Chapter 385

"Why? You don't think I deserve it? " Shen Shaochuan frowned.

Gu sang didn't stop the action on his hand and wiped it for him.

"I don't deserve it. I'm not qualified to have other people's love. That kind of thing is too luxurious for me. I can't afford it and dare not try it."

"Why not? As long as you get rid of the man around you, you will have a chance to meet love. Love is not about qualification, but about fate."

She pulled the corner of her lips bitterly: "Yuelao fell asleep on the day I was born, and forgot to tie the red line for me, so in this world, I have no fate with anyone. It has nothing to do with you. You are my life-saving benefactor, I will be grateful for a lifetime of people, but that does not mean that we will have anything else

Shen Shaochuan reached out to hold her hand, feeling a little flustered: "Sang Sang, what have you been through? Why is your heart so pessimistic and negative? Is it so difficult for you to get rid of a man who hurt you and come to me? Even if you don't like me, you can let yourself go and go to other men to find love. People will live for the rest of their lives. Why force yourself so hard? Don't you want salvation? "

Gu sang pursed her lips. She couldn't let him have any hope any more. She had to cut off all his thoughts today.

"No one can redeem me, because I sentenced myself to life imprisonment, which I deserve."

"Why?"

Gu sang burst into tears: "I once had a child. I love that child. He is a more important relative than my own life. He is the baby I gave birth to in October, but I lost him."

Like a child lost the colorful candy, Gu Sang's tears can no longer stop.

Hearing Gu Sang's words, Shen Shaochuan was shocked and couldn't move.

She once had a child and lost it for five years.

Sang Sang is 25 years old. So she got pregnant at 19 and gave birth at 20?

How can a girl with a character like Sang Sang believe that she will do such a thing?

He wanted to comfort her, but he couldn't say a word.

Maybe her words shocked him so much that he even made fun of her for a moment.

"Does Duan jingnian know about this?"

Shen Shaochuan put aside his short-lived unhappiness and patted her on the back, hoping that she could feel the warmth of his past.

Gu sang nodded gently: "I know."

"When did you know? Before or after marriage? "

"I knew it before I got married."

"So He clearly knows that you are a single mother, and he married you, but he didn't cherish it after marriage? What kind of man is he? If he can't accept it from the beginning, he shouldn't marry you at all. Since he has married you, he should love you well. This is a choice before marriage. Why wait until now to hurt you? This asshole. "

Thinking of Duan jingnian just returning home with another woman, Shen Shaochuan forcefully holds the advice, and his heart is full of resentment.

Seeing that he misunderstood, Gu sang quickly shook his head and explained, "no, it's not because of this that he doesn't love me. Many things have happened between us, and we can't love each other at all."

"If so, why do you want to get married? Is he crazy or are you stupid

Shen Shaochuan took her arm and said sternly, "divorce him."

Gu sang shook his head, turned his head and kept a little distance from him.

"I owe it to him, and I should pay it back. Duan jingnian and I have a bad relationship. I can't break it in my life. Since it's a bad relationship, let's live like this. In this life, I have accepted my destiny. Now I only pray that my lost child can live healthily and happily in a certain corner of the world, that's all

Shen Shaochuan focused on looking at her, see her firm expression is not fake.

He felt distressed and held Gu Sang's hand.

Gu sang gave him a cool smile.

Shen Shaochuan looks at the 25-year-old woman in front of him. What she has experienced in her life must be beyond his imagination.

He now asked her to leave that man, to get rid of the past, it seemed that it was not feasible for her.

He can't save her, he can't help her, he can't love her.

More importantly, she didn't need all the care and love he gave her.

How can he help her and love her?

"How did the child lose it?"

Shen Shaochuan asked, the past suddenly came to mind.

She sadly covered her heart and wanted to cry: "in the evening, I pushed him to the park for a walk. Some children came to ask me for directions. I just turned back to help her point the way, and the child disappeared."

"Have you looked for it?"

"I've been looking for it like crazy. I've thought about all the ways I should think about, but I still haven't found it," Gu sang shook his head.

"And the father of the child? Does she know you're living like this? Or He didn't even know the child existed? "Gu sang couldn't even move her tears. She pursed her lips and didn't smile.

"I wish he would never know."

What she is suffering now has something to do with the child.

"He knows? So Does he never care about you? If it wasn't for him, you wouldn't be like this. Who is that man? I really want to give him a good beating. "

Shen Shaochuan clenches his fist and his teeth itch.

Gu sang stood up in a hurry.

In order to divert her attention, she pointed to the pattern of a flower pot on the table. With a smile on her lips, she went over and squatted down: "this flower pot is really beautiful."

saw her love Wutong, which he bought for her. Shen Shaochuan also squat down in good mood. "Do you love it?"

Gu sang nodded forward to see the full pattern clearly.

Shen Shaochuan immediately smelled the fragrance of his shampoo from her body.

He body a stiff, hard to resist the impulse in the heart, eyes blurred looking at her.

Gu sang heard that his breathing was becoming more and more urgent. Thinking of her present posture and movement, he quickly stepped back.

"Well, I like it."

"This flowerpot is really more attractive than flowers. I bought it because of this flowerpot." Shen Shaochuan looked at her flustered appearance and raised his lips in a funny way. Fortunately, he had strong self-control, otherwise he would be crazy.

"When I saw this flowerpot, I thought of you."

Gu sang looked up at him.

"Sang Sang, do you like me a little bit? If possible, can you leave Duan jingnian and come to me? I'm not just saying it casually. I'll be responsible for my words. I'll be good to you. I like you. I'm sincere. "