house and felt relaxed, the pressure on my heart lifted and I slept well.

The following Monday I never went to school, the Tuesday I went and everyone looked at me.

In class, I was stared at and silently being mocked.

During lunch my base class teacher called me up and took me to the nurses' office, when I got there, her other friend was there and she was blunt and asked me: "Is it true what the other children are saying about you?"

I looked at her confused and asked: "What did they say?"

She looked at me and said: "That you're sleeping around and went for an abortion on Friday, that's why you didn't come to school yesterday."

I looked at her and then looked back at my teacher, I couldn't believe that these two adults would actually ask someone this.

I felt a sharp pain twist inside my spine and I looked at the woman who asked me this question and answered: "Yes, it's all true."

She looked at me in shock and my teacher's eyes widened.

It looked like they believed me.

I left the two of them and went to the toilet.

When I entered Bitch nee-san and her friends were there and they looked at me.

Erina: "I heard Yoshino hates you now."

Me: "Are you happy?"

Me: "Good."

I turned around and walked out, then ran to the nearest toilet because I needed to weeeeee.

(haha)

As I'm sitting on the toilet urinating, I hear someone enter, this person also needed to urinate.

We finished at the same time and exited the toilet at the same time.

We washed our hands at the same time and when we were done I looked at her.

Guess who it was?

If you guessed Mesaki, then you are correct.

She looked at me and smiled but sighed at the same time.

Me: "What's wrong?"

Misaki: "My boyfriend told me what happened to you."

Me: "Your boyfriend?"

Misaki: "Mn, I'm dating Akihito." (Yoshino's best friend)

Me: "Since when?"

Misaki: "It's been four months now."

Me: "You should watch out, one of Erina's friends like him."

Misaki: "Mn, I know. That's why I told him to not tell anyone we're dating."

Me: "That's good."

She looked at me and invited me to have lunch with her.

We went to a spot where no one was and she asked me questions.

Misaki: "Are you okay?"

Me: "I'm not sick."

Misaki: "(haha) I was talking about the rumours going around."

Me: "I don't care about them, I've cried enough."

Misaki: "I don't believe the rumours."

Me: "Why not?"

Misaki: "I know about you and Yoshino's relationship, if I were you, I wouldn't have gone through with it."

Me: "Does Akihito always talk about us?"

Misaki: "Mn, he said he wanted a girlfriend like you, that's why we're dating."

Me: "Like me?"

Misaki looked at me and smiled, Akihito was correct, the two of us were alike, and after that day we became best friends and she became my child's godmother.

The week went by and mama Mei told the school, that I'll be moving back to South Korea after a month and had my transfer papers done.

My parents arrived in Japan after receiving a phone call from Yoshino's father about what happened.

They first arrived at mama Mei's house and she explained the whole situation to them, my mother was relieved and happy with my decision and she and mama Mei agreed that they would help raise my child but I didn't want this.

A week before I had to leave for South Korea, I went back to my old home to pack my stuff up.

When I got there, the housekeeper was alone and I asked to do it all by myself.

An hour later Yoshino arrived home along with his friends and Erina and her group.

For a second there, I felt a bit scared and stopped moving but then realised that I needed to pack a lot of things.

I carried on packing my clothes in the suitcases I brought with and under the bed, I found the bag that had the baby set in it.

I took it out and placed it on the bed.

I forgot all about this set of clothing I bought for my little one.

I picked up the socks and placed them in my left palm and sat on the bed.

I zoned out for I don't know how long and came back once I heard my name being called.

I looked up and Yoshino was standing in front of me.

My heart started to beat fast.

I looked at him then looked at the socks in my hand and quickly put everything away but was stopped.

Yoshino took the bag from me and threw everything back on to the bed neatly.

He turned around to close the door and walked back to the bed and sat down on the other side of the clothes.

He looked at me and said: "I'm sorry for laying my hands on you."

I slowly nodded.

He sighed and continued.

Yoshino: "After I calmed down a few weeks ago, Kae told me about what happened at the mall, I'm sorry I did not recognise you back then."

I looked away and stared at the wall as I listened to him.

Yoshino: "I found the bag of clothes and saw the date on the receipt, it's the same as the day we were at the mall."

He picked up the baby crawler and held it in his hands.

Yoshino: "That day, you went shopping for our child and I was with someone else."

It went quiet and I looked over at him.

His face was covered with his hands while holding the crawler.

He took his hands away and rested it on his closed left fist and stared at the crawler.

It looked like he was about to cry, but he kept it in.

Yoshino: "When I found these clothes, my heart broke and I felt pathetic, I couldn't protect my child or the girl I loved."

He paused.

Yoshino: "I was genuinely happy when Erina said she was pregnant but afterwards I realised that I never wanted a future with her. In my life after I met you, I could only imagine you as the mother of my children not anyone else. I felt pathetic after I realised this. I'm sorry, I'm truly sorry to the both of you."

He placed the crawler down and stood up, he walked over to me and laid himself on top of me while hugging me.

We laid there on the bed and he started crying.

Yoshino: "I don't know what to do, I feel so helpless and empty, I'm not attached to her or the child inside her but when it comes to you and our child that will never be born, I get so angry and sad at the same time. I can't sleep anymore and its eating at me. Min Hee, I don't want to be with her, I want you."

He stopped speaking and continued to cry.

It went on for a while and Bitch nee-san got restless and came looking for him.

She opened the door and started screaming.

The others came running and saw Yoshino laying on me.

She started screaming more and yelling for me to get off Yoshino, even though I was underneath him.

I turned my head to look at Yoshino that stopped crying and he was looking back at me with red eyes.