Chapter 245 - 245. Rage within

''Is she even hearing?'' The men started walking towards her but then suddenly stopped, unable to move even one step further.

Kendra's eyes became sharp as she stared at them. ''Who are you and what you want from me? How do you even know my name?'' There was a clear aim on her back and she knew it.

''We belong to the Illo's people. We heard you are gathering people to find food so we followed you as we need food as well.'' One of the men looked at her calmly.

Kendra nodded. ''There is no problem with that. We came to gather food, that is truth. You can gather as much as you want as well. It's enough for everyone. But you can't get anywhere near me or my people. Find your own place to sleep. Please.''

He could see her eyes looking at his hair and he sighed. He knew why she had such an expression so he just nodded. ''Thank you for accepting it so easily. We will wait until your people gather enough food and chose from what is left.''

Seeing that he seems to be somewhat realistic she just nodded. ''Don't worry. We will indeed take a lot but it is impossible to take it all. Look at the field. It has so many giant vegetables, its nearly impossible to take it all.''

He just nodded and turned around. ''Let's go to the other side of the field. I saw similar grass meadow lek they are sleeping at. We can sleep as well.''

The men around him wanted to say more but he just turned his body and walked through the plants far away. As the plants where quite high soon she lost sight of them, but Jason and others came out bushes looking alarmed. ''Who are they?''

They could see a slight smile on her face and sigh in relief. But her words made them get even more alarmed as before. ''It's a group of Illos men.'' Looking at their faces she shook her head. ''It seems they are not here to argue with us. They followed us when they heard we are planning to gather food. They just want food, Jason. There is so much, we can't take it all anyway.''

They just sat down near her and with stiff expressions went silent. When others came back they found them strangely in defensive stance sitting around Kendra and looking at the surroundings in alarmed state. ''Is there a danger here?''

Jason jumped and was about to rush away when he suddenly stopped. He turned his head and looked at Kendra that stared at him. ''You are loosing your logical thinking. The moment you go there I will not forgive you for the feelings you harbor inside you. All that cultivating, the meditations, the love you got, it would be wasted in just one second of your anger. Not even logical anger, its anger that has nothing to do with humanity, with feelings, with anything I thought you. Its just unconditional rage. This is what makes us humans. We know when to stop. You should learn as I made many mistakes before. Learn from the sinner. Ler from someone like me.''

She stood and planted her hand on his back and she slowly patted him. ''Being angry is fine. It is one of the feelings we can't escape. But what did you plan to do when you go there? Argue? Attack? ...Kill?''

Jason paled. ''Kendra, why do I feel this way. Why... ?''

She went back and sit down while everyone listened to her. ''You are one of the cultivators that were born and learned only to do that, cultivate. You never had any contact with other people. You never learned the complexity of feelings. As you learn it step by step they hit you ten, hundred or even thousand times harder than a normal human. That feeling inside your heart, that rage, is not a bad thing. Come sit down, I will explain.''

She looked at everyone and saw that they brought back the firewood. ''Light fire so I can explain. Please.''

As the fire lit on everyone sat down and looked at her in silence. ''Look at fire, what do you think about her?''

Sirius smiled as he held his hands towards it. ''It's warm.''

She smiled and nodded. ''But if you held your hand directly in the fire, what would happen?''

Claro answered this time. ''You will get hurt. Why these all questions?''

She smiled and looked at the horizon. ''Any of you ever heard of volcanos?''

Everyone nodded. ''usually people curse the volcanos quite a bit. But what they do not know is that volcanos make new land. The problem is the surroundings. If they blow up where no living beings live, they are useful. But if they blow up in places where living beings live, volcanos bring devastation.''

Everyone listened to her not knowing what she was implying. She turned her eyes to Jason. ''You are like a volcano now. The rage inside is just frustration that gathered by unusual conditions that your mind is not familiar with. Your rage was like the last drop in a cracked pot. It made you wish to burst and destroy something, anything. Right?''

Jason nodded ins surprise. ''Yes.''

''I will give you a knife.'' She took one of her knives and gave it to him. Everyone looked ta her in wonder. ''With this knife I want you to go to the nearest tree and bring it down. You have to bring it down no matter what. Hit it, scratch it, cut it... But I want to see that tree down by first sunlight next to me. Here.''

When he saw a small but sturdy knife standing in his hand he walked towards the tree and started stabbing it, hitting it with his hands and feet. everyone looked at him in fear. Jason at that moment turned into primal human. The raging one, the one thirsty of something, but not knowing of what.

He hit the thick three but it stubbornly didn't budge from the spot. So he continued. Again and again...

Kendra turned her head towards them and smiled. ''Even the strongest mind shave weak moments. I had and you might have it one day as well. But instead turning your rage towards someone who is not faulted, why not doing something constrictive. Turn your anger into your power. Into ultimate power. Rage is good when you work and fight.''

She looked at Sirius and smiled. ''As long no one bothers him now, he will be fine. He must get over this. Or he won't be able to rise in power and become higher being. He can, but he has to be able to fight his inner self. The dark side in him, he must accept it. Not fight it. If he does that, then he will turn into a better person.''

She smiled and looked at the man whose eyes slowly became clear again. He is fast over it. How lucky...