Chapter 452

A few days later, it was the Mid Autumn Festival. On that day, sun man was going to the next city to have dinner with his family. Because he was going to take the train, sun man got up at 5 o'clock and saw the snacks on Sun man's desk shared by his roommate before he went home, including a package of spicy bars, a package of chocolate wafer and a package of quail eggs. Sun man was so hungry that he ate them all and told himself that this was his breakfast.

As a result, after washing, he arrived at the station. Because it was early, sun man bought another corn. When she ate, she told herself that she would not eat after eating. After all, there was a dinner party at noon and in the evening. But Sun man overestimates his brain and reason. When there is only one third of corn left, sun man's brain can't wait to go out and buy brown sugar cake and rice balls. After eating these, sun man finally calms down.

After eating so much, sun man still can eat, still want to eat, has been eating. Just want to mechanically stuff things into the mouth, the mouth is empty, the heart is empty, sun man is very afraid of this sense of panic.

She is very desperate and can't face such an ugly self. At night, sun Manman walks aimlessly on the road. She feels like she has a felony, but she doesn't know how to repent and get rid of such a sin.

I used to like painting very much, which seems to have become a habit. But now I become a greedy monster every night. I hide and devour snacks, just like a beast biting prey. In fact, they are no longer happy to enjoy food. They can't taste food in the later stage of every eating. They just become a mechanical swallowing movement.

After frequent overeating, the second sun man found that his face was swollen and his eyes were swollen. Once he fell into a low mood, he was more difficult to extricate himself. The whole person wants to eat all day long and becomes a monster dominated by food.

Sun man remembered taking away a black pepper beef rice at noon because she felt that the beef had low calorie content. When she took it back to her dormitory, her roommates were shocked, because in their cognition, sun man would not eat such greasy food, and it was all meat.

Sun man smiles with a guilty heart and eats quickly. But their discussion and vision make sun man feel very uncomfortable, so he feels uncomfortable again and begins to crave food to cover up the uneasiness.

Sun man played truant for the first time. He went back to his dorm to sleep in the afternoon. When he woke up, he had a splitting headache, like a hangover, and his voice was dry and hoarse. When his roommate came back from class, he was discussing whether he wanted to order some hand-made cakes and roast cold noodles. Sun man cheated them that he had a fever, then got up and put on his shoes and went to the study room.

The blood sugar of overeating soared rapidly and fell back quickly, which made sun man's appetite more and more vigorous. After two or three days of overeating frequency, eat more than once, and then edema and recovery time is longer. Sun man didn't know how much weight he had gained. Sun man didn't dare to weigh himself.

At that time, sun man was extremely sensitive and unstable. When his acquaintances looked at him more, sun man felt that he must be fat, and they must secretly laugh at him. Then this meal will certainly be able to resist, but the next day it will collapse.

You see, for the sake of food, sun man has been reduced to a dog, with no dignity and extremely humble. Sun man even thinks that if sun man's parents, the boy who has a crush on Sun man, find that he is so good on weekdays, and even doesn't allow himself to shake his legs and hunchback as a perfect goddess. If people see that sun man, who is highly demanding and elegant, is actually doing such a crime that makes people feel extremely remorseful, they may be shocked to doubt life.

Today, he ate a lot of food and finally couldn't eat any more. Now, sun man is dizzy with every breath. Sun man begins to lack oxygen and wants to sleep. His eyes are half open. He goes to a corner where there is no one and tries to spit himself out. But Sun man can't do it. He just wants to kill himself and end his shameful life.

Sun man turned and saw Fang Tianxing, "do you need help?" Fang Tianxing asked her.

Sun man subconsciously said: "you can't help me, no one can help me."

Fang Tianxing said: "it's just bulimia. It's not a big problem."

Sun man was surprised. Unexpectedly, Fang Tianxing could see his problems at a glance, as if he could be cured easily.

"Do you have a solution to my problem?" Sun man rushed to the doctor and asked.

"Of course there are ways." Fang Tianxing said casually.

"Please help me, I don't want to fall into the abyss again." Sun man asked Tianxing for help.

It's just this kind of pain that makes sun man skip the afternoon class. As a top student who has been getting a scholarship, she can hardly forgive herself.

Fang Tianxing's solution is to try to forgive herself and relieve her sense of guilt. Most of the people who suffer from bulimia are people with strong self-control before, and they can control their diet and exercise regularly.

But the body has a strong self-protection mechanism. When one day your own will collapses and this powerful protection mechanism works, you will feel like eating.

And it's not controlled by the brain, which has nothing to do with self-control. It's a physiological reaction, and it's hard to quit. Unlike tobacco and alcohol, because food is something we face every day, you have to re-establish a healthy relationship with it.

Fang Tianxing really helped sun man change himself, get rid of the agony of bulimia, and let Sun man realize the happiness of life and be able to live happily.

For example, today, now, at this moment, sun man's stomach is full of his favorite tomato egg rice and chocolate sandwich biscuits.

But at this moment, sun man knew that he was no longer a patient, because sun man's first reaction was no longer to hate himself, but to try hard to embrace himself unconditionally.

Accepting his own needs is the first step of sun man's acceptance. The moment he understands this, sun man knows that sun man has set foot on the right road.

Sun man thought that from today on, he would really get better. People's lives should not be all about weight, food and other people's eyes. Sun man hopes to become a tolerant person and understand as many behaviors and things as possible. Sun man will become his own guardian, take the responsibility of taking care of himself, and learn to accept his own care. I believe that sun man deserves it.

I'm very happy that sun man came over those days. When he was the most serious, he also consulted a psychologist on the Internet. Sun man had countless times when he felt that he was a special failure, countless nights when he couldn't sleep because of overeating, and countless days when he doubted and blamed himself.

But Sun man knows that many times people need to help themselves. No matter how painful the moment is, you must believe that it will be better - reconcile with yourself, food and life.

Compared with before, sun man is getting better and healthier. I'm still young, there are so many landscapes I haven't seen, so many people I haven't met, and there are countless futures waiting for sun man not far away, so sun man will refuel well.