Chapter 289 - 289. A Few Months.

"He had an episode, so bad that we had to get a doctor after he pasted out. He made me promise not say a word, especially not to you. Something about getting a therapist... but that wasn't the problem. His father found out, from the doctor what was going on, I can't tell the detail of their meeting but that was when he... snapped." Matt explained. 

Jessie looked at Jason, who looked just about ready to murder his secretary. "That doesn't mean anything." He insisted. 

"Of course it doesn't." Jessie added, realising the truth. She would never know the exact words that occurred between father and son, but she was aware of what impact Jason's father had on him. How greedy and annoying the father was to his son. She would never know until Jason told her himself, if he ever told her himself. 

"Also, he's not getting married to Miss Lee. It all a lie, the press made false assumptions and he never allowed me correct them." Matt added. "He would never do that to you."

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"Sir there are pictures of you in front of the court house, coming out from the marriage register." Matt informed Jason. "Shall I block the press? It wouldn't do if the board members find about your marriage to Miss Marin." 

Jason looked up from his desk, "really? Have you found out what the headlines will say?"

"The press is assuming your are getting married to Miss Lee." He stated.

"No one knows about who I really got married to in that court house right?" Jason asked.

"No... but-"

"So if the news about Jessie and I gets out I'll know you are traitor." Jason stated bluntly. 

"What? I would never do that sir!" Matt insisted. 

"Oh?" Jason asked with a raised brow. "That's good then isn't it?" 

Matt clenched his fist in annoyance, what the hell happened to him after yesterday? He had been acting like an absolute jackass since his meeting with his father. "Let them publish the news, do not confirm anything but do not stop it as well."

"But it wouldn't be good for Miss Marin to find out."

"I will decide what is good for her or not!" He almost growled. 

And Matt bowed immediately. "Get out."

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Jessie stared at Jason, her lips unmoving. She had no idea what to do at this point, she didn't know what to say. She just watched him... he was broken, he was confused and he was lost. She didn't know what to make of that.

"Get out." His curt words echoed through th silence. Matt simply bowed and walked out if the office, never to return. Sebastian followed suit only because he felt this would be intimate.

"That doesn't change anything." He said after a while.

Jessie sighed, biting her lip she sighed again. "I know, you're a jerk that didn't change." 

Jason frown deepened and he thought he ought to kiss and strangle her all together. "What?"

"It's much easier to be threatened, at least you could be with me even if not tomorrow but right now you could be with me." She said. 

Again Jason felt like she was speaking in a different tongue, he couldn't comprehend a word she was saying. 

"Do you know what I truly regret?" She asked him.

"Meeting me?" 

She shook her head. "Avoiding you the past four days, I missed you gaze. You're eyes on me making me feel like I was your life and hope. I miss your touch, I crave your lips on my and any to quell this hunger burning just underneath my newly sensitive skin." She said in a voice so light it cascaded right around him. Like a fog, seeping into his skin, into the openings in his person. 

Jason had always desired Jessie and having to restrain himself for so long, he had developed a sort of resistance to rip apart her what ever annoying barrier stood between his skin and hers. He struggled with each moment, like a drug addict struggling to resist. But now, knowing she wanted him just as badly as he did her, it broke down the wall. Like water breaking open from a dam, his hunger sizzled.

He wanted to cross the dastardly distance that separated them and just make her tremble in his arms, infact he needed to. But more than the need to stay away from her, he felt guilty.

He was beyond ashamed of how he acted this past few days, when he delivered blow after blow the evening before it took a his will power not to walk over to her and bundle her up in his arms. The way she cried, he would never forget it. That was how much she loved him, that was how much he hurt her. His eyes moved to her bandaged arm and he couldn't help but wince at well. He knew he was being an ass, he knew he was being unfair. 

But his father was right, being with her made him weak. How could he have an episode so bad he had to receive help from his father himself. Worse! He actually considered therapy. A few months ago he didn't have episodes, a few months ago he didn't need therapy. A few months ago he was him, he didn't feel like himself this few months. But the happiness new yet, familiar. He had been happy before but this was totally different. It was Jessie... he wanted to be with her! But he also didn't want to appear weak... he couldn't be weak, not after everything he had to go through to prove his worth to his father.

"Jason, are you even listening?!" Jessie almost yelled, her frustration almost reaching it's peak. She was the one wronged! For crying out loud he should at least have the decency of allowing her rant or complain or regret, what ever bloody hell she wanted to do!

Jason's eyes returned to her and he breathed heavily. "This doesn't change anything."