Chapter 2317

A feeling of being hollowed out surged into her heart, and when she twisted her eyebrows, Feng Jingyi began to feel uncomfortable again. Instinctively, she wanted to knock her head to think hard, but Huo Qingyang stopped her as soon as she was about to touch her hand:

"do you want to knock yourself silly? What's the bad habit? "

Holding her hand tightly, Huo Qingyang held her directly in front of her: "dreams are like this. It's normal not to think of it. Dreams are not reality. What do you really do?"

Comforting her, Huo Qingyang's heart was covered with a layer of haze. He looked down at the soft and clever woman in his arms. He felt warm and relaxed unconsciously for a while, and his vision softened down:

"it seems that I haven't heard you talk about my own affairs since I've known you for so long. Your family is harmonious, and your parents and brother love you very much Yiting and Yimo are taking care of you. You must be very happy, aren't you

"Er ~"

leaning in front of him, surrounded by a strong sense of security, Feng Jingyi's fluctuating mood gradually calmed down:

"our family does not have the idea of son preference, I am a little girl, and many times they will spoil me and let me! Sometimes, I feel very happy, sometimes, I feel very lonely, very sad! "

"Alone?" Still sad?

Shocked by her words, Huo Qingyang's eyes are full of disbelief.

"Well, sometimes it's a kind of happiness to feel that everything has been arranged and there's no need to worry about it; sometimes it's helpless to feel that life has been planned by others! My elder brother and my cousin have shouldered the responsibility since they were born. When they were young, they were very busy and didn't like to play with me. They always thought I was a little tail and kept chasing me out! I remember one time I was disobedient and noisy, and I had to follow them. My brother was injured by accident. As a result, they had a very important group competition that day. My cousin was so angry that he yelled at me and made me cry. I didn't even dare to eat that day, leaving a shadow. From then on, I didn't dare to disobey him. Now I still have instinctive fear when I see him! Some people bullied me. My brother and cousin must stand up and never be soft hearted. My parents also said that it is their duty and responsibility to protect me. They also always said that I should listen to my brother and respect them. I should not be arrogant and arrogant. I should learn from Kong Rong to let Li and brothers and sisters be respectful, instead of acting willfully when I was young! The elder brother should love the younger sister, and the younger sister must be grateful - "

Feng's family education has always been in her heart: family is harmonious, mother is kind and son is filial, family is the most important!

So from childhood to adulthood, she has also developed the habit of being wronged by herself in dealing with everything. Family harmony is the most important thing. Every member of their family should have such awareness.

"So, when I was a child, I often felt lonely, especially after my cousin came to my home My aunt left her alone after she died. She was lonely and helpless. So my parents took special care of her and treated her very well. She was beautiful and obedient. My parents and brothers all liked her. They thought that I would be very happy when she arrived at home. As a result, she robbed my favorite things every time, such as clothes, toys, tables, delicious food and fun I also follow my brother and let him take her out to play! I dare not bother my cousin. My brother is occupied by my cousin again. Although they don't ignore me, I'm not happy for a long time. But one day, I suddenly realized that no matter how she robbed me, she's also surnamed Ding. No matter how much my parents and brother love her, she won't leave me. She can't rob me at all. As for those belongings, there are always new and more beautiful ones What I like is in the back, and I think it's my own charity. The more I grow up, the less I care! "

"Although the life of a rich family has no worries about food and clothing, there is no limit to loneliness. Now think about it, I think at that time I was very lonely and pitiful! But compared with many people who worry about here and there, it seems that my journey is smooth and smooth. I live in a big house and eat delicious food. I never worry about lack of money. I can get the luxury that others dream of. I don't have to worry about studying abroad and studying. I can try any interest. It's luxury for others to lick the screen and pursue stars. But I can take a group photo and meet at will until the end I'm not interested at all. I don't even care about dreaming. It seems that I'm too happy to think so! "

After a pause, Feng Jingyi unconsciously sighed a long sigh:

"maybe it's too happy and smooth! Many people pursue and try to climb to the top all their lives, but I often reach it without any effort. This kind of feeling is like I hold baskets of fruits. It looks like a big harvest, but I don't know the real taste. How many people can understand this empty feeling? I'm afraid I'll be scolded and affected! Is it sad that you can't even find a person to live? "

"It's said that we are born to be useful, and cattle can plow the land. If people only have enough food and clothing to live, how can this long life be a waste? What's the difference with those low-level creatures with short life? Therefore, I have always wanted to do one thing, live up to this life, at least prove that I have come to this world, whether it's ups and downs or thorns and bumps, there must be one thing because of me, not because of the origin and identity of Feng Jingyi! "What's the difference between living without pursuing something and walking dead? She has always wanted to find this sense of identity in the world, and she has been working hard, but her efforts have either been submerged in the aura of Fengjia or completely obliterated.

Therefore, she has always been full of fantasy about the completely subversive gray and black zone with her own world. Her family education does not allow her to degenerate, nor does she allow herself to let her family down. Therefore, a work with such a theme has become her obsession that she can have the best of both worlds. However, she did not expect that this hard way is not as smooth as she imagined.

She has also raised a lot of trumpets and painted many similar works, but they are not satisfactory. The works come from life and need soul. How can she move the audience if she can't even move her empty imagination? She is an ordinary person, even if there is no lack of anything, but also has her own dream and pursuit, and is eager to be recognized after hard work and enjoy the earned glory.

Therefore, what she wants is not only a work, but a successful work that can arouse resonance and achieve each other!

"Everything has two sides. Sometimes I feel very happy and good, but sometimes I feel it's not enough! In fact, looking back now, life is like the saying in a besieged city. People inside want to come out and people outside want to go in, but it's good to look here and there, and they're not satisfied! "

And these, do not personally experience, about this life can not wake up. Now, after this experience, she is not as persistent as before, but more and more feel that she is too happy!

For the first time, she was homesick and her heart was aching!

However, it is also the first time that she can't go home at will!

To use a sentence to describe her mood at this time, it must be sad, but even so, it is still mixed with happiness, she knows that she does not go home is to protect the people she cares about, so, pain is also happy, sad is also happy!

This is her decision and her choice!

She doesn't regret it!

Thinking, Feng Jingyi was silent.

All the time, Huo Qingyang feels that she is a willful and reckless young lady. She leans against a big tree to enjoy the cool, but she only makes trouble for others and delays them. Suddenly, Huo Qingyang feels that she seems to be prejudiced against her. She is sensitive, kind, sensible and hardworking. She is just a little girl in her early twenties. He never understands her, but he has high requirements for her. He is in her year I can't miss her more than when I was at home.

Think of where, raise hand, Huo Qingyang gently stroked her hair: "in fact, you misunderstood them!"

"Eh?"

In response, Huo Qingyang gave her a smile:

"I mean your family! In fact, sometimes the more close relatives, the less likely they will care about these details, because home is always a haven. No matter how far we go or how many detours we take, only someone in that place will always light a light and leave a door for us, because it is a whole of constant cutting, just like our own teeth occasionally bite our tongue, no matter how painful it is There will be no revenge! Jingyi, adults and children have different standpoints, and boys and girls have different positions and ideas. Maybe you think that your parents' preference for your disliked cousin is depriving you of their love. But when you think about it, why don't they treat you as their own so casually? "

As if to fill something, he touched her head, and Huo Qingyang's eyes turned and some other emotions surged up:

"they may not be so perfect, but they certainly love you more than your cousin! I have only one sister. Although I was not close to my parents when I was a child, I like Rino very much. As you said, in my heart, it is my brother's duty to protect her. Even if I rebel, I will not change this! When I was a child, I seldom went home. When I came home, Rino, like you, always liked to stick behind me and follow me. Even if I loved her and spoiled her, I didn't like to take her with me. I often disliked her little tail and chased her out of the door

Four eyes opposite, Feng Jingyi Zheng Zheng: all brothers and sisters, are the same?

The corners of her lips rose a radian again, and Huo Qingyang nodded her nose:

"Yiting and Yimo don't take you with them. It's not that they don't like you, except that boys and girls really play differently. What's more important is that they want to protect you. Girls are born delicate, and little girls are even more afraid of bumping into each other! I don't know about your cousin. I won't comment on it for the moment, but your family must care about and love you very much. You are so kind, beautiful and thoughtful. How can they prefer a foreigner? On the trivial matters that are harmless, their love may not be so obvious. Maybe you are used to it and don't feel it. I believe that they must be on your side when they fall in love with big right and big wrong! "