Chapter 236 - 236. Unrequited Love Makes People Ugly.

Katherine was barely in her office when Paul reached over her shoulder and pushed the door open. With a raised brow she she silently questioned his action.

"Just felt like it, go with the flow." He shrugged.

"Hmmm." She nodded walking in.

When they were both seated, the air stiff and slightly heavy with the uncomfortable silence that settled over them.

"So-"

"You-"

They started at the same time. "You should go first." Katherine's said.

"... did you find him? I don't think you did, what happened?" He asked. 

"I don't want to talk about that right now." She frowned instantly at the mention of the despicable man that was her dad.

"Fine." He agreed, understanding immediately. "Thank you... for sending Jason the other day." He replied. Adding the last statement when her eyes widened as to what he was talking about.

"It's not something you wouldn't have done for me." She responded. "Congratulations on your engagement." She said, the words sounding bitter in her mouth as she did.

Paul laughed ruefully, as she congratulated him. He wasn't someone who didn't believe in love, he did but he never actually really considered himself as someone who would one day be in love. It wasn't so important. But he never once thought he would be marrying someone he disliked. Never once had there been a woman he didn't want to bed, regardless. But Choi Yuri was the first woman he wanted nothing to so with, yet she was the woman he was to spend the rest of his life with.

"Why do you look like that? That's not the face of a happy man." Katherine said. 

Paul looked up at her faster than she would have thought, his gaze boring into hers. "And what exactly is a happy man?" He asked, his tone low and serious, all hints of the playfulness gone.

"Do you really not want to marry Choi Yuri? What changed?" Katherine asked.

"What do you think? She was not who I thought she was... or rather she's worse than I thought she was." He replied. 

Katherine shook her head in confusion. "I don't understand? What exactly happened?"

He opened his mouth to start speaking but shook his head and stopped. "It doesn't matter nevermind." 

"Tell me." She whined. "I'm truly concerned about you, if you don't want to be with her, if she has done something then why won't you stop it? Surely your mother would not let a woman that made you so angry become her daughter in law." She said.

Paul laughed. "Really? And what do you propose I tell my mom?" 

Katherine frowned "uh the truth? You can't marry Choi Yuri because..." she trailed off waiting for him to finish.

"You want me to tell my mother I can marry Choi Yuri for something she planned with her?" He asked, finishing the statement with a cryptic question. 

"This is confusing..." she sighed. "Just tell me what did she do?" 

"It's not necessary for you to kn-"

"Tell me damn it!" She almost yelled.

Paul looked her straight in the eyes when he spoke. "I heard she was the one that told my mother your dad isn't really your dad." He said and Katherine's eyes widened. 

"How...?" she asked 

"How what? How did she tell her? How did she know? She dug into your life, and for her to have stumbled on that peice of information you should know how deep she dug." He said, the words sounding bitter as he said them.

"She what?" 

"Look I understand your frustration and anger right now, I know how you feel but you can't do anything impulsive. Promise me." He stated firmly, staring at her frozen face.

Katherine looked after him after she came back, grabbing his arm she stared intently into his eyes. She wondered if she should just kiss him, how would that turn out? He didn't want to get married to Choi Yuri because of her! 

Of course the thought had crossed her mind, maybe Yuri found her real sire, and she should be mad that she dug into her personal life like that. But the only thing that kept popping up was the possibility if Paul loving her as well. She had to know, she had wanted nothing else for so long.

If she kissed him would he kiss her back ot would it end the friendship? That was a 50/50 chance she wasn't willing or even brave enough to take.

But weren't you the one planning on ending the relationship with him?

Her conscience reminded her, that was before they spoke, she forgot for a minute how nice it was to just be with him like this. Listening to his problems... him listening to hers. 

So she decided to put herself out there and just ask. "Do you like me?" She asked.

Paul brow furrowed, was that it? Why was he expecting her to ask something else? "Of course I do, you're my bestfriend." He replied bluntly and she shook her head.

"Not like... do you have feelings, romantic feelings for me?" She asked and he coughed awkwardly. 

"Why the hell are you asking me that?" He asked his ears turning red. If not for the butterflies erupting in her stomach she would have laughed at his embarrassment. It wasn't new to see Paul flush before her, many people didn't know it but he was a pretty sensitive guy. Well... in some aspects. 

"Then why the hell did you do that because of me? Why do you not want to get married to Choi Yuri? I'm only your friend and you can't get pissed at her for trying to make sure you stay hers." She huffed, pulling her hand away in disappointment as she felt a familiar pang in her chest at his constant denial.

Paul frowned. "It's because she messed with someone important to me, you wouldn't have left or be in so much pain if she hadn't said anything or pryed at all." He replied.

"What makes you think I'm in pain?" 

"Are you Kidding me? You do realise I know you like the back of my hand right? I can see it in your eyes, your mannerisms, it's obvious. I can always tell when you're sad." He said matter of factly. 

Then why do you refuse to see the love I have for you?

"Besided who would be happy to find out their parents aren't really their parents at 27? I can't believe anyone would abandon such a wonderful person, it's his loss not knowing you Katherine. I hope you that. Whoever he is, wherever he is. The fact that he doesn't know the beautiful and amazing person you are, he should be pitied." He said seriously.

Katherine froze for the second time, tears pooling to her eyes as he ranted angrily about the man that abandoned her. 

"I hate it when people mess with you, whoever it is I promise to make them pay, even if it's your dad." He said to her.

A stray tear fell down her cheek. "Even your mom?" She tried to joke it off. But his eyes never lost their intensity as he answered. 

"Not even my mom." He replied. 

"Pfft. Stop lying" she said admist the tears, why why why did he have to mess with her feelings again, like this.

"I'm serious, I'm going to tell her to stay away from you if she wants me to go through with the wedding " he frowned. 

"Why would you still get married to her? You hate her." Katherine said, wiping the sides of her face.

"Why are you getting all weepy? As if you don't known I'll take a bullet for you." Another blunt statement that made Katherine want to swoon. This is exactly how he strung her on for so long, he was too sweet and sincere in his actions. Especially when it came to her. "And besides, what better way to punish her than marriage? She'll never be able to get away. Since it's marriage she wants I'll give her that and more." 

"Hey! Even I would have done same in her situation. Don't do that, you can't play with someone's life like that." She warned him.

"She played with your life first." He defended himself.

"Still... it's not right." She insisted. 

"You're defending her?" He asked in disbelief. 

"No, I just know what it feels like to love someone and not have them love you back. Worse having them love someone else, it's the worst temptation to become an ugly person. Unrequited Love makes people do very ugly things." She said.

Paul face scrunched up as he wondered what she meant. "Wait a minute... did that jerk Dr. Geum hurt you?!" He asked with a look of both disgust and irritation.

Katherine shut her eyes in frustration, why the hell was he so freaking slow?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"Nevermind, I meant I can understand what it means, feels like" she added, dismissing him "I'm tried and I have a surgery later this evening. You should go." She gave him a small smile. 

"Fine, take it easy. And call me when your done let's grab a coffee." Without giving her time to refuse he walked out of the office, leaving her alone to grab her hair and bang her head on the table.