Chapter 85: Hide what I don’t need

•Azalea

I stood outside the house I had spent my life in.

I'm sorry to Ben because he only wanted to make me feel better even though he had no idea what was wrong with me, yet I ditched him and ran away as soon as we left the Alucard's territory.

I sighed and looked inside through the windows. Unknown people now lived here. Strangers I have never known. Of course, what did I expect from the couple I was living with? They always wanted to get rid of me. I've been gone for over a year, it was the best chance for them to disappear and they took it.

Anyone would ask me why I even came back here? It's because it's the only place I had. No other relative, no one who would want to take me in. I wouldn't say I didn't have friends, I did, but not anyone close. And well, no one I would want to bother.

I turned around and began to walk on the empty streets. It was around 4am.

Why did I run away?

Because I felt stupid? Humiliated? Embarrassed?

Yes. All of them.

I started falling for a guy who didn't give shit about me.

I felt my eyes fill up.

Stupid! This is so stupid!

It's all because I wanted to know more, because I couldn't contain my curiosity. I just wanted to explore him more and I didn't even realize when I started liking him.

Any way you look at it. It makes no sense. Falling for the person who's an enemy?

The cool breeze made my cheeks flush but it felt good. It felt good but I felt so stupid. I stopped in my path and crouched down in the form of a ball, hiding my face away in the space between my chest and knees.

Where did all the hate I had go? I always hated the Alucard family for taking away the only thing that could truly be mine. A family. I hated how I never got to experience a real family but he did.

I bit my lower lip as my head began to throb.

Yet I was scared of him. There was nothing I could do to him. Where did all that go? Do feelings really change that easily?

If that's the case, it shouldn't matter. I can hide and get rid of these feelings.

I heard footsteps approach me.

A person crouched down next to me, "I heard you ran away." I raised my head upon hearing Arius's voice.

Of course, he can find me anywhere because of this stupid thing around my neck.

"No." I replied, "Like I can run away from you." As soon as I saw his face my heart ached. It felt so bad.

"Why are you here at this time?" He was demanding an answer.

"I was just thinking." What's the fastest way of getting rid of feelings?

"What exactly?" I don't have the answer but I have to push you away.

"Who should I spend my first night with." I won't lose here. No.

"W-What?" He seemed rather bewildered.

I looked away, "I've had enough. I'm going to lose my virginity." I stood up and he stood up with me, "I was thinking of grabbing a nicest looking man and spend the night with him."

"You won't find anyone better than me." He grabbed my arm tightly and dragged me with him.

"Let me go! I can walk on my own!!" But he didn't listen. He held my wrist so tight it was starting to get red. "Arius! Where are you even taking me?"

"You were the one who wanted to lose her virginity." He glanced back at me, "Let's fulfill your wish."

My eyes went wide and my heartbeat started accelerating.

"I didn't say I wanted it with you."

"You said, the nicest looking guy. That's me."

"Well excuse you but you must already be out of stamina. I don't want you." I raised the front of my foot to dig my heels in for more friction but Arius stopped before that, he looked back and jerked me in closer to him.

"Oh sweetheart." He brought his face closer to mine, "You're underestimating me." His lips just millimeters away from mine, "It's only hard for first-timers." His breath made my hair stand up, "Just wait till I'm inside you, you won't doubt my stamina then." My face flushed at his words and the thought made my stomach tingle.

I was about to look away in confusion but he held my face with his hand and brought his lips onto mine.

His felt a lot more warmer than mine, perhaps because the nights were still cold? And perhaps because I had realized my feelings I didn't mind this.

Then- the image of him making out with the other woman crossed my mind and I bit his lips. We broke apart but he didn't let go of the grip he had on my wrist.

His lip bled but he licked it clean.

"L-l-let me go…" I stuttered.

His gaze kept getting fiercer by the moment.

"Perhaps you've forgotten I 'own' you." I gulped as he stared into my eyes trying to read me. It felt like he could find the answer and it was scaring me. Then, his phone began to buzz.

Annoyed,he took out his phone but kept his eyes on me till he had the device in front of him. He looked down at the screen and frowned but answered it anyway.

"Yes?" I took a breath of relief as he diverted his attention to the call, "Summer?" His expression softened all of a sudden and so did his tone, "Hey, it's okay. Everything will be fine." Is he talking to a child? He's suddenly so soft. I tried listening and I think I heard a little girl

'Is grandma gonna be okay?' The girl on the other side sobbed.

"Yes, she'll be fine, so go back to sleep."

'You promise?'

"I promise."

The call ended and Arius placed the phone back in his pocket. Without a word he began to drag me with him.

"Where are you taking me now?"

"Hospital."

"Why!?"

"Because I can't afford to leave you here alone." He spared me a glance, "Who knows on whose bed you'll end up on."

"You behaving like you actually care." I mumbled to myself as I gritted my teeth.

He stopped in his tracks all of the sudden and looked back at me

.

"What?" I asked him and he shook his head lightly but finally released his grip on my wrist. I gently rubbed the red area and sighed.

"Azalea."

At first, I couldn't believe my ears, So I looked at him with eyes of disbelief.

He said my name.

For the very first time, he said my name. It made me feel strange but like warm and fluffy at the same time.

"Yes?" I replied rather shyly.

"I do care"