I decided to omit to talk about my desire right there. I mean, it’s about time for me to grow past that. And we did talk about it before entering the room. Both of us already understood that beneath the flowery words, our relationship was still unstable because of that seemingly boundless desire of mine.
It would just continue to ruin our moods if I keep bringing it up. My girls clearly hated it whenever I wallowed in self-deprecation. That’s why starting today, I will be putting a restraint on that.
Never will I lean down and blame me for every little thing. I can be a worrywart but I should also tone it down to the point that they wouldn’t be affected by it. I better return to my previous self of just ‘pure action’ and ‘less reaction’.
Even if I feel that way, I will just have to swallow it down.
Naturally, there will be a point in time where that will be an unavoidable topic. It’s up to us, not just me, to solve it.
Hopefully, this restraint will work… I could clearly foresee it. That if I continued acting this way, rather than becoming troubled by the problems they faced, they’d be more in disarray in stopping me from self-deprecating.
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Before leaving the house, I received a message from Yae that she will be coming tonight and she’ll be bringing another girl with her.
Upon seeing the name of who it will be, I was pleasantly surprised. I unconsciously grinned that Nao, who was sending us off from the front door, pointed out as creepy.
It’s Miyako. That hateful girl…
It clearly made me excited enough to even call the girl while Akane and I were on our way to the station.
The girl didn’t pick the call up. However, her name popped to the top of my messenger a second later. “Don’t call me! I’m on the train. Save it for later, hateful idiot.”
Akane, who stealthily looked at my screen and read her message, laughed at my foolishness.
“Husband, you better train restraint in that regard too. You always rashly do things when you’re excited.”
Mhm… That’s free advice.
Soon enough, we reached the train station. Today, I only sent her up to her platform. She’s going to meet Fuyu and the other two in their station and… the three days per week of walking her to school has been used up. Well, we didn’t really need to follow that but, according to her, it’s not her consideration towards the other girls but she wanted to keep it that way in consideration towards me. And surprisingly, she was supported by the other girls.
They didn’t want me to run late to school. It’s true that they’re kinda envious of the girls from my school. However, that wasn’t enough reason for them to selfishly tire me out for their satisfaction.
Look at them, aren’t they wonderful?
Truthfully, I’m against it… But as we’re exercising democracy over decisions like that, I got outvoted by them.
In light of that, Nami and the others also made some kind of adjustment. They wouldn’t needlessly hold me up in school or even call me out during weekends.
However, they left it to me to decide what I wanted to do during those ‘times where I am free from any planned schedule’.
So, in other words, the decision on who I will meet and spend time with still rests with me…
With this many girls, do you think it’s easy to decide on?
If you can call it a drawback of having many girlfriends, then yes it is…
But my mind can possibly do that. That’s what I was doing back in middle school after all…
I just have to tweak it a little and put in more consideration. Once I decide, I will go all out on it.
For example… Knowing Miyako will be with Yae tonight. I’m already leaning on going home early to spend more time with her.
But that doesn’t equate to my neglecting the other girls. I might not be able to walk them to their bus stops and stations today but I will go see them and inform them about it.
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During the few minutes of the train ride, I luckily encountered Chii. The girl still acted like a gyaru initially but upon spotting me staring at her with a playful smile on my lips, she did the gesture of tucking her hair behind her ear as she shyly approached me.
As I once again took the corner seat, I squeezed towards my right to give that spot to Chii which she took but before doing that, she lowered her head on the passenger at my right as an apology and scolded me for acting like a prick.
“Please forgive this idiot. I’ll be teaching him manners soon.”
That’s what she said.
Thankfully, that passenger had low resistance to beautiful girls like Chii and it didn’t escalate to a conflict.
“… Alright, I’m in the wrong. Should I have stood up instead?”
“That’s common sense, Kii. You don’t force others to concede a seat, it will just make me feel bad if you do.”
“… I see. So that’s it.”
“Look at this guy, should I also teach you about common sense?”
With that phrase, I got to thinking whether I lack some of that… I mean, I just had my own way of dealing with things, right? Should I always conform to common sense?
But now that she mentioned feeling bad about it… I guess it won’t hurt me to abide by it.
“I’ll be relying on you then, Chii-sensei.”
Because of that playful answer, Chii lost it on me. She reached for my ears and twisted them.
It didn’t hurt at all so I let her do that.
But upon seeing my lack of reaction, the girl gave up and sighed. “Totally uncool, Kii. I won’t talk to you today.”
Chii acted childishly but in my eyes, that just made her more adorable.
For the rest of that trip, I used the time to playfully appease her which made her react in two contrasting ways. One, she likes the attention I am giving her and two, she was annoyed by my antics of irritating her.
Either way, with our hands stealthily clasped together, it still became an enjoyable chance encounter for both of us.
I grew closer to Chii and heard more of her thoughts she’s refusing to say when she’s in front of my other girls.
Ah. I may also be as childish as her, I was probably smiling ear to ear when she whispered ‘I love you’ to my ears.
Furthermore, didn’t she tell me that she wouldn’t talk to me for the rest of the day? That was broken within a few minutes of sitting next to me.
Naturally, I didn’t point it out in case she truly stopped talking to me, losing this chance to have a moment with her. However, I plan to do so later. To amusedly watch her reaction. Is that evil enough of a plan? I’ll readily receive her punishment anyway.
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When the train reached our destination, Chii and I decided to walk together to school. We can simply give the reason that we met on the train. Moreover, it’s a rare chance so why not?
It’s also the best chance to rub it in someone’s face that Chii is mine.
And that someone is the guy trailing behind us.
“Huh? Why are you two together?” Fukuda asked as soon as he reached our vicinity. He intentionally said it in loud enough volume for Chii and me to hear.
This guy, did he think I failed to notice him?