Chapter 49

The diary is more than ten years ago. It's a thick book, which records the love and hatred of a gentle housewife in the whole year.

Ling Han just opened a page at random, and the purpose of entering was unspeakable suffocation‘ When the car stopped, I wanted to pick up Dong Ming with an umbrella. He was cold and would cough in the rain. At that time, he would feel uncomfortable for a long time. But through the window, I saw the bright woman in the car talking in his ear and laughing wildly. On his face, there was something I had not seen for a long time

I know that we have come to an end. "

On a Friday night eleven years ago, when Ling Dongming came back from a dinner party, Wen Qingwan went to bed early as usual. He went straight to his study as usual and stayed all night‘ On July 25, sunny, my mother was seriously ill. I went back to my mother's house and told her that I wanted to separate from Dongming. My mother probably knew something about it. She advised me to be lenient and to keep my family business. It's common for men to be away from home. I can leave it alone, but I should also think about han'er who was sent abroad to study since I was a child, The mother said that the woman was not old, and she had a girl with her. If she came into the door, she would add a son and a half to Dong Ming. How would han'er get along with herself then? After all, her mother was more far-reaching than I thought. The idea of divorce was broken

"Today is the Mid Autumn Festival. Dong Ming says that the company has something to do with it. Han'er calls me overseas and says that his studies there are about to be finished and his grades are excellent. My tutor recommends Zhibo. I'm afraid that han'er won't come back. I pretend to be angry and yell at him to be there

When I returned to China a few years ago, I was afraid that my body would not last long. When I went to tea, I had to wait for Han Er to return home and hand over all the properties he had bought these years to him. "‘ On December 15, yin and han'er returned home today. Dong Ming was on a business trip. Although he told his housekeeper to pick up the plane at the airport, I was still worried. I met the woman in a red coat, followed by a girl. She was very beautiful. She must have grown up later and bewitched many men. It seemed that the woman knew me and wanted to say hello to me, I stumbled out of the airport and stood outside. It snowed outside. The girl stood behind me and gave me an umbrella. She seemed to know everything. My heart was broken,

I've given in again and again, but I've let a little girl trample on my self-esteem so blatantly. "

‘……’

The well-defined fingers holding the edge of the diary, because the strength is too big, the veins on the back of the hand burst, as if to break the blood vessels. Ling Han's face sank a little bit. The diary left by Wen Qingwan reminds him day after day from half a year ago that the ambiguous time between him and ye Huanyan was a complete joke, and the so-called love based on his mother's dignity has become a reality

Now he has a deep sense of guilt for his mother.

He still remembers that on the day of his return to China 11 years ago, he couldn't find the housekeeper to pick up the plane at the airport. When he got outside the airport, he saw his mother with a small red umbrella in her hand and a dazed look. Her shoulders were covered with snowflakes, and her face was pale against a plain Beige coat.

"Ma, why are you here, housekeeper? You are not in good health. How can you be brave? "

At that time, he couldn't understand his mother's face. Only when she was in poor health and was blown by the cold wind in winter, did he get sick in a trance.

"It's OK. Let's go home."

Wen Qingwan, who is always gentle, saw the first sentence Ling Han said that day, and the sentence "go home" was particularly firm.

The more people cling to something, the less they get. Half a year after Ling Han's return to China, Wen Qingwan is getting thinner and thinner. He seems to be getting better in the new year. It's hard for Ling Dongming to let go of what he's doing and rush back to get together with his family. But in the evening, he ShouSui answers the phone and goes out. It's the same night that Wen Qingwan inexplicably sends a message to the servant

When he lost his temper, he dismissed all the servants in his family, and for the first time, he broke things in his family.

The doctor said that the spread of cancer cells leads to patients' gloomy mood, and there will be some extreme psychological changes to prepare them for it. Therefore, all this did not come as a surprise to Linghan.

Afterwards, he took his thin, almost weightless mother back to the room to have a rest, but she refused to sleep, saying that time was running out and asked him to take out the old record player at home.

The old melody in the record player seems to involve people in the age of simplicity.

Wen Qingwan said, "han'er, if you like a girl one day in the future, you must really like it."

At that time, Ling Han didn't care about the love affairs. Although he had several periods abroad, they were all settled and easy to get together.

"Mom, why did you suddenly say this? My father made you sad?"

"No," Wen Qingwan said, holding his hand, "your father is very good. It has nothing to do with your father. I just see that you are still so young and don't understand a lot of things. I'm afraid you will hurt other girls' heart one day."

"Why do you think your son is so irresponsible?"

"It's not," she said with a rare smile. "My son, I know best. He doesn't care about anything at ordinary times. In fact, what he really cares about is more than anyone else." Ling Han left home when he was a child, but he didn't have much attachment to his parents. He didn't pay attention to Wen Qingwan's words. He put a quilt on her and tried his best to be filial. He was impatient and wanted to go to the study to study his project materials. When he came to the door of the room, he heard Wen Qingwan's words,

It's too cruel to be connected with the truth later discovered, which makes him regret himself“ Ling Han, if you don't like that girl one day, you must make it clear to her. Don't hide it. A woman's heart is the most sensitive. She can feel whether you like her or not. It's better to separate than to drag. " At that time, he was busy looking for information. He didn't realize that when Wen Qingwan called him, it was not "Han Er" but "Ling Han". He didn't realize that what Wen Qingwan said to him was actually meant for Ling Dongming. The night was heavy, and the night wind beat on the window, making a rustling sound. Ling Han closes his diary, locks it in the safe again, puts his hands in his trouser pockets, goes to the window and stares at the night outside. He can't even tell himself. Now the anger on ye Huanyan is whether he hates her for seeing Jiang Meilan do all the bad things without stopping her, or he hates that he hasn't really done filial piety as a son of man. It has been more than half a year since I knew what happened in that year. That night, ye Huanyan was drunk. Without giving him a buffer time, he had a relationship with him. His extreme and emotion could not be controlled. After the lack of that buffer time, he became more and more serious. He also knows that things in those years should not be blamed on ye Huanyan. But he is more clear, don't blame on ye Huanyan, he has no reason to tangle with her. This novel has been translated by www.novelhall.com and if you are reading this somewhere, they have stolen our translation.