411 - - 49th anniversary of the event.

After having enjoyed a healthy interaction with the jade rabbits at Mohamofu Kingdom, I felt better and decided to go check on the guavard.

I went to ...... and saw that the number of Guabirds has been increasing. That's how many new chicks have been born, but why haven't they been successfully imprinted on the chicks yet?

Needless to say, we left it to Vita and the others. Even in Mohamofu Kingdom, they only brought him tribute occasionally. Without Mr. Light's words, he would still be in a situation where he is afraid of them even though he is their servant, which is a situation that I don't understand.

I'm not sure if my existence is even recognized, since I've had fewer visits than the Fluffy Kingdom.

I'm like a useless child who cried to his mother that I would definitely take care of a puppy he picked up and decided to keep it, but ended up putting everything on his mother's shoulders.

"Yuta, what's wrong?"

"Oh, Mom."

Instead of the useless me, the mother who is taking care of Guavard and the others perfectly appeared.

"Well, I'm not Yuta's mother, am I?"

Vita, who was suddenly called mother, denied it with a slightly surprised look on her face. Then, with a worried look on her face, she waved her hand and my body was enveloped in a gentle light.

"Well, your brain and eyes are normal, and there is nothing wrong with the rest of your body. Then it is most likely a problem of the mind. Should I ask Onyx to see ...... or, better yet, should I ask Master Dirk for advice?"

"No, I'm kidding. I was just thinking that Vita must be like a mother to the guavards, since she's taking care of them all, and then Vita showed up, so I just called her mother. I'm sorry for being confusing."

I said something stupid, and he got seriously worried. Well, it's my fault that he didn't think I was joking when he called me a mother in such a situation.

But the guavard, which had never approached me, gathered around Guagua and her mother as soon as Vita appeared. It's pretty sad that I'm the only one with a void around me. I wonder if this is what it feels like to be a father who has moved away on his own and has been forgotten by his little ones.

"It was a joke. But Yuta is going through a lot, so maybe you should ask Onyx for help once."

I don't know about you, but he's worried about my stress. I wonder if mental illnesses are the domain of the spirits of darkness, but Gina's dark dragon equipment also has mental resistance, so I guess it is correct that mental illnesses are the domain of the spirits of darkness.

But there is still a nagging question.

"Am I in trouble?　Did Vita drink too much yesterday?"

"Haha, I haven't had too much to drink, and I'm completely sober now that I've dissolved into the attributes."

Right. Genie is very useful.

"Oh, by the way, where does the spirit of life melt?　I understand that Sylphy is wind and Dine is water, but where does the spirit of life dissolve?"

Dissolving in the wind seems a little strange, but I don't understand what it means to dissolve in life.

"Ah, the spirit of life is the life force emitted by living things, isn't it?　That's the source. So, if there's a certain amount of large creatures gathered together, they can dissolve without any problem."

"...... I see."

Yeah, I didn't understand what you said. Anyway, I guess it's okay as long as there are a lot of living creatures.

"Anyway, Yuta, you really should see Onyx once. The human mind is very sensitive.

That's what I was talking about. I was just making a bad joke, but it turned out to be a strange one. But it makes me uneasy to hear you worry with such a serious face.

"Well, I don't mind you seeing me, but do I look like I'm in trouble to you, Vita?"

I thought I was a winning guy with a house of my own, lots of money, cheat all the time, surrounded by beautiful women even though I don't have a physical relationship with any of them, and I'm a real man. In addition to that, Belle and her friends are pretty and there are many mofumofu. I think it's no exaggeration to say that he is a winner among winners.

"Because, Yuta was suddenly sent to the land of death and separated from his family and friends, right?　After the hardships in the land of the dead, even in the labyrinth city, you had troubles with the adventurers' guild and were discriminated against as a spiritualist, and you also had troubles with the nobles. I think it must be tiring and hard work to explore and dive into the labyrinth.

......If you ask me, was it pretty hard?　When I first came to the land of the dead, I was terrified of death, and I was exposed to a lot of malice in the labyrinth city. No wonder my sensitive heart was damaged.

I see, that's why my mind was so tired without my knowing it, and I unconsciously sought comfort in the belles, the mofumofus, and the s*x industry.

Yes, my mind is definitely tired. My body was healed by Vita and her friends, but my sensitive heart is in shambles. If it weren't for Belle and Mohamofu and the customs, I might have been a cripple by now.

"Yes, Vita made me realize that I might be tired. We are still in the process of cultivating paradise and Gina and the Belles are responsible for that. I think they should be looked after. But even though we're in the sanctuary, do you think it's safe to ask Onyx, who hasn't signed a contract with us, to do that much?"　

"There's nothing wrong with having a doctor take a look at you. But if you need medical treatment, you will have to sign a contract.

"I see."

Is there a possibility that more spirits will be contracted? I'm still a cheater, and I'm about to get even cheater. Well, before worrying about that, let's solve my mental problem.

****

"I don't have any problems."

Onyx, who was adjusting the indirect lighting in the bar, looked at me and said something strange.

How can someone get homesick just by living in a foreign country, and yet there is nothing wrong with my spirit, which is struggling with the threat of death, fighting the undead, and being exposed to the malice of people in a different world?　That's impossible.

...... is that it?　It's a pattern in a bad situation, like keeping it a secret from the person himself and telling the truth only to his family. It seems to be difficult to heal the mind, and it may not be easy to recover even by spirits.

"Uh, Onyx. I'm an adult now, I wouldn't be distraught even if the situation was dangerous. No, I might be a little distraught, but I'll calm down and swallow it, so please be honest with me. Is the situation so bad that you can't tell me?"

"I don't know what you're talking about, what's a bad situation?"

Onyx asks with a curious expression.

"Well, my heart is in shreds, and I need to rest or else I'm in a bad situation?"

I'm not battered and bruised, I have a very normal mind. Are you feeling any different?　If I, a senior spirit of darkness, can't see it, then it must be a very bad situation. Then perhaps I should ask Master Dark for help."

Onyx pondered with a serious expression on her face.　Huh?　Do you really feel all right?

"No, no, if Onyx says there is no problem, then there is no problem, so you don't have to be so serious. I guess I misunderstood you a little bit."

"But something doesn't feel right, does it?"

"......Well, I don't feel any different, but since I came to this world and I've been in a lot of trouble, I'm sure I've been through a lot, and I don't think it's possible that I have no mental health problems. I think it is rather normal to have a little mental fatigue. I would like to have a delicate mind at least. ......"

Coming to a world with a different culture, diet, and environment, and not being able to see your family and friends anymore, it would be shameful and unbecoming of a human being if you didn't have a little psychological damage.

"I'm a little disturbed right now, but it's temporary and I don't have any mental problems. If my mind is fatigued, it's not a problem because I'm recovering."

...... my heart was more brazen than I thought it would be. I think it's a good thing, but part of me doesn't want to admit it. I mean, I wish I had a sensitive heart. .......

"Hmmm, Yuta. What a face you have! You look like a man who has given up on life."

Sylphy appeared to be having a lot of fun. He definitely looks like he's having a good time.

"Sylphy, why don't you just leave me alone today and relax?"

I'm not desperate for life, but as someone who finds it cooler to be sensitive than brazen, I'm more shocked than I thought I would be, so please leave me alone.

"What are you talking about? Yuta might be in trouble, there is no way I can leave him alone as his contracted spirit.

"Then you should have come out before I examined you. Did you know there was nothing wrong?

He had a half smile on his face the moment he came out, and I can't imagine he was very worried about me, can you?

"Don't look at me with such a reproachful face. It's true I was a little worried. But I didn't think that Yuta's spirit was so tired that it could be a problem, after he was doing so many things freely and happily pushing Guillmas and Gulli and his son around so much."

If you ask me, you're right. Yes, I was stressed out by many things, but except for my first life in the land of the dead and the uncontrollable situation in Japan, I have been doing my best to relieve stress.

In fact, I think I enjoyed it more than the stress. Should I be happy that my mentality that I enjoy pushing others into a corner is judged as normal?　No, if there's nothing wrong with you, you should be happy. .......

Then what?　Could it be that I'm just a slightly self-conscious person who never thought about it until Vita worried about me, but when she told me, I thought it was strange that I was so sensitive and not stressed?

"Yuta. I'm glad Yuta doesn't have any problems. Besides, it was nice of Yuta to think about the development of paradise and for the sake of Gina and Belle and the others.

"Yes, Sylphy is right. I'm glad nothing happened to you and I admire Yuta for thinking about the people he has to protect rather than himself."

Sylphy, Vita, don't look at me with those kind eyes. I'm so embarrassed I'm going to have a mental breakdown.