Chapter 382 - He's You

"I know," Gavriel told her with a knowing look in his eyes and Evie's own widened even more. He knew about it? How?! She had her fists in a tight grip at the edge of the tub as she looked at him in shock. 

"You know…? I mean… you remember your… past self's memories?" she questioned, stammering. Her eyes gleaming with curiosity and utter disbelief. She had always wondered about it. Especially after Gavrael…

Evie was certain that at that moment, Gavrael was already gone. And that was why she had cried and mourned for him so much. In fact, even now, she still felt a hollow kind of achiness that remained in her heart that did not seem to be going away even though Gavriel was finally back here with her. She somehow had that weird feeling as though a part of him – that was Gavrael – had disappeared for good, never to come back again. It was hard for her to just accept it as though the two of them had just simply swapped places. 

Of course, it was a huge relief for her that Gavriel was finally back here with her or else… she would not know how she was to continue going on right now. The loss of her father, though it was something that she had prepared to expect ever since knowing he had been possessed by Thundrann, still came as a huge blow to her when she saw his lifeless body with her own two eyes. Since she had woken up, Gavriel distracted her from the pain of losing her father and Gavrael. His warmth gave her the strength to continue living without losing her mind. Just by him being there gave her an incredible strength to keep her head up and cope with the agony that death brought. 

She had told herself not to feel too sad anymore about Gavrael. Because Gavriel was now here with her. They were one and the same person, just with different memories and eye colour, slightly differing personalities, and temperaments. But during her quiet moments alone, she realised that her heart just kept on aching in a way that was similar to how she felt when thinking on how she had lost her father. 

And now that Gavriel had said he knew about her being pregnant, Evie was shocked and her heart swell with hope. Could it be that her husband now had regained and remembered his memories as Gavrael too? Did this mean that Gavrael did not actually disappeared but just simply merged with him? 

"I remember a few things I heard during the war." Gavriel answered and Evie blinked.

"A few things…" 

"Yes, during the last moments in the fight with Galleous, I was able to hear Gavrael's thoughts quite clearly. And that's how I found about this matter." Gavriel explained to Evie.

The hope that had shone so bright in her eyes slowly faded and the joy that was displayed on her face had dimmed significantly. She had tried her best to maintain her smile to hide her disappointment, but Gavriel saw it. Even if he did not see it, he could feel the difference in the aura that she exuded. It was that obvious. He fell utterly silent for a while but after a few moments of internal deliberation, he reached out and caressed her cheek lightly with his thumb. A wry smile plastered itself on his lips.

"You miss him… that other idiot self of mine," he said as a matter of fact and Evie could not speak for a few seconds. Gavriel saw how she did not deny nor assent with his statement and knew that was as good as her agreeing to what he had said. Though he knew better, he could not help but feel a slight pinch in his heart.

"I…" Evie was at a loss for words as she opened and closed her mouth a few times, not knowing how to respond. Her eyes that had looked up into his were conflicted and helpless at the same time.

"Of course, you do, love…" he smiled at her ever so gently and all of a sudden, he kissed her, very tenderly on her lips that it felt as though a butterfly's wings had fluttered on it. He then pulled away and stared at her. 

"He's you…" Evie replied weakly before trailing off and looked somehow apologetically at him. Gavriel smiled gently at her with an understanding look on his face, tucking the strands of her hair behind her ears in a doting manner. 

"I know, love." He pulled her face and planted another kiss on her forehead. 

They were quiet for a moment as Evie shut her eyes as she leaned against his large palm that was placed on the side of her head, still holding her. 

"Did he truly disappear now?" she asked in soft weak voice after a few moments. "He… he said goodbye. He had told me that he's not going to exist anymore." 

"I… I am not sure wife." His answer sounded genuine, but Evie did not catch the sudden gleam that flashed in his eyes as he said that. For a moment, there was something suspicious that had surfaced across those grey orbs. But it was only for a split second, too fast for Evie to notice as she was still caught up in her own distressed emotions. It had disappeared even quicker than it appeared, as if it never happened in the first place when he looked back at her. "I do not feel the presence of his dark magic anymore. But I am not certain if he's truly gone, or he has just hidden himself or got trapped somewhere within me again." 

The look in Evie's eyes became much better after hearing Gavriel's words. 

"I will try to observe in the next few days. I believe I will find the answer in time." he continued in a reassuring manner, "I'll let you know if I find something. For now, I'd like you to not think too much and not hurt so much. I'm afraid it will be bad for our angel who is growing inside of you." 

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