Chapter 474 - Dang It

Just like that the atmosphere around them changed, sparks sizzled between them as the air around them thickened with the same old sexual tension that never seemed to leave them. 

Su Wan tried to get rid of Lin Yu's arms as she continued " I know you will find it weird because the women in your era are supposed to be shy and timid, but I am not like them. I can never be like them, I can't squash down what I feel and then happily smile after being cuddled or coaxed. No, it's not the same for me, I want to feel something when I can't...I want to be roughed up. Hard, fast and deep, in any case, you need to go"  Or she would channel her inner emotions at him, just like her mother had used her to channel her emotions and then she would drown herself in self-hate for doing the same thing to Lin Yu. He might try to make himself look like a cold-hearted, soul snatcher but Su Wan knew how kind and caring he was, he wrapped himself securely but that was all because he wanted to protect himself from feeling the same hurt he had felt back then when he was betrayed.

He wasn't vain or cruel, he wouldn't hurt anyone who was innocent and he had much more emotional depth than he let others see. He was a good man and a good .. husband.

And he was exciting her by that hungry expression on his face, her entire body was roaring to life by that cold and slightly psychopathic glimmer in his eyes .. she knew she triggered the wolf in him but right now wasn't the time " Don't"

Lin Yu raised his eyebrow while his lips curled in a satisfied grin " What d..do you mean?"

" Don't look at me like that" She retreated away from him.

" And how e…exactly I am l…looking at you?" Lin Yu took a step towards her but Su Wan shook her head and backed away from him even more. She knew that Lin Yu would try to give her what she wanted but she didn't want it ….no, she wanted it but at the same time she didn't want to become a woman like her mother. She was strong and she rarely depended on anyone else, she knew that she could lean against her husbands if she wanted to but this was different- she wouldn't use them as her outlet, they deserved more than this, especially Lin Yu and Lin Yan who have been nothing but patient with her.

" Leave Yu, Don't try to get close to me" but he didn't leave, he stayed where he was and his glittering dark eyes were locked at her with a promise of sexual satisfaction that she craved right now, Su Wan could feel her guards drop one by one as the need to get closer to Lin Yu became even more fiercer and hotter, that it frightened her. It was also beginning to overwhelm the anger that she was feeling in her heart. She sighed " I told you that you wouldn't be  able to get together with me if you don't start speaking coherently and fluently, you haven't so - leave or you will be breaking your promise"

" Oh that"  Lin Yu laughed as he rubbed the back of his neck and took a step closer to her " I was going to keep it a secret a little more but if it's going to be a f*cking cock block then I guess I have no choice?"

Su Wan's eyes widened as she looked at him " You-"

" I told you I am not a good man, you are just bent on treating me like one." Lin Yu shook his head as he hooked his finger and motioned Su Wan to come closer to him " I am not going anywhere Wan Wan, not just because I want you so badly that I can hardly think straight, but also because this is the only thing I can do for you right now," his eyes darkened when Su Wan bit her bottom lip, curse it. He wanted to bite those lips. " Come here, Wan Wan"

She wanted to, really, really wanted to but just as Lin Yu said he wasn't a good guy. Su Wan had no doubts that he would taste good, and fill her up and leave her just as satisfied as she wanted but she was a bit hesitant on crossing the path, Lin Yu wasn't like others, his mind worked differently and surely he will trigger those feelings that she tries to keep hidden in her heart -will he like her when he realises what kind of woman she really was?

" I know you want this Wan Wan," said Lin Yu as he limped over toward her and Su Wan back-peddled even more until her back hit a wooden door " I know you want it just as much as I do, so let's just get on it"

" I don't want this-"

Before she could finish her sentence, Lin Yu placed his finger on her lips " Shh,  there is one thing that I like the most about you and that's you never try to lie to us, but you are lying right now why?"

Pinned in place, with no escape from his blazing eyes Su Wan stuttered " I don't want to use you as my mother used me"

And she broke his heart right then and there " It might be what you are thinking" hooking a strand of her hair he kissed it " but that's not how I see it"

" I am not like other women .." she wasn't shy and her moral values had a vast difference from those women with whom Lin Yu and the others were familiar with, if this was before she wouldn't have ever questioned herself like this but right now she was vulnerable just like this- she was weak just as she was when that woman jumped off.

" and I don't want you to be like them. I want you just as you are"

Forget it she thought as she wrapped her arms around his neck just in time Lin Yu moved.