December 4.
There was a boy chasing me in the University. He was very handsome and had a lot of money in his family. But everyone said that he was very fickle, but I think I should try, because I don't want to like Ke Yuan any more. We are from two worlds.
At this point, her diary stopped for half a year before the beginning of things.
June 2.
Today, it rained heavily. I came out from Mo Yiheng's home. I felt that my heart was gray, and the whole person was facing collapse. He was with other women, just when I wanted to leave here with him.
I don't understand why he said he loved me so much. I tried to love him, but he had hurt me before I really fell in love with him. I think I should leave here.
August 3.
It's like Ke's going all out to be my puppet's assistant, and he doesn't need to be a good one I still love him, even after such a long time away, even after being with Mo Yiheng, I still love him.
……
Two or three hours after returning home, Ke Yuan read all the diaries written by sufu.
Her diary is very simple, without any emotional catharsis, just a light about her mood, from her girlhood to his feelings, until now.
The last one was written on the last day of last year.
December 12.
He is going back to China. For the woman he likes, I will go back with him.
I don't like that city very much, but I have to go back, because I am his assistant, shouldering the responsibility that the president asked me to monitor him, but I never told the president what he was doing.
My intuition tells me that Ke Yuan should not stay in Wuguang club for too long. For those who betray, the president will never be soft hearted. I am afraid that one day, we will become rivals.
So, I want to stop liking him from now on.
……
Almost every few days, the last word of her life is to stop liking him.
He seemed to be able to imagine that every night when she sat under the lamp and wrote these words, her mood was mature from green to astringent, and she never changed.
Heart seems to be filled with some different emotions, swelling in the heart seems to be fortress full of general, and even some heartache.
Ke Yuan goes out of his study and looks at Sufu's face, which is full of flour, beside which is a tablet.
Ke Yuan felt tight in his heart and went over to hold her from behind.
Sue Fu trembled with fright, holding up her hands and not daring to touch him. "What are you doing? I'm covered with flour. Shall we make dumplings? Chinese New Year is to eat dumplings
She looked at the tablet tutorial with interest, and mixed noodles in a big bowl, but it was always soup and water, and she couldn't make it.
Ke Yuan chin against her shoulder, looking at her masterpiece with a smile: "have you found that you and others do not quite the same?"
"Yes." Sufu wiped the tip of her nose with the back of her hand, a little at a loss, "this can't be reconciled."
Ke Yuan kisses her ear, "I'll do it. If you do it like this, we won't have dumplings next year."
Ke Yuan washed his hands and added water to the dough again, which soon became a dough.
Sufu sat watching, lowered her eyes and opened her mouth gently: "do you think it's naive when you read my diary?"
She never showed it to anyone, or even talked about it to anyone. She just wanted him to know more about her psychology.
Because if she said that face to face, she couldn't say it.