Chapter 432

Su Xiaowan is going to wait here for grandma to go back after the first seven days.

Grandma has no one else here, just her.

In front of her, Su Xiaowan has been blaming herself for not being filial to her grandmother.

Feng Yan bought a house here. He and Su Xiaowan have been living here for a few days, not far from the hospital. Originally, they wanted to take good care of the old lady, but they didn't think about it. What they are waiting for is such bad news.

When she got home, Su Xiaowan was lying there. Feng Yan asked her to have dinner several times. She was also in a trance. She often thought of many things when she was a child.

Grandma's affairs in recent days make her particularly dependent on Feng Yan.

Life is not terrible birth and death, more terrible is the memory, if you can take away the memory, there will be no sad.

But often, those memories can't go away, appear in her dreams, appear now when she is in a daze, always appear in front of her eyes.

She had never missed a person so much.

But instead of crying, she was calm.

Calm let Feng Yan feel worried.

He took clothes draped over her, warm hands fell on her shoulders, he also experienced the pain of leaving.

But people live, should face, this is God's punishment for adults.

"Su Xiaowan, no one can escape the seven hardships of life. In front of the seven hardships, people are small and humble. This is the price of growing up.

You are no longer a child. You should learn to face the reality. What's more, your grandmother doesn't want to see you like this. "

Su Xiaowan raised her eyebrows. She read Feng Yan's words carefully. Her eyes were red, but her tears didn't come out.

These days, she didn't sleep for several hours, so her face was very bad. When she went out today, she barely spent a light makeup. She didn't want her grandmother to see her pale face, and she didn't want her grandmother to be uneasy.

The price of growing up.

It's unbearable.

She pursed her lips. "Feng Yan, it's too expensive to grow up. I'd rather be like this all my life. In this way, you won't leave me."

"Life, old age, illness and death, no one can escape. Even you and I can't escape this fate." Feng Yan's face collapsed tightly, looking at her and touching her cheek.

fatalism.

Yes, sooner or later, they will leave.

The replacement of all things, the transformation from generation to generation.

That's the law of nature. No one can change it.

If you don't get old, don't get sick, don't die and don't live, then all the rules in the world will become terrible... The world will be in a mess.

"Sooner or later, we will meet them. It's just a matter of time."

"Feng Yan, you are not so comforting."

Feng Yan is not very comforting. At least, it's his first time.

He patted her on the shoulder. "You just understand."

"I know, Feng Yan, I all know, but I think it's all too sudden, I'm not ready."

She suddenly hugged him and leaned on him, feeling the warmth of the man and the harbor of her own. "In fact, before Grandma was ill, I expected today in my heart. At that time, I found grandma old for the first time.

It's also the first time that I'm afraid of death. In fact, I'm really not afraid of death, but I can't see the people I care about leave me. Feng Yan, I don't care. I'm really not afraid, but I'm afraid... You and grandma leave me... But Grandma still leaves me. "

Her voice was weak, but she had to bow to fate, "but I know that grandma didn't want me to cry, so I didn't cry. When I sent her away, I didn't shed tears.

I'm just sorry that I haven't talked to her, I haven't accompanied her much, and she hasn't seen our baby born. If you bully me in the future, no one will help me... "

"I will not bully you."

That's Feng Yan's promise, a lifelong promise.

There was a brief silence between them. Feng Yan held out his pocket, took out a piece of sugar, ripped the package, and put it into Su Xiaowan's mouth. The sugar was bought a few days ago when he went out to buy an urn.

The sweet and greasy taste made Su Xiaowan's tears come out.

"Feng Yan, but now I can't help crying."

Su Xiaowan's tears are like a tap.

All of a sudden, there was a flood.

About cry for more than an hour, she cried tired, just stop.

Su Xiaowan just dried her tears. She looked at Feng Yan stubbornly.

"Feng Yan, I won't cry any more."

Feng Yan reached out to touch her head and looked down at her wet shirt. His mother often told him that girls are made of water, so we should protect and love them. Otherwise, we can't stop the tears.

He didn't believe it before, but after meeting Su Xiaowan, he understood his mother's words.

Girl, it's made of water.

Protect it gently.

Su Xiaowan took a deep breath. He didn't want to bear all this for a second time. She said, "Feng Yan, if you want to leave me one day, you must say goodbye to me."

Feng Yan's hand held her tightly, "... We will never say goodbye."

"But one day, we will all go... I don't want you to die with me. If you can, I hope you will live longer than me. It's better to live a long life."

"It's torture for me to live a long life without you."

He leaned over and gave her a kiss on the cheek. Obviously, he didn't want to talk about it. "OK, take a bath and go to bed early."

Su Xiaowan enters the bathroom. She cleans herself and looks at her haggard in the mirror as she puts on her clothes.

Thinking of Feng Yan's words.

Her illness is probably the departure of her grandmother, which makes her feel that the pace of death will be close to her at any time.

She was afraid that... All of a sudden, Feng Yan would be just as unbearable as her.

After taking a bath, she climbed into Feng Yan's arms and said, "Feng Yan... Even without me, you have to live well.

Life is more important than anything. You can't be so emotional, you know? Be obedient. "

The world is so cruel that it's hard to love each other.

Not because I don't love, but because I love too much

But the world, not because of love and can change the track, not who left who, the world will not continue to turn.

They are just small individuals and can't shake the universe.

"Without you, my life is not like death."

Smelling speech, Su Xiaowan's body was stiff. She leaned over and held her finger on his mouth. "It's better not to live than to die. You have to live well, or I'll ignore you."

Most of the time, she was too busy these days. On the contrary, she was not tired at all. She didn't want to mention such a heavy topic any more.

"Let's sleep."

I've been very busy these days.

Before dawn the next day, Su Xiaowan woke up. In fact, she didn't sleep long, because she really couldn't sleep.

They had dinner and went to grandma's house.