Chapter 11

Li Ze always talks a lot when he speaks. His talkative Gao shunyao deeply knows that every time two people chat, Li Ze is eloquent, and Gao shunyao listens quietly. But this time is different from the previous one. Li Zegen didn't want to mention his past. His words were much less than usual.

Gao shunyao is not a good talker. He can see Li Ze's silence, but he doesn't know how to persuade him. He can only accompany him to silence. They are silent. For a moment, the room is quiet.

Fortunately, Li Ze soon realized the embarrassment of silence. He laughed and wanted to activate the atmosphere to break the dull atmosphere he had just created. But he couldn't find any jokes to tell. After two laughs, he opened his mouth again.

"Lao Gao, listen to me. To put it in a bad way, you are not really the material to play football. Football is not so easy to play things, 18-year-old people, you are the foundation, no matter how good, want to learn football from scratch that is almost impossible. It's crazy to say you want to play football. How many people can't play football as their dream? Why do you kick it out? "

Li Ze said, seeing Gao shunyao want to speak, he also raised his hand to him, "don't argue, I know what examples you want to say, but those examples are all a few, and you only see their examples are bright, and they suffer a lot behind them. Can you afford the pain? To say the least, is it really worth it if you can afford it? On your condition, are you afraid you can't find a woman? You're rich, you're tall, you're not ugly. What kind of woman can't you find? Why waste this energy? After all, it's just a girl. "

Li Ze's words are unprecedentedly vulgar, which makes Gao shunyao silent. Very rare, his head drooped slightly, and he seemed speechless. After a long time, Gao shunyao spoke again, and this time, his tone was unprecedentedly low. This tone is totally different from Gao shunyao's usual impatient temper.

"I know it's just a girl." Gao shunyao's voice was quite calm, but there was something strange in it, "but I just like that girl. Other girls may be 100 times more beautiful than her, much better than her conditions, and even the immortals, but I just like this girl. "

Gao shunyao raised his head. Strangely, he said something about love, but Li Ze didn't see any happiness on his face. Instead, he was more serious than ever.

"Lao Li, you said I'm not the material for playing football. I know you're right. I'm not the material for playing football, and I know it myself - and more than that, I also know that I'm not the material for reading, for business, for mixing with society - to put it bluntly, I'm nothing, I'm just a waste. You don't have to tell me that. I knew it. My father, my mother, my teacher, my classmates, they have told me many times. What's so bad about that? None of them thought this was ugly. They said it too much, pointed at my nose and scolded me, stabbed me with a smile, and coaxed me in front of the whole class. I've been used to being called that for a long time. What's so ugly? "

"That's what people say about me. I'm used to it. In everyone's eyes, I'm a waste. I'm not born to learn well. It's me who speaks in class, it's me who damages public property, it's me who fights and fights. Someone cheats in the exam. The teacher has to ask me what's wrong with me first. I've been used to being looked down upon since I was a child. "

"Lao Gao, I didn't mean that..."

Li Ze did not expect that Gao shunyao had so many ideas in his own words. He didn't know that Gao shunyao was suffering from so many grievances. All along, he thought Gao shunyao was just a guy used to mischief, but he never thought that his mind was so heavy.

"You don't have to tell me that, and I don't blame anyone. Who can I blame for my failure? Since I don't like to scold others, I don't know that I don't like it. Why do I say Chen sirou is different? Do you remember what she did to me after losing that day? She is different. "

Li Ze stopped speaking. Chen sirou didn't blame Gao shunyao that day, but praised him. Unexpectedly, he was so influenced.

"Lao Li, it's been a long time since I've been useless. I've never thought about what I'm going to do before. I've always gone with the flow. But this time it was different. I was lying there in the middle of the night, thinking about what the future would be like. I thought that I finally met a girl who was good to me, but it was hard for me to catch up with her. I suddenly wanted to cry. What will the future look like? She'll marry someone else, and I'll find a wife who'll blame me for everything? If the future is like that, I really can't accept it. "

"I've let too many people down in my life. My parents are disappointed with me, my teachers are disappointed with me, my friends are disappointed with me, even I am very disappointed with myself. I have tried many times not to let others down but failed. But this time I still want to try and not let her down. I don't want her to think of Gao shunyao in the future. When she was idle and bored, I got the news that Gao shunyao had accomplished nothing and asked her to treat my name as a joke. I hope that when she hears my name again, she will be happy because of my achievements and because she knows me - that's enough for me. ""You say I want to play football is a dream, don't I know it? It's hard for an 18-year-old to play football. How can I not know? The problem is that I am 18 years old. What am I going to do? Is it easy for me to study hard now? Is it easy to start business from scratch now? Is it hard to be different? At least I like football better than those. I believe this road is more suitable for me than those. As for suffering, I don't care. My father used to tell me that only when I suffer from suffering can I become a master. I've already thought about it and have to bear it. "

"It's certain that I want to live like a person to suffer. I'm prepared for this. This time, I'll be suffering. I'll admit it."

"Lao Li, I don't think it's easy to play football. I know all the difficulties, but I still want to do it. You say that some people can't achieve their wishes with this as their dream, but I don't want to talk about dreams. The word dream is too noble for me, and I don't deserve it. Eyes to the sky to see people, can see the dream, say how beautiful it is, my eyes can only look at the foot, I have long seen how difficult the road under my feet. But no matter how hard it is, I will never give up this time. Playing football is a life of my own choice. No matter how difficult the road is, I will go on step by step

Li Ze looks at Gao shunyao blankly. He has known Gao shunyao for a long time, but he never remembers that Gao shunyao once said so many words to him. Li Ze, who has always been very frank, likes to be concise and to the point. He never knew that he had so many things in his heart.

Like himself, he is not a man who likes to put all his troubles out. I always thought that he always looked impatient, but he was young, frivolous and unworldly. In fact, maybe Gao shunyao had a lot of worries in his heart.

He was as depressed as himself. No matter how broken his life was, no one ever blamed him. Gao shunyao is not the same. He has not suffered a major blow, but it does not mean that he is plain sailing. He is even worse than himself. At least he once had a dream, but he didn't even have one.

But even so, he did not give up. Even if there is no dream in the sky, he still insists on walking the road under his feet.

Compared with him, he seems too weak. After so long, I still have no courage to break my dream and look down at my feet.

"It's not so easy to learn to play football. Your body and brain may not be a problem, but I'm not optimistic about your learning ability."

After a long time, Li Ze spoke again. He still didn't think much of Gao shunyao's choice of football. But this time, his tone was no longer proud and sarcastic, but became calm and serene.

"As long as you study hard, you can always learn even if you are slow. I'm not good at learning. I'm slow at learning, but I'm not a fool. I can always learn something. "

"You're not a fool, but you don't know anything. You just think that you can become a football player. You're not as good as a fool because you're 250 years old and 2 years old."

Hearing Li Ze's sarcasm again, Gao shunyao just raised his finger and gave him a middle finger. But at the same time, he had a satisfied smile on his face.

Li Ze and Gao shunyao have been together for a long time. He has never seen Gao shunyao have such a thirst for knowledge.

"You really want to go to college and play football that much?" Li Ze couldn't help talking again.

"Of course," Gao shunyao said firmly. Speaking of this, he was also cheering himself up. "Lao Li, tell me the truth, what do you think is the gap between me and Japanese college football? How difficult is it for me to enter a Japanese university to play football? "

Looking at Gao shunyao's serious expression, Li Ze suddenly began to laugh, "what's the difference Let's talk about a common sense question: do you know that there is no so-called team selection in Japanese university football. Anyone who is willing to play can train with the team. "

What?

Li Ze's words froze Gao shunyao's face. No exam, go if you want? If so, what is your determination and fighting spirit, your pursuit and goal? It's not easy to be serious once. What's the result?

Li Ze is not joking with himself, is he?