Chapter 142 - 142. Only you can push yourself

She appeared near Isaa and sighed deeply. Actually, if that boy continues to grow bigger... She shook her head and gave up. It's their choice. It is Isaa's choice. 

She looked around and smiled lightly. It is time to finally cook something. The group of people they are traveling with can't handle the food infused with elements, so she always gave the prepared food for commoners. But Cian is different. As one of the cultivators, he could eat the food they had. 

She looked at the small garden in the sister's space and sighed. It is better if she keeps this stuff. Even if it's too much she can keep it in her space cool room. There the food doesn't rot or go bad in any way. So she quickly entered her own space and smiled brightly.

Yes, her space could hold and feed already a few towns. She saw the plants and animal world and realized one thing. She is not very hungry. As a cultivator, you do not need real food, but then she needed to eat still as she still needed to grow. With pursed mouth, she thought about Cian and snorted. ''Giant.'' 

She knew that she wouldn't grow tall even in this world, but his hight is truly ridiculous. She saw plants growing and animals happily running around. Now, most of the animals had some kind of intelligence, so she started feeling disgusted with killing those. Now she had a choice. She didn't need to eat to survive. She didn't need to kill life form to be fed. She looked at chickens running around and remembered the taste of the meat, but stopped herself. 

Eating intelligent life forms felt like the murderer. She sighed and went into her garden. As long none of the plants became intelligent life forms... She scrutinized her tomato plant that turned into tree-like for but then shook her head. ''No activity in the cells that could make me assume that plants became intelligent creatures. So we can feed on these. But I really need a bigger assortment of plants in that case. Don't I?''

She had only a few common plants that could seeth her hunger and help her grow. Luckily she could make almond milk , but then remembered. Rice... Not only rice, soya as well. She truly needs to go back to her hometown. That trader really has lots of surprises in his hands. Luckily she told him before leaving to send new arrivals to the Lord. And to her father, she advised him to keep the new arrivals in space storage until she comes back. 

She stared at the plants and chose to make simple dishes. But then she saw those chicken and sneakily went to their layers, looking at their eggs, hoping to find few that were not fertilized. Then she could eat them without harming any new life. After searching through many nests she found enough eggs that were suitable for her consummation and she sighed in relief.

Lately, she started to feel difficulty in the case of her own animal's slaughter. She was never vegetarian but after remembering that some monks could reach a better understanding of life if they didn't consume meat, she made choice to try.  But she knew as well, some things can't change her feeding habits, so she shook her head helplessly and continued in preparation for the semi-vegetarian meal. 

Luckily the time in her space became slower than in the outside world. One hour lately became one day so not long after she entered the space she was already done with all food preparations. She sighed and took the prepared ingredients outside the space and thought about it. Even if she trusts that man and his people she still didn't want to show them her true powers.  So she motioned Cian to come closer to the carriage.

But unfortunately for Kendra, Cian was still in a daze and in deep thoughts about his future life, so he literally didn't see her motions or calls. He still stood there on the same spots, like a frozen statue and just blinked a few times. His eyes looked like it could see far, far away, but his mind actually traveled all the way back to the time he met Isaa and Kendra for the first time. 

He could only see a set of bright eyes staring at him and giving him the assurance he needed the most at that moment. Already at that time, he knew that she would be important person in his life in the future, but only now he realized how important. He snapped out his thoughts as he realized his predicament. Isaa is just a little child so thinking too much would be so wrong. Then huge smile appeared on his face. ''Even if we don't have a future together, I can always be there to protect her and be by her side. Who knows what the future brings us, but for now I can be her brother, friend or protector. Yes, that will be fine...''

While he murmured that he still stood there like a tree, not moving even an inch. Kendra heard his with her profound hearing and chuckled. But then she got serious as well. ''Cian... The future is open for you only if you want it to be. Only you can push yourself and do something about it, there is no way around, no shortcuts...'' 

Cian turned his head towards Kendra and heard her words. He nodded slightly and smiled. Yes, the future is only in your own hands. No one can help you advancing if you don't do it yourself...