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Eventually I learn to just ignore the pain and I do this by just closing my eyes and focusing on something else like my thoughts or my research and though I can still feel the pain of Susan stitching me and my insides up I find I can mostly ignore apart from some of the times where she does something and the pain breaks through the calm but apart from that I just closed my eyes while trying to regulate my breath and focused on something else which helped for the duration of the operation, before I knew it I was completely ignoring the pain having gotten used to it and while I still feel the pain I just don't react to it anymore since I learned that every time I did react even with all the restraints Susan put on me with her powers my insides still moved and with Susan still messing around inside me that just meant I caused myself even more pain since my insides moved around her tools while they were doing there job and so I stopped moving and learned to ignore the pain since there would be even more pain if I didn't and right now I actually don't feel any pain at all so I must have mastered something and learnt not to feel pain which just proves how powerful and wilful I am. "You can get up now, I've just finished stitching you up and I need to wrap the bandages around you. I've already removed the forcefields holding you down so you're free to move just make sure you don't do anything too strenuous otherwise your wound will open up again and we don't want that, let me just get the bandages and then we'll be done and you can go home though I do think you should go to the hospital just I case to make sure you're actually alright. It actually turns out that I didn't have to do the surgery so quickly and without anaesthetic either since usually someone who had a wound for that amount of time would've already bled out and died but for some reason you didn't actually lose that much blood so you don't need a blood transfusion which I was prepared to give, I think it's because the metal shard didn't hit anything vital or any veins and it lodged itself against the wound and kept most of the blood in so you got lucky, it's ironic that the thing that wounded you also kept you alive isn't it."
I open my eyes and notice Susan walking over to one of the cabinets across the room and searching for some bandages/gauze presumably while talking towards me and I realise that I don't master my pain or something but that the surgery ended without me realising it as I was so focused on ignoring the surgery and the pain and it ended without my awareness which I suppose is a kinda mastery but the only reason I no longer felt pain was because she finished stitching me up and so I moved to sit up I the metal bed but when I moved I felt a stinging pain on my stomach and when I looked down I realised it was the stitches moving due to me moving so I guess the pains still there and it's exacerbated by movement so I'll have to keep that to a minimal over the next couple of weeks or maybe even days since I don't know how good my healing factor is and this might be fully healed in a week but I no longer have time to think about that as Susan has come back now with some gauze/bandages ready to wrap around my wound which she promptly starts doing. "Right let's get this started, just sit still Nick and I'll wrap the bandages around you. I'm gonna have to do it pretty tight so you might feel a little pain as I wrap it tightly around the wound but try not to move as I need to make sure this is as secured as possible, wouldn't want you waking up in the middle of the night tossing and turning to find out your bandages have come loose and your wounds open again so sit still. Alright, now we can start to talk. Why the hell didn't you tell me about this injury when you were right next to me while we were fighting Blastaar? I admit that you're help with the remote helped shut down Blastaar and defeat him but you had already built the remote and so we could've past it off to Reed and I could've taken you to be treated for your injury straight away, I know that Blastaar wouldn't have been defeated as fate but those guys are tougher than they look and they would've been able to eventually defeat Blastaar and send him back to the Negative Zone even without my or your help since I was just support and you just had to press a buŧŧon so there was no reason to risk yourself."
While Susan bandages my wound she begins to talk to me and ask me questions about why I would stick around and try and help take down Blastaar but I can't exactly say that the guy losses me off when he blasted me and gave me this wound or that however much I believed in the Fantastic Fours chances of taking down this threat I had to be absolutely sure that they would survive and defeat Blastaar which is why I helped because if the Fantastic Four were defeated and some of the members were injured or even killed they would probably die and the group would be disbanded or worse get replaced and I'm not about to be an employee for a Fantastic Four made up of Spider-Man, Wolverine, the Ghost Rider and Hulk because the only reason I am in this building is to gain access to the wealth of knowledge and information stored within its walls and databanks which would most likely be confiscated by shield once the group disbanded which would mean no more research for me and so it was in my best interest and to keep the Fantastic Four alive and going, I can't tell Susan that though but maybe I could tell her a slightly different version of that that's a lot less selfish and horrible and instead a lot more kind and respectable since I do still want to keep my job here for everything that it provides. "I didn't tell you about my injury because I wanted to help, even if Reed, Ben and Johnny would be able to handle Blastaar alone I didn't want to take that chance and drag you away from the battle just to help me. You were more than just the support for the team Susan you were keeping them all alive and if I dragged you off to help treat my injury than that could've been condemning one of them to death without your aid keeping them alive and so I stayed silent, you were crucial to defeating Blastaar Susan I mean you kept them alive and you even came up with a plan to defeat him on the spot and it worked.. You were amazing and inspiring Susan, everyone here is and I guess I thought that if I showed you all my wound than you would get worried about me staying and working here and maybe even fire me for my own protection but I don't want that, I want to stay here and work with you Susan. To work with all of you and research and create things that could help all of humanity and I now that the portal we just built doesn't really do that but it's a start, I think I'll stay away from Reeds projects in the future and try and help out and ȧssist some of the other people working here."
I think that was a good enough start with some good points and reasons along with a heavy dose of flattery towards Susan that doesn't hurt to help and it's not like anything I said about her wasn't true since it was all true and she was crucial in Blastaars defeat and sending him back through the portal because I couldn't have come up with such a good plan that would actually work and she did because she's clever and she knew all of her teams capabilities and powers along with her analysation of Blastaar to figure out what would work and it did work, I do think it's time for a bit more flattery now so that she doesn't actually fire me for my own protection and to keep me safe and I know just how to do that by playing on one of her soft points but before I can say anything she's finished bandaging my wound and she turns around and takes off her bloody surgery glove turning them inside out as she does and throwing them in the bin before she walks of let to the sink to wash her hands while continuing her talk with me. "Okay I guess I can understand that, just make sure to be more careful in the future and look after yourself since we can all take care of ourselves. More importantly what are you gonna be able to do if you aren't helping Reed on his project and start helping some other people here, Reed is the only one working on projects here and if you were to help anyone else here you'd just end up sitting in the couch and watching television with Johnny and Ben on the couch while eating junk food or maybe helping Johnny out with his maintenance of the vehicles but I don't think that's the reason you came here so what would be the point of staying if you're not actually gonna do some work and advance science?"
As she goes to wash her hands I quickly look around the room and I can only spot my blood on the pair of gloves that she just threw into the bin and not anywhere else so I guess she cleaned me up after the surgery but there is no way in hell I'm gonna leave any of my blood laying around and I currently have my clothes with the blood on them next to me but I also need that pair of gloves and so with her back turned toward me I quickly rush over to the bin ignoring the pain of my wound and grab the pair of surgery gloves out of the bin and shove them into my pocket before going and sitting back in my spot like nothing had happened, meanwhile Susan was just responding to what I had said earlier questioning who I would be helping in the Fantastic Four apart from Reed and mentioning how pointless it would be to help Ben and Johnny but she missed some Rory else out of that list and I saw my opportunity for some flattery to keep my place her stable and to also buŧŧer her up and get her on my side. "What do you mean Susan? The person I would be helping instead of Reed, that would obviously be you right?"
That's the hook and line and know it's just the sinker that's left, and it's gonna be a pretty brutal sinker…
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