Chapter 533: Overthinking. Again

Even with that kind of awkward meeting, the girls who were just meeting Satsuki for the first time embarrassingly entangled themselves off of me to go and return her greeting.

With smiles on their sweet lips, they all curiously interacted with Satsuki who’s still trying her best not to put on a scary face.

They had already interacted amongst themselves in that chat group of theirs. In a way, they’re already slightly familiar with each other.

However, being acquainted over the internet and meeting each other in person was vastly different. Especially if all of them have the same wish of being my only one even if they accepted this situation.

That’s why... watching all of this from the back, I couldn’t help but be proud of Satsuki. No, not just Satsuki. Proud of all of them.

In fact, this gathering put them all in an awkward position and situation. And it’s not impossible that some of them were just pushing themselves to accept what they’re witnessing on this very day. For me...

Even if Nami told me not to blame myself, I am aware that everything that is happening and what will happen in the future is still ultimately my fault.

Moreover, even if I acknowledged that letting them go was the best path for all of them to actually live a normal life, I would never do that unless they asked for it themselves.

When the time comes where they would blame me for this or for everything they experienced in these multiple relationship with me, I would accept all of those.

I’m just this cruel... I’m this despicable. I love and want them all to myself.

Nonetheless, even if I tell them about this thought of mine, they would surely deny and reject it.

Naturally, I could clearly see that they’re feeling the same for me. At the moment, at least.

I am aware that with this, I’m actually ruining their future... All for the sake of love. But in the end, I’m not doing anything to correct it and I am stubbornly pushing forward towards the impossible.

That’s the reason why I really can’t relax. The best shot I have at the moment is to realize that future where I can live with all of them and make them all happy.

But will they really become happy in the end? I don’t know... I’m probably the hero in their story but at the same time, I am also the villain. It depends on their perspective whether it is a secret or not.

And then here’s Satsuki for example, I knew it would be hard for her to suddenly just accept everything. But for me and to prevent another conflict from happening like earlier, she’s trying her best to get along well with them.

True, some of them would end up being great friends with each other... But at the same time, it’s totally unhealthy to love the same guy. But for my sake, they’re not saying anything.

And if this was being seen from an outsider’s perspective, this would appear as if I was forcing all of them to accept one another.

Truly despicable, right?

But in the end, I would still choose to push through... I would still strive to be with all of them...

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By the time they finished greeting each other, the nine girls entered the living room, leaving me alone with the girl that was already frowning and glaring at me.

“Un. It’s a surprise seeing you at the front door. I think it will be better if you also put on an apron.”

After clearing my thoughts, I teasingly said to Satsuki.

And as expected, she clicked her tongue and intensified her glare. “Dream on, idiot. How long will you stay there?”

“Perhaps, until my Satsuki pulled me from here.” I opened my arms wide, “What do you think?”

“Have you glued yourself there?”

“Un... And only my Satsuki’s embrace can pull me out of here.”

Naturally, the girl was clearly aware that I was teasing her but still... After a few seconds of contemplation, Satsuki facepalmed and began approaching me while hatefully muttering, “Why did I fall for this shameless guy?”

With Satsuki’s arms slipping to my back, my outstretched arms circled to her, enclosing her in my embrace. “I’m wondering about that as well.”

Contrary to her words and expression, Satsuki instantly melted in my embrace. I could feel her body heating up and her heartbeat speeding up.

And as her arms gradually tightened her embrace, Satsuki muttered in a concerned tone. “Idiot... Don’t burn yourself out. Also, don’t think too much. Do you think I failed to notice your frown and self-deprecating expression? Whatever it is on your mind... I won’t try to pry it from your mouth. But Ruki, I love you. That’s all that matters.”

This girl... Am I becoming this easy to read? No... it’s just, when it comes to them, my face couldn’t remain expressionless...

Satsuki who rarely talks in long sentences saying all these proves that. As much as I am concerned for them, they’re just as concerned for me.

“Even if I put you in this kind of situation?”

“That doesn’t matter. After everything you’ve done, are you having cold feet?”

Am I? No. It’s impossible.

“No... You know me... I’m too greedy and I’m too stubborn to just give up. But I can’t help thinking about it.”

Satsuki raised her head to meet my eyes and lifted her finger to my lips, stopping me from saying anything more. “Alright, stop. I don’t want to hear more of that, idiot. Kiss me now and follow me to the living room. Everyone’s waiting.”

With her lips parted and seemingly waiting for me to take, I grabbed the finger preventing me from speaking and kissed it. “I love you.”

I’m hopeless. No matter what, there’s truly only one path in front of me. I can think about those things all day but in the end, my decision will not change.

That’s why... Like Satsuki said... Loving them is all that matters

“I know you do, shameless guy.” After saying that, instead of waiting for me to kiss her, Satsuki dropped her lips on mine, expressing the frustration she’s feeling inside her.

Having felt that, I accepted all of it and returned her kiss as determination welled up inside me.

In the end, I just made this girl worry and perhaps everyone else with what went on in my mind.

Thinking about whether this is right or wrong will not produce the result that any of us will be satisfied with.

“Thank you, Satsuki.”

“Have you calmed down? If not, I’m ready to use this.” Satsuki smirked and raised her fist.

“I am... Now I know, I’ll always be an idiot.” Wrapping that fist of hers with my hand, I then pulled her in for another kiss. And this time, instead of letting her feel my worries, I poured in my affection for her and gratefulness for waking me up.

As our kiss gradually deepened and we’re about to become lost in our own world, the all-too-familiar voice of my silly wife pulled us out of trance. “Husband, how long will you let us wait?”

Appearing behind Satsuki, Akane along with Nami and Kana were all watching us interestingly while having a meaningful smile on their lips.