Chapter 292

Xu Fan remembers that when he first came here, the situation became more chaotic. He once saw a man robbing other people's property blatantly, shouting with amusement: "come after me!"

"Once upon a time, it was not the same here. People were full of hope and looked for light here. However, light is not allowed in this world. All hope and pursuit of light will be smashed here by the hammer of reality."

A few years ago, Xu Fan's mother Luo Qi came here. A thief robbed her bag. Luo Qi couldn't catch up with her and was so angry that she burst into tears. At that time, he felt boundless despair.

At the age of 28, Luo Qi was beaten by her husband and swept out of the house. From then on, she began her wandering career. In a small county, she didn't even have much work to wash dishes. She had to work as a dancer in a bar and sell her life in a disco. When she was alone, she always saw a white shadow on the window, and dreamed that the small coffin contained her 7-year-old son, but it was hard to find a place to live.

At that time, even the bad old man had to sleep with him just for a bed.

Luo Qi also had good luck. She once met a boyfriend and happily took him back to her mother's home. But the elder brother fell the bowl and cursed her. If she was dumped, she would not come back!

In her hometown, the system of life is far more stubborn and conservative than imagined. In the big brother's eyes, if she doesn't get the Red Book of marriage, she will only bring back clients.

Sad and desperate people sometimes throw themselves out like a stone to take a chance. Luo Qi left his hometown to work, stumbling, and finally fell into this stinky, moldy corner of the desperate village, in the narrow room head to head, foot to foot live more than a dozen men and women.

But everyone, you say I laugh, met on the road, but also slowly asked, where is Qi? Luo Qi feels at ease. She even recognizes several good sisters. When she leaves, she hugs her head and cries bitterly. She makes an appointment to keep in touch with them, but later she disappears.

Although desperate village is chaotic and dangerous, Luo Qi is not only not afraid, but also regards it as her home. She claims that she has found a home in desperate village and the evidence that she is alive.

Equally important is the fact that there are many male workers in the factory, and she feels hopeful.

However, she was alone and did not have the care of her fellow countrymen. The factory was not friendly to her. The supervisor always scolded her, and sharp words came out one after another. Luo Qi was fed up with it and yelled at him, "you son of a bitch, I'm not afraid of you!"

Later, she changed more jobs. She suspected that this was a kind of management style. She was only looking for the old and ugly, but she was slow and made a warning to other workers, and she was always caught. Luo Qi didn't dare to enter the factory again. He set up the model of doing odd jobs in despair village. He earned 3000 yuan in two months at most.

"It's exciting and comfortable." She said with dancing hands and feet, just like people who have been wandering all their lives suddenly have coats and live a human life.

Sometimes I'm too lazy to work. A group of people go to the factory to make trouble, turn off the chopper, pull out the electric wire, and ask for the spiritual loss. Luo Qi also makes trouble. She doesn't care about the future.

I'm still a poor man in the future, and it's impossible for me to do it all my life. Today, I can also fork my waist and take a breath.

When walking with Xu Fan in the village in the city, Fang Tianxing's expression is dignified, as if looking at the old house severely burned by the fire. Xu Fan points to the dark and dirty interior of an Internet cafe, "that's the place. When I get up in the morning, there's a person who doesn't move and is out of breath."

When passing the noodle shop on the side of the road, there was a smell that would make me nauseous. The landlady took out the swollen pork from the bucket, squatted on the ground, chopped it up, and threw it into the pot without turning her head. Fat chefs have never been expressionless. No matter what you order, they serve the same kind of sticky noodles, 4 yuan per bowl. The price has never gone up in ten years. Xu Fan said that they call it "Mengpo soup".

Those who can't extricate themselves from Internet cafes have their own reasons. Left behind children rely on their parents' guilt and get 1000 yuan a month for support. They only hope that they will come to adulthood later.

He expressed that this kind of life is too cool, relying on a series of dirty words. Even the owner of the Internet bar is helpless.

Beside him, a migrant worker was staring at the photo of himself wearing red flowers and joining the army with honor, while singing a military song. When he told me that he had given up his military position for marriage but had been derailed, he held my shoulder and cried, "brother, you don't know, I feel sad. What about the romance of those years? Where is it? "

The reason why Xu Fan left here was that he couldn't stand "that kind of look". His parents divorced when he was young. When he went out to work at the age of 17, he envied others for being away from home and having trouble. However, he was alone and ran into walls everywhere.

"In the society, people are indifferent to each other. People don't look at you directly, but there is no such look in despair village." Xu Fan said to Tianxing: "everyone is in a leisurely and leisurely way. It seems that no one discriminates against me. There are no" senior people ". It's like a vagrant who seems to find a home.

Luo Qi, Xu Fan's mother, once thought that the happy life in the village of despair could last forever, but half a year later, she found something in her heart broke down quietly.

At first, they were willing to work in order to go to the Internet bar. After a long time, they were like a scrapped car, which was hard to start. "There are still more than ten yuan left. Forget it and go online first. That's what we all think."

A lot of people save money on the Internet. They only eat one meal a day and sell everything they can. I really didn't have any money, so I walked around the alley like a primitive man, hoping to meet acquaintances and help them out for five or ten yuan.

Xu Fan met a disabled man, one hand patting the keyboard to play "underground city". Everyone envied him and urged him to go begging. He had talent and didn't waste it, but he didn't even have the diligence to beg.

From sleeping on a cheap bed, Luo Qi also relaxed, sisters are no longer willing to work, just to chat, or simply fall asleep“ Basically hibernating all year round, I don't know why it's always like this. " Luo Qi thought, "is, also feel meaningless."

Xu Fan has been quitting smoking for three months, but now he is squatting on the roadside again. A migrant worker waddled past us with slippers. He seemed to know Xu Fan, but no one said anything.

There is no such thing as friendship in despair village. For six years, Xu Fan didn't even know anyone's name. "It's a life of walking dead. No one wants to know someone else's name.".

Fang Tianxing asked him: "don't you feel afraid? Don't think about what to do after 40? Do you spend your life in such a negative way? "

"You are a normal person's idea, but Xiaoyao immortal is abnormal, understand?" Xu Fan's tone became more and more impatient.

Despair village does not allow you to have that kind of idea. The villages in the city are all people who want to die. You can only drift with the tide and do not want to think about it after a week. Today is a good thing. There is no hope in life, all for the game, forget the outside world, forget all the inferiority, because when you stop, you will feel very sad.